All is well

It annoyed me when people judged me when they do not understand me well. Don't judge me if you do not know me enough. Know what? There aren't much people who really know me that well.
But I'm glad I have friends who will stand by me.

I was too desperate of wanting to have my life back. There's a Chinese saying you'll get more disappointment when you put too much hope on one thing. I really,really,don't want to stay in hospital again. Two months of living in hospital,I'm lucky that I didn't gone crazy. But the good thing about staying in hospital was,the pimples were gone~

Did I complain a lot and not being positive enough? Aha. You try staying 2 months in hospital,still not being able to walk after half a year,and now you realize something is wrong with your leg again,then you tell me am I complaining a lot. I feel offended because you were someone to me,yet didn't feel for what I'm feeling.

Hope tomorrow will be alright,and that I'll still can be at home and go as I planned.
Just have to prepare for the worst while believing all is well.

listener

Why bother telling off our problems to others as it won't help in solving our problems or making our problems disappear?
It's true that expressing our emotions might not help in solving problems and I doubt catharsis really happens on everyone, but it does matters to the listeners. Hoping that telling off your problem will lighten your burden and share it with another person that you trusted.

I was never a good communicator or story teller. Not verbally. Probably I got worse by now.
I'm quiet and slow in respond.But I'm listening.I'm thinking.I'm here if you need me.

But I'm a person who won't go to others when I'm having problems.
Why? I'm just really not good at telling my story.

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas?
Well it's just another day for me,nothing special.

Doctor said I'm able to drive a car,so I'll be having half of my life back soon!
Can't wait to go back,I miss my Milky,very much.Couldn't sleep thinking bout her last night,I'm thinking of bringing her back with me for CNY.Must find way to get rid of her car-sick......

Knee problem again. Just like last week. But it got better by itself after a couple of days. Worry whether it's the metal that causes swollen when I use too much strength trying to walk.

I do still think about you.
Just that I don't need to let you know anymore.
It doesn't matters.

遗憾

人生总会有遗憾。
我有。
例如？
空手道的，那会是我一直的遗憾。其实可以不遗憾的。
还有呢？
2010年，有一半是空的。
遗憾？
I missed a chance of little bit of everything.
A chance of interning in a real company,
prom with my mates,
cognitive and forensic classes under ms.winnee,
to become a real Starbucks partner within 3 months.
You wouldn't understand what I felt unless you're me.
I might pretend that everythings ok,i'm fine,i'm glad that i'm going through it,
well,if i could choose,i would rather just have my busy 2010.
If this didn't happen,many things would be different.
Someone will remain single and someone will remain not available.
Anyway,i think i'd getting back something that i never expect i would.
gain or lost?
fair enough

俺很重要

现在俺的心脏很小很小，开个email心里都会快休克。

天啊天啊，原来俺真的很重要，不过俺没想过俺原来这么重要。都乱七八糟了，能修补回去不？唉

这几天不是被人骂了就是被人训话了，看来俺得乖点当个力求上进的好青年，要自修要注意睡眠。

我被雷到了。。。

晚安

ZEE

This is Zee,a fame tb model a now singer in Thailand. She's a English-Indonesia-Thai mix. 是不是越混就长得越好看？？？？

Title:Simple,but lonely, with Chinese subtitle.《简单但孤独》

Michie,now I can und~lalala~ The MV story's nice,that's what happened to many of TBs

Title:Had you ever love me 《曾经真的爱过我吗》


Title:《不爱就算了》

后宫佳丽三千咧......真是的.....don't you wish you're her????

Ah actually she's 165cm,looks tall though....气势强大啊...
天啊，最近在TTL群混太多了，都只看T了....

cute puppy eyes

Me, sitting on sofa facing laptop.

Mimi, the family dog, came by my leg and stare at me with her puppy eyes (although she's 10 years old).

Me, notice the puppy eyes and say: 'Hi Mimi~'

Mimi, wags tail.

Me: 'zomok? want 'mom-mom' (eat) ah?'

Mimi, wags harder.

Me, pour 2 spoons of dog food into her bowl and mix with water.

Mimi, wags tail and show appreciation eyes, then eat her food.

After awhile, Mimi finished her food. Mimi came and stare at me again.

Me:'zomok ah? I just fed you wor~~'

Mimi, wags tail, turn her head and look at her snacks, then turn back stare at me again.

Me: 'Oh, you want eat that ah?'

Mimi, wags harder,jump at sofa,show exciting eyes.

Mama showed up and shout: 'MIMI! YOU JUST ATE! WANT KENA SPANK AH??!'

Mimi, got scared and look at mama, then look at her snacks, show sad and 'bu she de' eyes, then walk back into her cage......

HOW CUTE~~~

just married

Someone got married. Groom very handsome and Bride very pretty. OK my bro got married~

That's all for now~ I'm so lazy~ wehee~

It's 2am. I am doing nothing but I don't feel like sleeping. Check-up again tomorrow. At least both my legs can step on the floor now. I shall be grateful for this :)

脚踏实地的感觉真棒！

感恩哦！

各位奋战中的同志，请等我回来与你们一起奋斗！

little prince

You know people grow up and people grow apart, friends come and go, how many friends of you now will still be in contact with you when you're 50? We know there are no such thing as BFF. There are people that I care but haven't spoken with for quite some time.

What do you see in 'Little Prince'?

We lost parts of ourselves when we were growing up. We thought we were unique,but when we grew up we realized we are just like anybody else.

在我们的成长过程中我们都以为自己是特殊的。直到长大后我们才发现原来自己和身边的人没什么两样，过着一样一日复一日的生活。那些小时候的梦想是那么的遥不可及。这世界也不如小时候想的那么简单善良，被坏人打枪不会有超人出现，正义与真理只是信仰，看不着摸不到。

I'm getting lazier at home.

我喜欢在家的感觉。可是我不喜欢每天不用工作不用做任何事只能呆在家的日子。

我的Milky两岁了。她在等着我回去。

自己的狗就是自己的狗，和看别人的狗不一样。人狗间一定有某种情感连接。

I took her back home when she was a puppy. Now she's two years old, a teenager in human age. I miss her and I'm sure she's waiting for me to walk her in evening.

Malaysia TVB

When will we have true 1Malaysia?

When there's no more UMNO, no more MCA, no more MIC,but a party that defend the rights of Malaysian and human being.

Politics are more dramatic than TVB, politicians are comedians.

Teoh Beng Hock case is enough to make a good TVB drama~

何时才会有1Malaysia？

当巫统、马华、MIC不再单方面的维护自己的种族，而维护全人民和人类的时候。

难哉~~

政治是闹剧，人民是观众~

赵明福事件就比港剧吸引人了~

Example?

This is entertaining~

Now our handwriting specialist testified that some of chinese writing on Teoh Beng Hock's note was not clear whether it was came from same person =.=..

Miracle work of human

Actually I wanted to blog about my stay in hospital. But then I saw this picture from somewhere.

Balian Buschbaum, a female-to-male transsexual and German pole vaulter.

Very successful transform isn't it? Look at his arms! Hairy and vein! You can see those vein!

After and Before

And those nice abs! He have those abs even when he's still she!

He looks good in who he is now. I can't stop staring at his photos! For more photos--> here

just some update

I'm a little weirdo in my family,
i don't talk much,
So I think I'm losing my communication skills. lalalalalala
Xiao Ming, Yi Shin, Pei Sing, when are you guys coming to bring me out kai kai~?????

I have this diskman (a CD version of walkman,if anyone remember what's that) in my room that I used to listen every night for 5 years. And I have dozen of CD's in my cupboard, original and pirated, so I can make myself feel like a DJ in my little world.

I'm chubbier and my hair's longer now. Muscles of my half lower body got so soft until I can feel imbalance in my butt...WTH....my muscle shrink,my bone shrink.....and I might not be able to do sport that I like anymore...If you understand how it feels...I feel lazier each day at home, slack slack slack, don't feel like working on my thesis anymore la.... being at home makes me lazy and unmotivated...hard to work on my thesis when I'm so far away from my participants ah....

大难不死必有后福
后福还没到
精神上已奄奄一息

坏了

都坏了一年了
是时候真的不再联络了
每次都是如此，
不是吗？
只是这次时间比较长了些，
把一切都删除，
记忆也会慢慢不见，
坏了就该淘汰。

寂寞寂寞就好

忙到不能再忙
痛到不能再痛
死不了就还好
寂寞寂寞就好
重新寻找孤独
就不再寂寞了

好像都是田小姐的新歌里面出现的字眼。
田小姐名字怎么念啊???好多笔画我不会念。

发现原来如果一个人在乎你，
是不会让你担心她一整夜。
会让你担心一整夜的，
不值得。不应该了。

为了停止憧憬
再次狠心不再联络
反正田小姐说的
jimo jimo then OK

不再联络

习惯天气 反反复覆
像我们 说不出 分到 什么程度
这一种 和睦相处
反而感觉 孤独 不拥抱 不冲突

一步一步 等谁先淡出
现阶段用 好朋友的方式
若无其事 也会打招呼
可是心 已经死得 像植物

就连 不爱 都那么辛苦
像干了又湿的衣服
被记忆的高温闷住 不舒服
再见 都吞吞吐吐
狠心 不再联络 似乎
是该寻找 最后的出路

习惯天气 反反复覆
像我们 说不出 分到 什么程度
这一种 和睦相处
反而感觉 孤独 不拥抱 不冲突

一步一步 等谁先淡出
现阶段用 好朋友的方式
若无其事 也会打招呼
可是心 已经死得 像植物
想听歌,就上MP3音乐网=> www.93MP3.com
就连 不爱 都那么辛苦
像干了又湿的衣服
被记忆的高温闷住 不舒服
再见 都吞吞吐吐
狠心 不再联络 似乎
是该寻找 最后的出路
Oh 出路~

Oh 唯一的出路
唯一的出路

电话号码删除了又删除，

却从脑海里删除不掉。

恋人未满的关系，

一直都是。

过去的偏爱

Many times,we see what we want to see.

Blinded by anger, jealousy, fear, sorrow;

Unconsciously making the wound bigger and deeper.

过去那段情那段记忆都被遗弃，

只有一个人的不释怀。

可笑？罢了？

反正世界不会因为你的情绪而停止转动或反方向转动。

内心世界，是影响不到外面世界。

Reality makes me sad.

So I sad for a while.

Just a while longer.

books

I regret buying these books from roadside,they don't smell like a book suppose to smell, which is one of the reasons I love books. These were photocopies books on cheap quality papers. I like the smell of books! The smell of old papers, the smell of knowledge! And these don't have the smell of books that they suppose to have.

Anyway,I'd finish 'The art of racing in the rain'. Great story! Understand what life suppose to be from a dog's perspective. The car goes where the eyes go.

HL said I'm losing my communication skills, which I think she was right. Having almost none social life, 'locked up' in hospital for months, now I even feel lazy to talk to nurses. I'd spent my summer holiday in hospital T.T

I'd missed events and activities in college, I miss my gangs, and I'm going to miss my classes!

Oh well...

Here are some of the things that I find joy in hospital, other than some cute nurses~

Mom bought these cute little bear biscuits from the hospital cafeteria~ But too bad now it's out of stock, no more little bear biscuits anymore :(

And yeah, they got Wifi available here,line is a bit slow sometimes,but better than none~

志同道合

我喜欢和志同道合的人做朋友。

我说的志同道合，是同道中人，也是志向相同的人。

Malcolm Gladwell的里说social channel capacity,

一个人拥有真正好朋友的数目大概是10到15个里面，

因为真正的好朋友需要花时间、精力去经营，

太多好朋友会耗尽自己的精力。

我做过的一份性格分析里说我是极度introvert，

所以我的好朋友数目比常人少，不会奇怪吧。

我喜欢和志同道合的人做朋友。

前几天，我们讨论未来和伴侣的日子。

朋友说放工回家后和自己的伴在属于自己的家做饭吃，

那是她向往的稳定生活。

我说如此稳定的生活和伴侣携手到老，

是我们人生最大的目标。

当超人，当浪者，当大侠，是小时候的梦想。

长大一些，发现小时候的梦想是看太多卡通、漫画的结果，

所以把比较实际一点的环游世界当成梦想。

再长大一些，发现钱很重要。环游世界，我不是金锁匙出世的孩子，要自己打拼。

再长大一些些，能和自己相爱的人有未来的生活，是现在的梦想。

用文字交心的朋友，很铁。

那些茉莉花树系列的文字，

仿佛昨日才刚过目。

考SPM前的那些晚上，

不看书，某人和我一起晃天涯看《蓝山》。

乱乱中英直接翻译，很好玩。

突然感性一下~

被叫小狼好多年了~

喉咙痛

throat pain

burning throat

好啦，sore throat.

纯粹无聊

如果我还能对你坦诚以对，

如果你也还能对我坦诚以对，

那我们会怎样？

已经没有再度的无奈或自怨自艾，

也没有去想未来，

现在好像有点回到当初，又好像很普通。

如果我能对你说心里话，

你是不是一样不会对我说你的心里话呢？

今夜星光很闪耀，

小狼在房很无聊。

在病房怎么知道星光闪耀呢？

我乱说的。

你看，都说我无聊了咯。

无聊到挖兄弟的旧故事来看~

‘如果有天我遇到一个心仪的对象

向他表白时
我会不会说，
我对你的爱
就像癌细胞的生长酱
在最短的时间内
扩散到全身.......至死不渝!!!!!’

出自？这里

嘿嘿~