Thursday, April 2, 2015

无题

过着安逸的日子的当儿,
偶尔也会有半夜不想睡的夜晚,
偶尔也会有听着某电台忽然感伤的时候,
偶尔驾车也会有忽然晃神感伤的路程。
We are all slaves to our past.

突然想象如果是这年纪的男女谈恋爱,
是可以大大方方带回家,
被朋友问什么时候抛红炸弹,
那是一间多么普通的事情,
而我们不一样的感情却是要积力争取,
得经历大风暴才能得来,
好不公平啊!


Wednesday, February 4, 2015

梦醒时分

以前会非常乐意的分享自己的想法,
以文字赤裸裸的表现自己也不介意。
后来发现网络有如火星一样危险,
可以被别人当作武器,
也可以无意间伤害到别人。
说者无心听者有意。
于是就减少了文字抒写情感。

到了某种年纪,
回想起往事,
心里或许还会有些涟漪,
却不再悲愤交集。
当年自认为轰轰烈烈的感情事件,
也以可以坦然面对。
回看当写下的痕迹,
原来当时情感那么的浓烈。

26岁的年纪,
是否会太过安于当下?
没把握的事情,
懒得从新开始,
而不去追求?

如果知道不适合,
是否要勉强凑合过日子?
或是让梦继续就好?

我们都长大了。
我们都在专心的过日子。

Thursday, November 21, 2013

不速之客

我是幸运的。
家里的狗都是乖巧听话,就算在Cherishlife Home shelter里的狗也是亲人和狗,和平相处。
Milky从小就被我捡回来,长大过程里我都花很多时间陪她,性格是粘人乖巧偶尔顽皮的。
Cookie是从后面街狗跑来门口摇头摆尾走进我家,性格温和顺从,所以没有带来很大的问题。
直到这只不速之客的出现,才发现狗狗有behavioral problem是多么的令人头痛。

他叫小白,三个星期前不知道从哪里冒出来跟了Bobby的饲主回家,饲主就找我求救,就这样小白就归我管下了......
在诊所住了一个星期,回家后刚开始还算乖巧可爱,现在问题都跑出来了搞到我精神紧绷。

或许是我内心不够强大,正能量不够强,都被他们欺负。平时在shelter里还可以震住一些场,在家里就被不成形的pack搞得神经质。

Cookie的paw pad刚修复好,还戴着E-Collar (Collar of shame),不给跑出去就半夜呜呜叫。
小白对声音敏感,一点噪音就汪汪叫;对雄性动物极其不友善,具有攻击性,昨天就跟Bobby打架不小心咬到我;还有占有欲攻击性,昨天就被他咬了一下脚趾头。

我想叫医生给多几粒安眠药,把这两只都‘Kong’掉,然后把自己也‘Kong’掉。

Wednesday, November 13, 2013

In Human We Trust. - Chapter 1

A sudden impact sent him flew up into the air and landed hard on the solid road. He did not know what just happened to him. His friend had successfully crossed to the opposite road. He was almost there when something hit him. He couldn't feel anything at this moment. He couldn't move. Laying there on his side. Breathing hard. Terrified. It took him awhile to feel the pain. A different kind of pain that he never experience before. This is different from being hit by wooden stick by the little human. He whined in pain but he couldn't move his hind leg.

His friend sensed something was wrong with him. His friend came over and to check on him but unsure of what to do. His friend tried to comfort him. He touched him softly with muzzle but he couldn't stop the pain.

He did not know how long he has been laying there in pain. His loyal friend never wonder far away from him. Sometimes he'll come and lay beside him. Fast moving objects on the road never stop. He laid there in pain but he know he have to go. His friend encouraged him. He couldn't feel his hind legs but his front legs are just fine. Something in him told him that he have to stand up. He tried to move his hind legs but he couldn't. All he have now is his front legs. Putting all the strength he has on his front body part to sit up and support himself, he move slowly away from the busy roadside. He drag himself slowly, inch by inch. He did not know where was he going. He couldn't see clearly which way to go but he knows he have to move. He didn't know that he is going to fall down into the drain.

Pitch dark. The next thing he know, he was in a big drain. He tried to sit up. His friend approached the drain and barked at him, as if asking whether he is alright. His friend whimpered and tried to get him out but he got no hands like human. All his friend could do is just sit there and accompanied him.

Help came at last. A lady human looked down into the drain. He saw her. Lady human moved away and came back with another human. Human jumped into the drain and spent some time with him before touching him. Human talked to him softly and he know this human is different. He can trust this Human. Human wrap some clothes around him and carried him out from the drain gently with the help of lady human outside the drain. He was in pain and he was not sure what was happening and he didn't know what human will do to him. Human carried him into the fast moving object. A minute later, his friend is with him. In the fast moving object.

When he felt the fast moving object had stopped moving, the human moved him into an enclosed area with all sorts of smell. Smells of other dogs, smells of pee, smells of human, smells of substances in the air that he don't know what are those. A mixture of everything. He didn't like it. He was laying on a board.

Another human came over and inspected him. This human didn't spend time with him. A total stranger. He was not sure whether this human can be trusted. He was afraid. This human was touching him here and there. Inspecting his injuries. Lady human was comforting him. Suddenly he felt a pain from his side, and so he snapped at the source of his pain. He accidentally snapped at human lady's finger. He was only protecting himself and reacting to the cause of pain. He didn't intent to harm the kind lady human.

He was then put into a cage. His friend in another. He did not know what will happen next. He did not know whether he would be able to walk again. He did not know what will human do to him next. But he know his fate is in human's hand.


He was a lucky one. Many died on the spot and left unattended. Such is the life of a street dog. Nobody care. Only a few does. Their life is tough but they are tough. Some could still survive for days and months on their own even though they became paralyze due to accident. First time ever, he understand that not all human are bad. First time ever, he experienced love from human. First time ever, he experienced trust on human. He has met his human.

Wednesday, October 2, 2013

因为她当你的床比她的床还要舒服,
所以床单每次才会那么乱。

因为你的胸膛让她感觉很舒服,
所以她才入睡得流口水。

好吧,只好这么想吧 (ˇˍˇ)

Friday, September 27, 2013

无法取代 vs. replaceable

没有人没了谁就会活不下去。
各种不同的身份,都可以被取代
老板、同事 、朋友、男女朋友、老公老婆
貌似所有没有血缘关系的,
都可以被取代。。。

不喜欢工作辞职,
老板才不削留你。
外面大把人可以请来填补你的职位,
公司不会没有你就行不通,
老板不会对你有感情。

分手了,难过了,
你以为你会难过很久很久,
你以为她也会难过很久很久,
一年后你牵着另一个人的手在街上走来走去。
她也牵着另外一个人在街上逛来逛去。

结婚后,有了一份证书,证明你是某某某的太太。
离婚也不难,请个律师,分居个几年,你就不再是某某某的太太。
几年后,另个人成了某某某的太太。
实在不明白,结婚可以再离婚,结婚是拿来zomok的?

不管你是人家的男女朋友、员工、老公老婆,
你的身份,都可以被其他人取代。
除了身为子女的身份,感情再不好,也无法取代。
也除了您的狗,永远都认得你这个主人,化成灰也会认得你这个主人。

Everyone is replaceable.

Thursday, August 8, 2013

当世界进步得人人都网上聊天的时候,
突然发现可以面对面聊天的朋友变少了。
当世界进步得人人都可以手机上网的时候,
突然发现上个网想找人聊天都没了。
部落格处处杂草丛生。

说实在,我比较喜欢以前距离远着,可是心近着。
虽然现在距离不远,却连近况如何也不知道.....

记载着低落的心情,流着泪打的字。
心情成长,有吗?

我想说,
年轻时太轻易喜欢上,
老了想爱上却不容易。

记载着一段段的情史。

假装忘掉某个人某段情,
那个号码不费吹灰之力就retrieved出来了。
删除所有,也删除不了的一些回忆。
偷偷看fb,
真的就没有打扰了那么久。
不知不觉已经6年前了?