Invisibility

看得见我的，爱不得；
想爱的，看不见我。
Those who see me, I can't love;
Those I wanted to love, can't see me.

继续隐形吧~

dreams and camera

When I was a kid,I always dreamed of going to many places around the world. The Seven Wonders, the desert, the Antics, any part of the world that are peaceful and harmony.
Well, so far, I'm still a frog under the well, I haven't been oversea, I don't even have a passport! See, I'm still so far far far away from my dream.

There is this guy named John Goddard. He listed down his 100++ goals like traveling to here and there, learning this culture understand that culture, and he eventually achieved most of them. How come har? If I list down my dreams list, will they come true someday? XD

I want a Camera! A real, cool, sophisticate camera can? Like Canon or Nikon DSLR cameras that make the holder look so darn pro! Ok, I know nothing bout digital camera,I never own one, and I don't even know how to operate one. Another dream that is still far away from my reality.

But I do have camera. My Sony Ericsson k550i Cyber-shot camera phone that allowed me to:

curi took picture of someone who falls asleep in class

curi took picture of my sleeping Milky without waking her up

curi took picture of someone too busy writing 'love letters'

and sometimes,snapped beautiful scene with not-so-beautiful quality

But now,the camera function goes haywire AGAIN! When I slide open the cover lens it says 'Another application is running. Close it, and then start the camera.' This happened before few months ago,and somehow it 'cured' itself mysteriously after few days and it was functioning well until YESTERDAY.
This phone really have a lot of problems. I just bought it last year and already masuk kilang for don't know how many times dah. I swear to myself I'll never buy phone from Sungai Wang again,even if it's not AP,you won't know how original is the original phone set from there. Next time when I want to buy a new phone,I would rather spend a little bit more money by buying in the phone company retail or service center to avoid all these CRAPS.

Now tell me,what should I do with this phone -.=....

numb-less

Sometimes I wonder,
would it be better if the heart just stop feeling anything?
So I won't fall and get broken again.
I'm outsider, watching you from your back,
catching you if you fall? You won't tell me,anyway.
Craving for your body warmth,
I feel secure when you're close,
it won't happen anyway.
I don't know how should I behave,
so I won't go beyond the boundaries.
Yes, I'm in blue mood recently,
but I'm still able to function, don't worry.

Get me outta here.

乱

最近思绪又混乱了，
话说钻牛角尖是双鱼座的特性，
在死胡同里打结。

我需要时间，
来重新适应。

我光明正大地成了‘奸夫’，
因为清清白白，所以光明正大。

告诉自己这没什么大不了，
再难的都经历过，
这是我对自己的安慰。

情绪不受控制，
形象破灭了，
这证明我还不是专业的。

杂乱无章的一篇，
没有依序，没有关联。

moral of the story

最近很多人需要鼓励、加油。
B.Psych还在赶着assignments的seniors and juniors们要加油~
STPM快到了，我的同仁们，我大声地在这里替你们加油！
HELP University College的volleyball team也要加油！
我也要加油！

最近一直在进行volleyball训练。上课礼拜的TARC DIGI MATCH虽然无功而返，甚至是每场都是输得很离谱，可是我看到大家的努力。每粒球都努力去救，女生队差不多每人都为了救球而跌过。第一次出队，第一次整team一起打，也只能说是去吸取经验而已。
这个拜六的是MAPCU，话说很重要，教练对女生队志在必得，还派男女各两队=.=''....
今天最后一次训练，女生全员到期，第一次-.=''
话说Team A很强，一个SUKMA player,一个Zimbabwe national player,一个我的前队长兼前Kedah state player。我在Team B。
刚开始的有些失落是真的，因为我期盼跟我前队长并肩作战，话说她之前是我的偶像。^^''
话说Team B很乱来、很吵、很疯狂。我从来不知道打球可以那么疯癫 -.=''
结果Team A vs Team B,guess what? Team B won.
在看似比较有默契和没有压力的疯狂状况下，虽然没有好的setter(本人）和spiker,却赢了实力比较强的Team A。
So what's the moral of the story my friends?
NO stress,then you can do it!

I want to be a better player
I want to be a better player
I want to be a better player!!!!!
=自我催眠

Fall for you-Secondhand Serenade

Am                                        F
The best thing about tonight’s that we’re not fighting
     C                               G
It couldn’t be that we have been this way before
Am                             F
I know you don’t think that I am trying
C                                    G
I know you’re wearing thin down to the cor
F         G
But hold your breath


   C                                   Am
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
F
Over again
                G
Don’t make me change my mind
 C
I won’t live to see another day
Am
I swear its true
   F                              G
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
               Am F C G
You’re impossible to find


Am                    F
This is not what I intended
   C                                      G
I always swore to you that I would never fall apart
Am                            F
You always thought that I was stronger
     C
I may have failed
                          G
But I have loved you from the start
 F         G
Oh, But hold your breath


   C                                   Am
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
F
Over again
                G
Don’t make me change my mind
 C
I won’t live to see another day
Am
I swear its true
   F                              G
Because a girl like you is impossible to find

It's impossible


Am      F      C
So breathe in so deep
G        Am
Breathe me in
F         C
I’m yours to keep
G               Am
And hold onto your words
F         C
‘Cause talk is cheap
G           F
And remember me tonight
When you’re asleep


   C                                   Am
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
F
Over again
                G
Don’t make me change my mind
    C
Or I won’t live to see another day
Am
I swear its true
   F                              G
Because a girl like you is impossible to find


C                                   Am
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
F
Over again
                G
Don’t make me change my mind
 C
I won’t live to see another day
Am
I swear it’s true
   F                              G
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
              (C)
You’re impossible to find

Credit:
http://guitartabkills.blogspot.com/2008/10/fall-for-you-guitar-chord-by-seconhand.html

once in a year

No matter how you say it,it still hurts.
I can do nothing but to accept it.
Yet,I can't help myself from falling.

A or B?

曾经明目张胆的在部落格写情书示爱，自以为的浪漫，肉麻得很。没有开始没有结局的明恋。
当.....
Missing you makes me happy,so why not I just continue missing you.
这是很单纯的喜欢，很简单的恋着，没有希望回报，不会有心痛的感觉。
可是当......
I'm missing you like crazy,but will you even think about me?
这很不简单，每想到那个人心里就会愁，没信心没尊严，悲伤哀伤。
单纯的喜欢，不就好了吗？可是人总是自私，总是会有所期望。结果，还是算了。A,继续恋着，B,失望换绝望的死心。
光明正大恋着你？我可以吗？是不应该的，就算大家都叫我老大。
你看，都叫你远离我了，还说我懦夫，现在我还真想逃到没有你的地方。

我们是矛盾体，不喜欢当女生，更不喜欢当贱男人。
‘如果你是男的......’
拜托，如果我是男的，你就不会考虑我了。因为我的性格我的一切都会不一样了。
对，我是对男生有偏见，因为我不是男的。少了一条东西多了一些脂肪，所以我不会用下半身思考。
我一直处于劣势。他们说我的公主还没有出现。我觉得就算公主出现了我还是会处于劣势。
我恨我自己不是男的吗？我最多恨我自己的身高。
我选择A，目前。

R.I.P.

Remember that a cute kitty that I mentioned in my blog last few months ago? The Siamese kitten. He was not a kitten anymore,a big grown cat now,but still cute. The Indian family that lives opposite called him Spotky or Spotty,something like that. But now he's gone. I found him laid death outside just now,when I walked Milky. He's dead,for unknown reason,he was not breathing anymore. I suspect he might be knocked down by vehicle,as he was born imperfect in terms of physical. Whoever his murderer is, I curse that he or she to be a stray cat next life. I know there are many of us that love this cat. I feel sorrow that he was not buried with dignity,as there are no tools for us to dig the ground. I didn't dare to look at him. I mourn. R.I.P.,Spotky or Spotty.

Volleyball competition tomorrow at 8am until 8pm,have to wake up at 6am. I'm the captain and setter again. I don't feel good,a bit stress. Looking forward to have a nice match tomorrow.

-How I wish that I'm a guy at that moment -

yea rite

I was google-ing on net for my group project topic,and I found this!
Islamic Clerics In Malaysia Rule To Ban Tomboys
Yea rite,come and try us.