Sunday, May 16, 2010

spend money buy happy 2

Today I went Pipit Wonderful Market at Central Market because Lois Loo of Wonderkitten was having a booth there. That place was full of handmade arts, people, and people with arts! Trully 'water leak not pass' (水泄不通)human traffic jam! Many artists at their booths showing their creative arts and hard work. Although artworks there were quite expensive, should support if can la! Also, that place was full of people with camera! I was too shy to take pictures with my K770i phone, so I got no picture of the crowd and the arts to show. But I can show you this!

Wonderkitten's 'Stop chasing,start enjoying' postcard'. There was meaning behind this set of postcard. Everyday we'd been busy doing something,chasing something,but put down the mask that we usually wore each day,what are we chasing,actually? And see, the masked T-Rex is so cute! Reminded me of Digimon that T-rex Greymon. Ah, I should have buy the limited keychain and handphone string too......

Then,there's a flea book sales at KL central monorail with 'buy 5 free 1' board. So me and Small Black went crazy and bought books again -_-'
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Gahh...I'm broke. I shall eat 'Kong Piah' for the next whole week.

My Milky refused to eat after I went back kampung and made herself thinner ever than before... Now you can see her ribs and pelvis (if that bone part terminology is the same like human's) clearly from far. Garh...'sam tong' die me lor...... So I'll have to spend money and make her happy and gain back her fat again -_-''

My dog refuse to eat when I'm not around. Although I'm not sure of the reason she refused to eat (depress because nobody walked her and let her loose from her chain?Or miss me too much so she got no appetite?Or she doesn't like her food?), but who would starve herself for not seeing me other than my Milky? Oh Milky Milky I love you~~

Saturday, May 8, 2010

fight

We are minority,
fighting against the world and ourselves.
First, we must win ourselves,
then come the chance to win the world.
Do you have the courage to fight yourself?
If you don't,
you'll never win this game.
Lost yourself,
live in the world of others,
and play the game like others.


《一个人又怎么样》 转载自MOCHA日记

我可以
一个人吃饭;
一个人睡觉;
一个人 逛街;
一个人游戏;
一个人上班;
一个人回家;
一个人发呆;
一个人思考;
一个人欣赏路过的风景;
一 个人遗憾错过的精彩;
一个人读着别人的故事;
一个人打发无聊的时间;
一个人赶走寂寞的侵袭;
一个人抵挡北风的严寒;
一 个人在跌倒后站起来拍拍身上的灰尘;
一个人在受伤后躲起来默默治疗心的创伤;
一个人在繁华的都市里找回迷失的自己;
一个人在残酷 的现实里伪装保护着自己...............

所以

如果你不是真心,就不要轻易插足我的旅程,我很容易感动,很容易满足,也许你不经意对我的好我都会一直记得,也许会因为你不在意的举动会伤心很久;

如果你不是真心,就不要轻易进入我的世界,我不会坚强,不会防 备,你说的每句话我都会相信,我能给你的就是绝对的信任;

如果你不是真心,就不要轻易跨进我的国度,我会固执,会小气,
我很珍惜每个进来的人,就算碰得头破血流我也不会轻易放手,我不想留给自己太多遗憾......等待那个人我投入的会是我全部的真心

Saturday, May 1, 2010

祝福

刚刚看着曾经很喜欢很喜欢,那个被我称为天使的女孩,在国外留学的照。女孩隐隐约约透出了女人味,很快女孩就变成女人了。

我还记得,当她说傻话然后吐舌头的样子,可爱得让我心溶化。这女孩傻傻又糊里糊涂的,每天丢三漏四的,三天内不见两架电话的记录,谁可以破?我们曾经担心她转机时会不会转一次机就丢一个行李,到目的地的时候已经两手空空,呵呵。

看她与男朋友的照片,心里很平静,没有丝毫涟漪。我们曾经是室友,曾经每天早上把她水瓶洗干净然后装满水,曾经把送她的路边花和巧克力放在信箱里,曾经很喜欢她的味道,曾经在下雨天拿着雨伞想要去车站接她结果接不到变落汤鸡,曾经还没表白就在车站被拒绝忍着眼泪自己回家,曾经闹到很僵很僵都不说话。现在有的只是祝福。或许几年后参加她的婚礼,也只会有祝福。

时过境迁,日新月异,物是人非。
会不会有一天当我看另一个女孩的照片时,心里不再是疼痛,而是祝福呢?

我其实没有很好。
我不是很喜欢我自己。

Last time I thought communication is very important between a couple. Now I realized,maybe I was wrong. Sometimes keeping your negative emotion to yourself is better than telling it off to your partner. You might think that telling your feelings will help to let your partner understand what you want,but how your partner interpret the message may be opposite of what you wish.

以前我总认为,沟通很重要,尤其是在一起的两个人。现在忽然觉得,其实不然。有些自己心里的感受,说出来了只会让事情变得更糟糕。以为说出来后让对方了解自己想要什么,可对方或许听了你的感受之后,做出了与你想要的相反决定,结果弄巧反拙,事与愿违。

有时候我又觉得,不必要把自己不开心的负面情绪拿出来渲染给朋友。可有些朋友却会觉得你没把他放在心里,有事怎么不告诉他一起分担,不够朋友。

该说的不说,不该说的就说。什么该说,什么不该说?

或许我还在为去年十月而感到遗憾与自责,或许我还在为那段感情而哀悼,或许我还很想她。 我睡不着。或许是因为那两个月就快一周年了,一直在倒数。

我怎么学不会,
淡定。