Thursday, December 30, 2010

All is well

It annoyed me when people judged me when they do not understand me well. Don't judge me if you do not know me enough. Know what? There aren't much people who really know me that well.
But I'm glad I have friends who will stand by me.

I was too desperate of wanting to have my life back. There's a Chinese saying you'll get more disappointment when you put too much hope on one thing. I really,really,don't want to stay in hospital again. Two months of living in hospital,I'm lucky that I didn't gone crazy. But the good thing about staying in hospital was,the pimples were gone~

Did I complain a lot and not being positive enough? Aha. You try staying 2 months in hospital,still not being able to walk after half a year,and now you realize something is wrong with your leg again,then you tell me am I complaining a lot. I feel offended because you were someone to me,yet didn't feel for what I'm feeling.

Hope tomorrow will be alright,and that I'll still can be at home and go as I planned.
Just have to prepare for the worst while believing all is well.

Sunday, December 26, 2010

listener

Why bother telling off our problems to others as it won't help in solving our problems or making our problems disappear?
It's true that expressing our emotions might not help in solving problems and I doubt catharsis really happens on everyone, but it does matters to the listeners. Hoping that telling off your problem will lighten your burden and share it with another person that you trusted.

I was never a good communicator or story teller. Not verbally. Probably I got worse by now.
I'm quiet and slow in respond.But I'm listening.I'm thinking.I'm here if you need me.

But I'm a person who won't go to others when I'm having problems.
Why? I'm just really not good at telling my story.

Saturday, December 25, 2010

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas?
Well it's just another day for me,nothing special.

Doctor said I'm able to drive a car,so I'll be having half of my life back soon!
Can't wait to go back,I miss my Milky,very much.Couldn't sleep thinking bout her last night,I'm thinking of bringing her back with me for CNY.Must find way to get rid of her car-sick......

Knee problem again. Just like last week. But it got better by itself after a couple of days. Worry whether it's the metal that causes swollen when I use too much strength trying to walk.

I do still think about you.
Just that I don't need to let you know anymore.
It doesn't matters.

Thursday, December 9, 2010

遗憾

人生总会有遗憾。
我有。
例如?
空手道的,那会是我一直的遗憾。其实可以不遗憾的。
还有呢?
2010年,有一半是空的。
遗憾?
I missed a chance of little bit of everything.
A chance of interning in a real company,
prom with my mates,
cognitive and forensic classes under ms.winnee,
to become a real Starbucks partner within 3 months.
You wouldn't understand what I felt unless you're me.
I might pretend that everythings ok,i'm fine,i'm glad that i'm going through it,
well,if i could choose,i would rather just have my busy 2010.
If this didn't happen,many things would be different.
Someone will remain single and someone will remain not available.
Anyway,i think i'd getting back something that i never expect i would.
gain or lost?
fair enough