Friday, February 29, 2008

Soulmate

We struggled together,knowing. We prattled, pretended, fought bitterly, laughed, wept over sad books or old movies, nagged, supported, gave, took, demanded, forgave, resented---hating the ugliness in each other,yet cherishing that which we were....Will I ever find someone to battle with as we battled,love as we loved,share with as we shared,challenge as we challenged,forgive as we forgave? You used to say that i saved up all of my feelings so that i could spew forth when I got home. The anger I experienced in school I could not vent there. How many times have I heard you chuckle as you remembered the day I would come home from school and share with you all of the feelings I kept in. "If anyone had been listening they would have thought you were punishing me,striking out at me. I always survived and you always knew that i would still be with you when you were through." There was an honesty about our relationship that may never exist again.

--Vian Catrell

:-)

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

Equilibrium

Love one another,but make not a bond of love:
Let it rather be a moving sea between the shores of your souls.
Fill each other's cup but drink not from one cup.
Give one another of your bread but eat not of the same loaf.
Sing and dance together and be joyous, but let each one of you be alone,
Even as the strings of a lute are alone though they quiver with the same music.

Kahlil Gibran
The Prophet

Understandable?This is what we call: give and take.

想当年(一)——空手道下篇

刚才有个傻婆在房间里武来武去,结果又再次燃起我对空手道的思念,那种全身肌肉激烈运作过后满身热汗淋漓,整身脏兮兮,那种在空中浑浊着由体内散发出热气的气息。激烈运动后,整身就像脱胎换骨了一样,虽然有时候肌肉激烈酸痛,可是感受着肌肉慢慢结实的感觉,很有满足感。

话说两年学校的空手道生活,就在那个姓许的教练决定自创派系,把本来原属于合心流派系的空手道改为义心流,结束了。我随着三个大我一年的学姐决定脱离与学校义心流的关系,跟着张志鸿教练在北海一带寻地方练习。就这样,一个年轻教练,还有我们三个,每个星期日在教练住处附近的小礼堂进行训练。那小地方空气不流通,后来我们通过学姐的关系,在北海佛教会开始了招生教学。招收到的人数不多,来来去去,持续下去的没有几个。有时候毕业了的学姐学长也会跟我们一起练习,所以有时候很热闹,有时候很冷清。因为人数日渐减少的关系,张志鸿教练后来也无心再教下去了,转由木财接手。撑不了多久,就在我毕业的那年,佛教会空手道学会停止了。

回想起当时大家对空手道的热情还有疯狂的练习,7个人挤满一辆车到槟城参加比赛参加升级考试,然后一大班人穿着半身的空手道服满身臭汗的在槟城招摇过市,新年时一大队互相拜年,这些高中生活青春的一部分。现在虽然已经久没训练,动作慢了,肌肉弱了,可是学过的还是清清楚楚地成了身体本能与回忆的一部分。

我没有参加过大型的空手道比赛,也没赢过什么比赛,更没有接近我梦想里的国家队,可我仍然高兴能够成为合心流空手道的一员,也为曾经与众多出色的学姐学长一起训练学习而感到光荣。

Butterworth Goshin-ryu Karate-do forever; in heart, soul, and memory.

Sunday, February 24, 2008

我拍的


波涛汹涌

海浪滔滔我不怕

明日之光

夕阳低下

未来
而且不是用相机的

Friday, February 22, 2008

business?anyone?

Ah jie's so stressed up now, and i felt sorry for not being able to help, so i think i can help her to spread word about this ;)
Basically,it's and event that held by UKM's AIESEC which happened to be my beloved anne jie's club, and she's the EXECUTIVE of PUBLICITY & COMMUNICATION of the event,big deal right?
Those who're interest in starting business or entrepreneurship can take a look on ah jie's blog with more detail~

Thursday, February 21, 2008

让,葬礼

歌曲:
歌手:杨宗纬 专辑:鸽子

多想要找到一丝挣扎在你脸上
可是你美得冷得淡得像月亮
等着你的那辆车灯闪一下
像催你草草断了我们的过往

*约好要每年回到初拥吻的地方
划一个记号写下相恋的感想
等明年我剩一个人坐在堤防
改唱首什么歌来纪念爱的傻

#你逃亡又你回航
你依赖我也你倔强
只要你微笑带一点感动的泪光
我就能够得到再给的力量

◎我你飞翔又你说谎
你苛求我也你奢望
我还以为爱就是要体贴的退
我们一起盖的罗马你却跟他拆了城墙
踩过我用挚爱建筑的天堂

太绝对的爱变成了活该朋友要我责怪
我却只想重来也许这就叫爱

多少日子盖的罗马你用一夜拆了城墙
踩碎我曾你栖息的胸膛


——让我想起了最后一次见面的时候,
你的眼神已经不再对我闪烁,
有的只是厌烦,
你的眼神已经说明白,
虽然话并没有说出来。
一个月半前结束了三个月的感情,
正确来说是两个月半的感情,
今年的生日会不会想起我?
断绝一切与你的联络,
想让自己好过,
爱过恨过留下的难过,
最后,
大家还是会好好过。

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

Lost and delirious

It got me too. 'Lost and Delirious'. It's not like plain love story between two girls, it looks at the story from a different perspective,an outsider,a friend.

Stories set in modern days boarding school,Catholic girl school i think, and just like Mary said,'nothing changed since 50 years ago in this place',even it's 21st century,some people still look at homosexual at one kind. Now i really think that Asian takes homosexual more easily than Western teenagers,at least not much abuse and harassment happen around here right?

The character of Pauline perfectly reflected a adolescent that lost herself for love. Sad ending.

And it's Piper Perabo!Who played as Rachel in Imagine Me and You!Remember Coyote Ugly?She's the song writer!No wonder she looks so familiar when i watched Imagine Me and You,she as the pretty bride that runaway later~

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

Murphy's Law

Don't worry,it's not some Mathematic equations or Physic equations, it's quite interesting theories about life, communication and relationship (well,some are rubbish) that i came across when I was searching for Interpersonal Communication Principles. Here are some of it about love:

Murphy's Love Laws

  1. All the good ones are taken.
  2. If the person isn't taken, there's a reason. (corr. to 1)
  3. The nicer someone is, the farther away (s)he is from you.
  4. Brains x Beauty x Availability = Constant.
  5. The amount of love someone feels for you is inversely proportional to how much you love them.
  6. Money can't buy love, but it sure gets you a great bargaining position.
  7. The best things in the world are free --- and worth every penny of it.
  8. Every kind action has a not-so-kind reaction.
  9. Nice guys(girls) finish last.
  10. If it seems too good to be true, it probably is.
  11. Availability is a function of time. The minute you get interested is the minute they find someone else.
And here are some about SEX:
  1. No matter how many times you've had it, if it's offered take it, because it'll never be quite the same again.
  2. Sex has no calories.
  3. Sex takes up the least amount of time and causes the most amount of trouble.
  4. There is no remedy for sex but more sex.
  5. Sex appeal is 50% what you've got and 50% what people think you've got.
  6. Do it only with the best.
  7. Sex is a three-letter word which needs some old-fashioned four-letter words to convey its full meaning.
  8. One good turn gets most of the blankets.
  9. Love is the triumph of imagination over intelligence.
  10. It is better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.
  11. Thou shalt not commit adultery.....unless in the mood.
  12. Never argue with a women when she's tired -- or rested.
Interesting? click here for more ;)

自私

有些选择无可避免的会比较为自己,换句话说,就是自私。
或许会伤害到身边的人,我们知道,却还是会执于我们所相信的,走我们所选择的路。
错与对?
是与非?
不是重点。
会不会后悔,才是主角。

家庭与爱情,对我们来说,永远都很难平衡得到。
未来与现在,你选择哪一个?
买大买小,买定请离手。

Sunday, February 17, 2008

我房间有一只很敢的壁虎到处爬,幸好我没有怕壁虎的室友。

吉他铉突然自己断掉,是在抗议我对它的忽视吗?

生活平淡到~~~~

我是宅人~

突然我想写一个‘同在屋檐下’的小说。

选择

有人选择为自己而活;
有人选择为别人而活。
有人的选择会影响自己的一生;
有人的选择会影响周遭的人;
有人的选择会影响成千上万无辜的人。
有人选择逃避,
有人选择面对,
有人选择结束一切,
人家有的选择,你也有得选,只是在于你敢不敢去面对,意志够不够坚定。
有人选择靠抽烟舒解压力,
有人选择做运动来舒解压力。
有人选择打枪,有人选择自杀,他们说环境所逼。
有人活得精彩自信,有人靠自己双手打拼天下。

我清楚我要的,所以我选择了当了现在的我。

Saturday, February 16, 2008

贪恋

贪恋味道;
贪恋声音;
贪恋体温;
贪恋温柔;
贪恋......

严重睡眠不足,
不懂在读什么了~
终于可以睡觉了~

Thursday, February 14, 2008

Valentine's Day

Today is quite a good day actually. Not because I found a new valentine,but about my presentation went quite well and managed to get quite a mark for the second checking of my Biology project.

They did quite well about the Valentine's in school, I can felt that 'love is in the air', love-shaped balloon floating everywhere, hold-hand couples along the corridor trying to give off message that they are happily in love. Well,that's Valentine's Day right? The day to show how happily you are with your partner. I'm lucky to have a busy schedule today,don't have enough free time to feel envious or emo,with the presentation going well,I'm actually....happy.

I do miss my previous relationship,although it's never perfect,but at least I'd tried my best. I told someone that that relationship took me a lot to try to maintain it; and dried me off to recover myself from it. To start a relationship with someone that likes you is easy,but to maintain it is harder than you thought. Never hope for forever,even long term relationship is hard enough. But, I'll still hoping that my next one would be someone that I can spend my life with, and I'll remind myself to take my time next time.

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

Chemistry

化学是读多了会想吐的其中一个科目。
一大堆莫名其妙的符号,还有一大堆莫名其妙会跟物理扯上关系的formula,还有一大堆算来算去的数学。
以前的人都吃饱没事做,想尽办法观看微小到看不到的atoms和molecules,然后弄出一大堆莫名其妙的原理和方程式,真的是折磨后人咯~~~~~
还要埋怨那个跟我一样姓Chang的写书人,做么写那么多字啦!简单一点不好咩~~~
13 chapters,this Saturday.

Sunday, February 10, 2008

Chinese NeAr

Happy Chinese NeAr,short form for new year.Yes,this is a cny post,and i can't believe that i have to go back tomorrow,but this year is better than last year,at least i got 2 days holidays and weekend.The only bad thing is,exam is around the corner,things will get busy soon,VERY VERY SOON,bless me~

It's good to have a car driving license and a car for you to use,especially during chinese new year.First time 'bai nian' with friends,taking angpao from this place and another place.

And i can't believe that a cousin of mine sudah kahwin,and is a mom of a 4 months old baby.My aunt's daughter,studied pharmacy in UK,married 2 years ago,and I can't remember anyone told me she was pregnant before.30 years of age,still look pretty and hot,and her voice still makes my bulu roma stands when she called my name,is already a mom.No i don't have the baby's picture,i don't fancy baby,and i truly think that crying babies are little devils.Don't believe?try it yourself,don't say that i never warn you~

Tuesday, February 5, 2008

Heroes 2

Just finish watching Heroes second season, it took me 2 months to download it, but spent only 2 days to finish it, and why lar, only 11 episodes this season, last season was 21 episodes long! It's so so so not enough!!!
It's a good series to follow,every episodes is breathtaking,makes u continue watching episode by episode,eager to know what will happen in the next episode.

and Peter Petrelli is an IDIOT!
all the good guys in this series seem to do stupid things when they need to choose who to believe.
Thou, Hiro Nagamura is cute~ been busy for saving the world for half year~ or,400 yrs~

Sunday, February 3, 2008

爱情不能做比较

爱情不能做比较-BABY

车子里收音机空气中还飘着雨
在这个深夜里你应该在他那里
有多久没再遇见你
房里没了你的气息
而我终于扔掉了你给我的所有东西

我可以填满了生活里每寸空隙
我知道不容易但我仍试着继续
听说你比从前开心
我还能有怎样的情绪
除了祝福我不想再多说一句

他很好他多好
这些我并不想要知道
再难忘掉多狂烈的拥抱
这回忆他怎么给的到

他多好
和我不同的好
最后是谁不重要
因为我知道
爱情不能做比较

因为我不要
你拿我和他做比较

就算是今天换一个人依靠
明天谁又比谁好
爱看不到听不到怎么做比较

别再说他很好他多好
这些我并不想要知道
再难忘掉多狂烈的拥抱
这回忆他怎么给的到

他多好
和我不同的好
最后是谁不重要
因为我知道
爱情不能做比较
希望你知道
爱情不能做比较


——You took back the heart that you gave me,
and thrown away the heart that I gave you.

Saturday, February 2, 2008

想当年(一)——空手道上篇

刚进中学时每个新生都要加入一个制服团体,招生日那天是很恐怖的,各大团体在礼堂摆挡拉拢新生,新生就被关在礼堂里面,任由被学兄学姐拉来拉去,总之就是出尽法宝吸引新生。
小学时候有跆拳道,曾经要求过妈妈让我学,可是妈妈不让,心里就是那个恨啊~遗憾啊~所以当时心里就已经有了几个选择:跆拳道,空手道,武术。
武术不算是制服团体,只是华乐团的学会,所以加入不得。
跆拳道多数为踢,我脚不比人长,吃亏吃亏~
空手道真合我意,原因是二哥之前也学过,所以不必再买空手道服。

第一天出席活动时,学姐学兄们问新生们为什么加入空手道,我答了‘因为我从小就想学空手道’,结果全堂哗然,学兄学姐开始盯上我。后来还有人回答什么‘因为我想当国手/州手’之类的,后来的后来大家都把我联想成那个回答‘我想当州手/国手’的人,我跳进黄河也洗不清。
结果我就被莫名其妙的选为新生的班级代表。

在初学者当中我表现算很不错,在技巧与体能上更胜过男生,一学就会,一练就熟。当时的那个教练好像叫khor什么的,很看得起我。
刚学到了第一个套拳后,就胆粗粗的参加了初学者的校际空手道锦标赛,那时候的新生只有我一个人参加,还有的就只有两个大我一级青带的学姐,结果我冠军。当时确实爽到~~

那时候真的热爱空手道啊~每天星期六早上风雨不改的去练习,同级们不敢的我都敢,基本功我最稳,练习后还故意留下来看学兄学姐们额外的练习,一边欣赏一边偷师~过后还跟几个学兄学姐熟练起来,会教我多一些搏击技巧与套拳。

对学校空手道的热情与活跃维持了两年。

Friday, February 1, 2008

假想

我还真的把自己当狼当狗了。
都只是假想幻想,希望自己能够很强,事实却是相反,还是一样。
可怜自己,是人类才会有的想法和行为......
就是懦弱......

我没有身高,
我没有精明头脑,
我没有花言巧语的天分,
也没有与生俱来的那份帅气,
也没有完美无瑕的脸蛋,
我只有一颗忠诚的心,
对待每一个人,
虽然我有一点孤僻。

泪如雨下

Too much happening,
too much emotion,
this is stressful,
you know?