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Finally bought a camera! Nikon D3100!

Planned to get it last year before Bro's wedding,but accident happened,so plan got delayed... Anyway,I'm glad to have it! Bought it with my own money! Yay!

Will start learning how to utilize a DSLR camera to capture beautiful moments and people I treasured.

Having trouble in falling asleep at night lately. Couldn't figure out why. Is there something that I wanted to do left undone? Or am I anxious bout something that I didn't realize? Hm...

Need to find peace within myself.

聚散

我现在才发现，以后再也不会有10多个人霸着AE1的左边前两排位子了，意味着我们其实已经离散了，虽然还没有正式毕业，不过不会再同班咯。

我发现从一直以来我都对离别没什么感觉，总是好聚好散，没有特别伤感的毕业离别情绪，果然是超级内向的人嘛，对人群不感冒~~

不过嘛，我会记得属于我群体里的伙伴~

才发现我们这群体已经有2-3年，从几个人扩大到10多个？

虽然群体很大，来自不同东西南北，我相信毕业后还是有机会相聚的~

趁还没正式毕业还没正式工作还没进入adulthood之前，赶快尽情的玩乐吧~~~

透露下，年尾我会去流浪别个国度~去看憧憬已久的雪~

目前正在考虑买哪种相机的阶段。

DSLR or compact digital?

Nikon or Canon?

D3100 or D3000？

EOS600D or EOS550D or EOS1100D?

T.T

碎片思绪

有没有那么一个人，在心里有个特别的位置，不去打扰不去联络不去问候，却是如此深刻的一个人?这是我心里的秘密，这是个另一个故事，有关我的爱情，有关一些记忆，还有关是否会影响着未来。这不是个伟大的爱情故事，也没有轰轰烈烈，反而很卑微很见不得光，所以那时候了解很深入的朋友并不多，自己渡过的低潮期，还引起兄弟不满。不想说是因为早知道的结果还要去犯贱，没什么好哭诉的。反正我觉得不是个什么光荣的事，因为我是个第三者。

我想不会有其他人能让我如此的歇斯底里，让我如此的说出如此不理智的话，如此的低潮的一段日子。会不会就这样没有再爱人的能力了？原本就没有浪漫个性也不是好情人，还会对别的人有爱的感觉吗？我不会为她留守单身，我还是会喜欢上其他人，只是喜欢和爱，差很多。喜欢上了，却达不到爱的层次，还想要一起过日子，很自私。

其实现在已经没怎么了，偶尔的想起以前，偶尔的想起我觉得她对我的背叛，还是会自然的留下泪。恨过，不恨她，恨的这世俗这世道这见不得光，恨的异性恋的特权，恨的我不是男生。怨过，怨她怎么没为我努力没像她爱她前任那么爱我。怒过，怒她不勇敢怒她我认为她对我的背叛。

在另一个城市有她，所以那个城市有特别意义。

我只是忽然情绪汹涌了，或许某天会写出完整的故事。

'eh,your brother ah?'

Yesterday in Starbucks, a partner brought his sibling along to work.

So, I asked him:

'Eh, your brother ah?'

'No la, my sister, like Hui Min only'

Me went 'O.O ah? your sister?'

'Really la,my sister!!!'

Then I went 'oohh~~emmm~~ how old is she?'

'12 going 13'

'emmm~~' *peek on the young tb to-be.

Then, after a while, my MOD asked the partner again.

'That's your brother ah?'

'No! My sister!'

'What? your sister? you got sister meh? I thought you only got younger brother?'

'My younger sister la!'

'Sister?' MOD turn to look at the young tb and turn back to look at the partner

'Yea my sister, you thought I'm joking ah? Really my sister la!'

MOD then said 'can join Hui Min and Kaven odi'

12、13 years old,ok la still a kid,haven't grow up,that's why I can't recognized lo~

This reminded me of my own experience of being mistaken as little brother whenever my eldest bro took me out with him hang out with his friends.

Now only I know how awkward it was~

I felt that tiny tb keep watching me. Oklo if I'm 12 13 and I saw someone that 'connects' with my own dressing and behavior,I'll keep watching also~ But back then there wasn't as many tbs as nowadays,so I don't recall seeing any tbs older than me that time~

You're beautiful

You're beautiful-James Blunt

My life is brilliant.

My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Fucking high,(Real version)
[ From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/j/james-blunt-lyrics/you_re-beautiful-lyrics.html ]
Flying high,(clean version)
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.

Happy Valentine's

hl's dream

Someone had a dreamed just now and told me bout it!
To increase the fun and me being lazy,I copy and paste the conversation as below~


HL 12:02:29 AM
hl hungry
HL 12:02:35 AM
hl buy mcd nugget
HL 12:02:45 AM
hl walk and hl eat nugget
HL 12:02:54 AM
then hl saw one family of COW
HL 12:03:04 AM
papa cow mama cow and baby cow
HL 12:03:10 AM
yellow colour mia COW
HL 12:03:34 AM
baby cow turn head and see hl, and hl hand mia NUGGET
HL 12:03:37 AM
=.=''
HL 12:03:57 AM
baby cow run to hl, hl scare, hl throw hand nugget far far
HL 12:04:06 AM
baby cow go to the nugget far far
HL 12:04:36 AM
after eating that piece, baby cow fa xian, hl still got one box in hand
HL 12:04:52 AM
so the stupid yellow baby cow RUN to hl again
HL 12:04:56 AM
haiyo macam dog
HL 12:05:13 AM
ou no~ hl run~~~
HL 12:05:19 AM
cow chase hl~~
HL 12:05:37 AM
hl see one blue colour wira
HL 12:05:49 AM
hl jumped on the 车顶
HL 12:06:27 AM
mana tau the baby cow macam dog, pokk come, bang hl down from car~
HL 12:06:29 AM
hl fall
HL 12:06:47 AM
fall use hand to 挡and push the cow
HL 12:06:50 AM
cow oso fall
HL 12:07:06 AM
hl think hl hurt the cow and feeling guilty
HL 12:07:21 AM
next day buy one big box of chicken nugget go visit baby cow
HL 12:07:31 AM
but cannot find the cow liao~
HL 12:07:33 AM
the end


NO NO that's not it,there's more~

HL 12:08:18 AM
got sound effect mia BANGGGG!!!!

AND

HL 12:14:11 AM
duno this dream means wat
HL 12:14:30 AM
cow means cute but dangerous.
HL 12:14:48 AM
blue wira means can save me but save budao me.

WAIT,there's more!

HL 12:18:29 AM
the cow....aiyer....bang n kissed dao me

OK, THE END~~
*CLAP CLAP CLAP~~*
feel free to interpret this dream for poor HL that got KISSED by baby yellow cow~~

It's Tuzki Year!

Happy Tuzki Year!
兔斯基年快乐！
兔斯基就是我很喜欢的那眼睛两条线的兔子！
邪住我的虎年走了走了，可爱的兔子来了来了~
兔年哦，要保持如小白兔的可爱善良，如玉兔的聪慧忠心，如Bugs Bunny的狡猾聪明，当然还有如Tuzki的慵懒古灵精怪~

还有就是，我很困很困....
起个庙在民宅旁边就是吵闹！不就起个地方来聚赌喝酒什么的吗？根本就不是敬拜神明的！那些怪叔叔，看着就讨厌！拿着顾庙的名义在庙外喝酒打麻将聚赌的！吵得我晚上睡不着，睡不够就会脾气很不好，脾气很不好就会想骂人，骂不到人就只好在这里骂骂了....

bird without wings and mustang without spirit

What's a bird without wings?
what's a mustang without freedom?
Now la I feel like I'm a bird with broken wings and a mustang in captive.
Waited too long,and wth...
I ain't going to be happy to be here any longer.
These 2 groups of people ain't feeling what I'm feeling,they just don't understand each other,and I am so darn with communicate them both together.
Can I just do what I want?
I want my life back so frking badly.
And my leg is pulling me.

All is well

It annoyed me when people judged me when they do not understand me well. Don't judge me if you do not know me enough. Know what? There aren't much people who really know me that well.
But I'm glad I have friends who will stand by me.

I was too desperate of wanting to have my life back. There's a Chinese saying you'll get more disappointment when you put too much hope on one thing. I really,really,don't want to stay in hospital again. Two months of living in hospital,I'm lucky that I didn't gone crazy. But the good thing about staying in hospital was,the pimples were gone~

Did I complain a lot and not being positive enough? Aha. You try staying 2 months in hospital,still not being able to walk after half a year,and now you realize something is wrong with your leg again,then you tell me am I complaining a lot. I feel offended because you were someone to me,yet didn't feel for what I'm feeling.

Hope tomorrow will be alright,and that I'll still can be at home and go as I planned.
Just have to prepare for the worst while believing all is well.

listener

Why bother telling off our problems to others as it won't help in solving our problems or making our problems disappear?
It's true that expressing our emotions might not help in solving problems and I doubt catharsis really happens on everyone, but it does matters to the listeners. Hoping that telling off your problem will lighten your burden and share it with another person that you trusted.

I was never a good communicator or story teller. Not verbally. Probably I got worse by now.
I'm quiet and slow in respond.But I'm listening.I'm thinking.I'm here if you need me.

But I'm a person who won't go to others when I'm having problems.
Why? I'm just really not good at telling my story.

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas?
Well it's just another day for me,nothing special.

Doctor said I'm able to drive a car,so I'll be having half of my life back soon!
Can't wait to go back,I miss my Milky,very much.Couldn't sleep thinking bout her last night,I'm thinking of bringing her back with me for CNY.Must find way to get rid of her car-sick......

Knee problem again. Just like last week. But it got better by itself after a couple of days. Worry whether it's the metal that causes swollen when I use too much strength trying to walk.

I do still think about you.
Just that I don't need to let you know anymore.
It doesn't matters.

遗憾

人生总会有遗憾。
我有。
例如？
空手道的，那会是我一直的遗憾。其实可以不遗憾的。
还有呢？
2010年，有一半是空的。
遗憾？
I missed a chance of little bit of everything.
A chance of interning in a real company,
prom with my mates,
cognitive and forensic classes under ms.winnee,
to become a real Starbucks partner within 3 months.
You wouldn't understand what I felt unless you're me.
I might pretend that everythings ok,i'm fine,i'm glad that i'm going through it,
well,if i could choose,i would rather just have my busy 2010.
If this didn't happen,many things would be different.
Someone will remain single and someone will remain not available.
Anyway,i think i'd getting back something that i never expect i would.
gain or lost?
fair enough

俺很重要

现在俺的心脏很小很小，开个email心里都会快休克。

天啊天啊，原来俺真的很重要，不过俺没想过俺原来这么重要。都乱七八糟了，能修补回去不？唉

这几天不是被人骂了就是被人训话了，看来俺得乖点当个力求上进的好青年，要自修要注意睡眠。

我被雷到了。。。

晚安

ZEE

This is Zee,a fame tb model a now singer in Thailand. She's a English-Indonesia-Thai mix. 是不是越混就长得越好看？？？？

Title:Simple,but lonely, with Chinese subtitle.《简单但孤独》

Michie,now I can und~lalala~ The MV story's nice,that's what happened to many of TBs

Title:Had you ever love me 《曾经真的爱过我吗》


Title:《不爱就算了》

后宫佳丽三千咧......真是的.....don't you wish you're her????

Ah actually she's 165cm,looks tall though....气势强大啊...
天啊，最近在TTL群混太多了，都只看T了....

cute puppy eyes

Me, sitting on sofa facing laptop.

Mimi, the family dog, came by my leg and stare at me with her puppy eyes (although she's 10 years old).

Me, notice the puppy eyes and say: 'Hi Mimi~'

Mimi, wags tail.

Me: 'zomok? want 'mom-mom' (eat) ah?'

Mimi, wags harder.

Me, pour 2 spoons of dog food into her bowl and mix with water.

Mimi, wags tail and show appreciation eyes, then eat her food.

After awhile, Mimi finished her food. Mimi came and stare at me again.

Me:'zomok ah? I just fed you wor~~'

Mimi, wags tail, turn her head and look at her snacks, then turn back stare at me again.

Me: 'Oh, you want eat that ah?'

Mimi, wags harder,jump at sofa,show exciting eyes.

Mama showed up and shout: 'MIMI! YOU JUST ATE! WANT KENA SPANK AH??!'

Mimi, got scared and look at mama, then look at her snacks, show sad and 'bu she de' eyes, then walk back into her cage......

HOW CUTE~~~

just married

Someone got married. Groom very handsome and Bride very pretty. OK my bro got married~

That's all for now~ I'm so lazy~ wehee~

It's 2am. I am doing nothing but I don't feel like sleeping. Check-up again tomorrow. At least both my legs can step on the floor now. I shall be grateful for this :)

脚踏实地的感觉真棒！

感恩哦！

各位奋战中的同志，请等我回来与你们一起奋斗！

little prince

You know people grow up and people grow apart, friends come and go, how many friends of you now will still be in contact with you when you're 50? We know there are no such thing as BFF. There are people that I care but haven't spoken with for quite some time.

What do you see in 'Little Prince'?

We lost parts of ourselves when we were growing up. We thought we were unique,but when we grew up we realized we are just like anybody else.

在我们的成长过程中我们都以为自己是特殊的。直到长大后我们才发现原来自己和身边的人没什么两样，过着一样一日复一日的生活。那些小时候的梦想是那么的遥不可及。这世界也不如小时候想的那么简单善良，被坏人打枪不会有超人出现，正义与真理只是信仰，看不着摸不到。

I'm getting lazier at home.

我喜欢在家的感觉。可是我不喜欢每天不用工作不用做任何事只能呆在家的日子。

我的Milky两岁了。她在等着我回去。

自己的狗就是自己的狗，和看别人的狗不一样。人狗间一定有某种情感连接。

I took her back home when she was a puppy. Now she's two years old, a teenager in human age. I miss her and I'm sure she's waiting for me to walk her in evening.

Malaysia TVB

When will we have true 1Malaysia?

When there's no more UMNO, no more MCA, no more MIC,but a party that defend the rights of Malaysian and human being.

Politics are more dramatic than TVB, politicians are comedians.

Teoh Beng Hock case is enough to make a good TVB drama~

何时才会有1Malaysia？

当巫统、马华、MIC不再单方面的维护自己的种族，而维护全人民和人类的时候。

难哉~~

政治是闹剧，人民是观众~

赵明福事件就比港剧吸引人了~

Example?

This is entertaining~

Now our handwriting specialist testified that some of chinese writing on Teoh Beng Hock's note was not clear whether it was came from same person =.=..

Miracle work of human

Actually I wanted to blog about my stay in hospital. But then I saw this picture from somewhere.

Balian Buschbaum, a female-to-male transsexual and German pole vaulter.

Very successful transform isn't it? Look at his arms! Hairy and vein! You can see those vein!

After and Before

And those nice abs! He have those abs even when he's still she!

He looks good in who he is now. I can't stop staring at his photos! For more photos--> here