Wednesday, September 30, 2009

vulnerable

Vulnerable- Secondhand Serenade

Share with me the blankets that you're wrapped in
Because it's cold outside, it's cold out side
Share with me the secrets that you kept in
Because it's cold inside, it's cold inside

And your slowly shaking fingertips
Show that you're scared like me so
Let's pretend we're alone
And I know you may be scared
And I know we're unprepared
But I don't care

Tell me tell me
What makes you think that you are invincible
I can see it in your eyes that you're so sure
Please don't tell me that I'm the only one that's vulnerable
Impossible

I was born to tell you I love you
Isn't that a song already?
I get a B in originality
And it's true I can't go on without you
Your smile makes me see clearer
If you could only see in the mirror what I see

And your slowly shaking fingertips
Show that you're scared like me so
Let's pretend we're alone
And I know you may be scared
And I know we're unprepared
But I don't care

Tell me tell me
What makes you think that you are invincible?
I can see it in your eyes that you're so sure
Please don't tell me that I'm the only one that?s vulnerable
Impossible

Slow down girl, you're not going anywhere
Just wait around and see
Maybe I'm much more ,you never no what lies ahead
I promise I can be anyone, I can be anything

Just because you were hurt doesn?t mean you shouldn't bleed
I can be anyone, anything
I promise I can be what you need

Tell me tell me
What makes you think that you are invincible?
And I can see it in your eyes that you're so sure
Please don't tell me that I'm the only one that?s vulnerable
Impossible

Will you open your heart and let me stay there?
Because you're already here.
(l)(f)

We are so vulnerable...
to get hurt/to fall in love/to die/to get disease/to be separated/to any type of harm physically and emotionally.
So,what makes us so different?
Your God? My god? Your sexuality? Your gender? Your belief? Your culture? Your family background?
Put that apart,we are just normal human being that able to feel love, pain, happy, arousal, sadness......
When we are young, we like freedom, we fool around, we play heartbreaking game;
When we are old, we want someone to be with us. We want stability in life, we want someone that can take care of us.
Why we don't appreciate when there is someone who is willing to be with us, willing to give everything anything to us when we are young?
Well,such is life. Get on with it.

This is a random. I don't know what I'm talking. If you feel I'm talking about you,so yes it is you.

Friday, September 25, 2009

respect

I want to say this: psychology students are not saint. We are human with feelings, and of course we sided our friends when we see them got hurt. Well, I mean I do. Not that I'm not understanding,but how am I suppose to be empathy towards someone who had hurt my friend's feeling. I'm talking about couples. Yes,couple who broke up and the one who got hurt is my dear friend. Of course it is possible that both parties experience some pain but just i didn't get to see another part of the story. But for those who just broke up and get a new partner within a week? Sorry but what I see is you are not respecting the relationship and the person that you had just broke up with. So you just lost my respect.

Sometimes when we pointed our finger at another person,we forgot to look at ourselves.
Please be considerate.
But are yourself being considerate of others?
Am I being considerate?

My room light bulb just stopped working. How am I going to change the light bulb with my height? *sigh*

伤害人的不会懂被伤害的人的痛。
除非伤害人的也曾经被伤害过。

Sunday, September 20, 2009

annoyance

Some stupid assholes keep on using PPS by giving excuse that PPS is streaming not downloading. Hell yea PPS IS DOWNLOADING AND STREAMING AT THE SAME TIME YOU STUPID,IT USES P2P SOFTWARE. Oh in case you don't know,P2P means peer-to-peer,which mean you are downloading from others who are downloading the same show. SO YES,YOU ARE EATING UP THE WHOLE HOUSE LINE YOU IDIOTS. And it annoys me! Usually I wouldn't mind if I'm not watching Youtube or finding journals on database. But I am watching this and I can't finish the last part! And this guy doesn't belong to this house anyway!

I love Ellen!XD

I'm going to 'accidentally' switch off the modem after the last part finish streaming.

I don't know what can I do when I finish all videos about Ellen on Youtube.

I'm addicted to you. And you.

Friday, September 18, 2009

research and experiment

Designing a psychology experiment is so not easy!

We spent too many days deciding what kind of experiment to conduct and end up with a simple and boring research idea. We do have research tutor assigned to us to help us with the research design,but we haven't contact our tutor because: either we got too many questions to ask so don't know which one to ask, or we have no idea what to ask at all. I don't even know which one is the reason.

Oh man,I never thought doing a research all by our own is so darn hard. Shall start thinking about what to do for thesis now,XD.

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

threaten

It is easy for us to talk,but when it really happens,most of us wouldn't do what we said we would do.

Last night,I was playing Lily Allen's 'fxxk you' loudly in my room at 1am. I was printing my notes feeling a bit fed up. Paper ran out, and I went out to get more blank papers. If you been to the place that I'm staying,my room was a small room between kitchen and living room,with window facing outside. As I was getting papers,I thought I saw some movement in the kitchen. Well,the living room's light was off,so from where I was standing it was quite dark. I thought it was just some huge bugs or whatever. But when I turn facing back to my room,I saw someone was walking outside my window! At this late hour and all my housemates were back,of course I got stunned for few seconds before I know what was going on and what to do. I don't really saw the person,what I saw was just a dark figure walking slowly passed by my window toward the back of the house. I ran to the front door and rang the alarm. Of course housemates came out and I told them I saw someone in our house territory. I went out and let off Milky,she picked up some smell outside my window. So for sure someone was outside my window just now,and that kind of thought creeps me out whole night.

After awhile when we all went back into our rooms, I went into kitchen to refill water and I smelled something. It was a scent like perfume in the kitchen. Last time when another housemate saw someone stand at the back of the house, he said he smell something like this as well. Weird yea? It's not just me,Ah Phi smelled it too.

I didn't really get to sleep. I was shocked and scared by the thoughts that while I was asleep someone is just outside my window or in the house. How to sleep when you are feeling insecure and threaten in terms of safety? Criminal is not about can or cannot. It's just about daring. Well,for sure,I'm letting Milky loose these few nights.

And I'm getting a part time job soon.

Friday, September 11, 2009

marriage

I've been watching Ellen's on youtube whole day,can get addicted I tell you.
If I get married,this will be the reason.

So beautiful.

Thursday, September 3, 2009

爱情

我回来了。
总是无时无刻的在成长中学习,
随着年纪的增长,记忆中的理想已逐渐模糊。
曾经可以毫无顾忌的大声说爱,以为爱情是唯一,
都只能怪我们太年轻,承诺得太天真。
现实与梦想总有很大的距离,
一生奋斗为油盐茶米生活的舒适,
更别说上为别人而活的那几分之几。
当现实是那么的近距离时,
爱情已失去那种年轻时特有的魔力。

现在的我,只能理解爱情为,勉强不得。
我才二十岁。她已二十三。