Pride month

It's Pride month, but I don't feel any pride or in anyway to celebrate it. My gf broke up with me few days after her birthday. Reason being she don't feel comfortable in this relationship. I'm not a guy. There wasn't any negative expression of her feelings on our relationship after we have been together for almost 3 years. It's a sudden death penalty to our relationship. And a sudden blow to me. There could be no more discussions to work this out. She has decided on this since few months ago. I did realised there has been faint of spark but I thought we could work it out. But not this. She said she has no more feelings to me. Now I am blaming myself maybe I have taken this relationship for granted. If maybe I can be more romantic or put more of my feelings into action, all these could be preventable.

1. It is what it is. There is nothing much I can do to change the situation. 

世界都还在转，但是都好像与我无关

I will not delete all your pictures
We will still be friends
But when you have new bf
I might go crazy

Life goes on?

我以为雪和狼终于可以在一起，结果还是分开了...

It's just like this big hole in your heart. Someone important will be missing from day-to-day life from now on. After two and half years. What is she doing? What am I doing? No more messages exchange. Just have to get used to it. Missing you was not part of the plan. But life goes on. I thought we are already at level 50, but we have failed at level 1 actually. Just sad, no more rage. Too old for this shit. What am I gonna do with my life?

当你还在原地踏步，而她却在前进时，若不追上，就会被远远抛弃。

我得紧记，人类是群居动物，无法自立为孤岛。但是人生来却是个体，如此封闭自己，筑起围墙的话，那好吗？

尚旧没有自我对话，距离的拉开，内心的不安，是否多虑？