不速之客

我是幸运的。
家里的狗都是乖巧听话，就算在Cherishlife Home shelter里的狗也是亲人和狗，和平相处。
Milky从小就被我捡回来，长大过程里我都花很多时间陪她，性格是粘人乖巧偶尔顽皮的。
Cookie是从后面街狗跑来门口摇头摆尾走进我家，性格温和顺从，所以没有带来很大的问题。
直到这只不速之客的出现，才发现狗狗有behavioral problem是多么的令人头痛。

他叫小白，三个星期前不知道从哪里冒出来跟了Bobby的饲主回家，饲主就找我求救，就这样小白就归我管下了......
在诊所住了一个星期，回家后刚开始还算乖巧可爱，现在问题都跑出来了搞到我精神紧绷。

或许是我内心不够强大，正能量不够强，都被他们欺负。平时在shelter里还可以震住一些场，在家里就被不成形的pack搞得神经质。

Cookie的paw pad刚修复好，还戴着E-Collar (Collar of shame)，不给跑出去就半夜呜呜叫。
小白对声音敏感，一点噪音就汪汪叫；对雄性动物极其不友善，具有攻击性，昨天就跟Bobby打架不小心咬到我；还有占有欲攻击性，昨天就被他咬了一下脚趾头。

我想叫医生给多几粒安眠药，把这两只都‘Kong’掉，然后把自己也‘Kong’掉。

In Human We Trust. - Chapter 1

A sudden impact sent him flew up into the air and landed hard on the solid road. He did not know what just happened to him. His friend had successfully crossed to the opposite road. He was almost there when something hit him. He couldn't feel anything at this moment. He couldn't move. Laying there on his side. Breathing hard. Terrified. It took him awhile to feel the pain. A different kind of pain that he never experience before. This is different from being hit by wooden stick by the little human. He whined in pain but he couldn't move his hind leg.

His friend sensed something was wrong with him. His friend came over and to check on him but unsure of what to do. His friend tried to comfort him. He touched him softly with muzzle but he couldn't stop the pain.

He did not know how long he has been laying there in pain. His loyal friend never wonder far away from him. Sometimes he'll come and lay beside him. Fast moving objects on the road never stop. He laid there in pain but he know he have to go. His friend encouraged him. He couldn't feel his hind legs but his front legs are just fine. Something in him told him that he have to stand up. He tried to move his hind legs but he couldn't. All he have now is his front legs. Putting all the strength he has on his front body part to sit up and support himself, he move slowly away from the busy roadside. He drag himself slowly, inch by inch. He did not know where was he going. He couldn't see clearly which way to go but he knows he have to move. He didn't know that he is going to fall down into the drain.

Pitch dark. The next thing he know, he was in a big drain. He tried to sit up. His friend approached the drain and barked at him, as if asking whether he is alright. His friend whimpered and tried to get him out but he got no hands like human. All his friend could do is just sit there and accompanied him.

Help came at last. A lady human looked down into the drain. He saw her. Lady human moved away and came back with another human. Human jumped into the drain and spent some time with him before touching him. Human talked to him softly and he know this human is different. He can trust this Human. Human wrap some clothes around him and carried him out from the drain gently with the help of lady human outside the drain. He was in pain and he was not sure what was happening and he didn't know what human will do to him. Human carried him into the fast moving object. A minute later, his friend is with him. In the fast moving object.

When he felt the fast moving object had stopped moving, the human moved him into an enclosed area with all sorts of smell. Smells of other dogs, smells of pee, smells of human, smells of substances in the air that he don't know what are those. A mixture of everything. He didn't like it. He was laying on a board.

Another human came over and inspected him. This human didn't spend time with him. A total stranger. He was not sure whether this human can be trusted. He was afraid. This human was touching him here and there. Inspecting his injuries. Lady human was comforting him. Suddenly he felt a pain from his side, and so he snapped at the source of his pain. He accidentally snapped at human lady's finger. He was only protecting himself and reacting to the cause of pain. He didn't intent to harm the kind lady human.

He was then put into a cage. His friend in another. He did not know what will happen next. He did not know whether he would be able to walk again. He did not know what will human do to him next. But he know his fate is in human's hand.


He was a lucky one. Many died on the spot and left unattended. Such is the life of a street dog. Nobody care. Only a few does. Their life is tough but they are tough. Some could still survive for days and months on their own even though they became paralyze due to accident. First time ever, he understand that not all human are bad. First time ever, he experienced love from human. First time ever, he experienced trust on human. He has met his human.

因为她当你的床比她的床还要舒服，
所以床单每次才会那么乱。

因为你的胸膛让她感觉很舒服，
所以她才入睡得流口水。

好吧，只好这么想吧 （ˇˍˇ）

无法取代 vs. replaceable

没有人没了谁就会活不下去。

各种不同的身份，都可以被取代

老板、同事 、朋友、男女朋友、老公老婆

貌似所有没有血缘关系的，

都可以被取代。。。

不喜欢工作辞职，

老板才不削留你。

外面大把人可以请来填补你的职位，

公司不会没有你就行不通，

老板不会对你有感情。

分手了，难过了，

你以为你会难过很久很久，

你以为她也会难过很久很久，

一年后你牵着另一个人的手在街上走来走去。

她也牵着另外一个人在街上逛来逛去。

结婚后，有了一份证书，证明你是某某某的太太。

离婚也不难，请个律师，分居个几年，你就不再是某某某的太太。

几年后，另个人成了某某某的太太。

实在不明白，结婚可以再离婚，结婚是拿来zomok的？

不管你是人家的男女朋友、员工、老公老婆，

你的身份，都可以被其他人取代。

除了身为子女的身份，感情再不好，也无法取代。

也除了您的狗，永远都认得你这个主人，化成灰也会认得你这个主人。

Everyone is replaceable.

当世界进步得人人都网上聊天的时候，

突然发现可以面对面聊天的朋友变少了。

当世界进步得人人都可以手机上网的时候，

突然发现上个网想找人聊天都没了。

部落格处处杂草丛生。

说实在，我比较喜欢以前距离远着，可是心近着。

虽然现在距离不远，却连近况如何也不知道.....

记载着低落的心情，流着泪打的字。

心情成长，有吗？

我想说，

年轻时太轻易喜欢上，

老了想爱上却不容易。

记载着一段段的情史。

假装忘掉某个人某段情，

那个号码不费吹灰之力就retrieved出来了。

删除所有，也删除不了的一些回忆。

偷偷看fb,

真的就没有打扰了那么久。

不知不觉已经6年前了？

A dog's tale

I am committed to dog shelter volunteering. Maybe it was because I indirectly caused death to a puppy whn I was a kid...
Someone abandoned 4-5 puppies in a box outsider my house when I was Standard 2 that time. All puppies were females about 1 week old,which are common until these days.Most people prefer male puppy over female puppy so won't bring breeding problem.
I tried to ask the adult permission to keep 1 of the pups and I got denied. Ok fine. So I played with the puppies and I moved 1 of them nearer to my house and went in to get ready for school. A big mistake. My grandpa moved the puppy away while I was bathing,not back with her siblings,but near to the big drain. After i came out again,the puppy was gone. She fell into the drain. A big drain with medium water current. The adults didn't do anything to save the poor pup,I was only 7 and don't know what to do. The poor pup got washed away,crying for help. Climbed over the slide I could see half of her body floating in the big big drain from the other side of the drain. Lifeless....
Sad and angry,I weeped and didn't talk to my grandpa and brother (taunted me for crying for the pup) for the whole day. I indirectly caused her death while she hadn't able to see the world clearly.
Whenever I stood at the side of the drain,I still thought about the incident. Guilt, I have.
I am not a rescuer. I was not ready to make too much sacrifice. Shame,I felt. But I would,do my part as a dog shelter volunteer: educate and execute Trap-Neuter/Spay-Release program in dog-friendly neighbourhood,and make friends with the furry ones around.

无意思考

还是部落格喊话有效~
吕小明，您还是继续乖乖娱乐大众娱乐爷吧~

不知不觉上班了一年半，真的是不知不觉....
和上课不一样，脑细胞正在慢慢的缩小，难怪老人痴呆在这年代越来越年轻化....
佩服那些可以朝九晚9那么多年的人，竟然可以呆一间公司7、8年。
也佩服老板，以一个人之力操心操肺一间公司那么多年....
大家都被生活同化了,你我他，一样都在赚钱过生活--
饿不死又富不起来的打工族，买了车买不起楼的80后。

感性不起

现实的生活拿走了我的感性，
现在对那些感性的话毫无感觉，
麻木了情感。
除了动物之外，
对其他人类没有多大的兴趣。
什么要死不活的，
统统丢去流浪一天。

然后我要说，
吕小明，为嘛我又看不到你的部落了？？？
要知道您小明的部落是我目前生活乐趣之一呀～～
吕小明看到请回话～

iamdisgusted. by some male. gals,pls dont get married. u duno what ur husband did outside..there are really some really low-living thinking creature male living among us,and u wont know whether the 1 u marry is one of them.

鼠

家里鼠患，
老鼠笼里关着的已经是第四只了，
屋里屋外乱窜着的还有不下两只。

笼里是只大老鼠，
长得就跟《老鼠厨神》一模样。
它瞪着我我瞪着它，
我动一下手它已经吓得吱吱叫。
有人会觉得大老鼠在笼里大叫大跳很凶悍，
其实它只是饱受惊恐，
吱吱叫声里，
我听到的是害怕恐惧，
怎么能忍心夺走一条性命？

我不是虔诚佛教徒，
我只是知道万物皆有情有性，
害怕似乎是所有动物共有的感觉,
屠夫怎么下得了手？

Compassion and humanity,
是现代父母需要教会孩子的事，
不是ipad iphone i得如此自我，事事我都要为首。

共勉之

五月

以前的我，不知道政治是拿来做么的，觉得政治是很烦人的东西。
直到清洁运动崛起，手无寸铁的人民上街和平请愿集会却被镇暴队发射垂泪弹强力水枪，一部一部在场人民拍摄的视频，和主流媒体报道相差甚远，警察形同流氓，激起了很多大马年轻人的不忿。

大选将至，“5月5，换政府”的口号朗朗上口。
两大党派的支持者却把这届大选变成了最暴力的大选。破坏对方支持者的车辆，网路暴力的粗暴谩骂，可怜的名人上台中招。

不明白网路暴力，
别人支持别个党，
也不必要用那么难堪入耳的字眼来骂吧？
有些骂人的字都高搞不清楚也拿来吗，
显示修养不好之余还泄漏了学问没学好。

还有些朋友之间因为支持的立场不同而关系破裂。
如此的风风雨雨。

有些人盲目的支持党，
任何不支持者或批评党者一律格杀勿论。
有些人纯粹想要改变，
不管三七二十一候选人是谁投反对党联盟就对了。
有些人觉得反对党领袖不可靠，
还是支持原味好了。

无论是哪一党的支持者，
可不可以不要诋毁对方吗？
其实是长不到自己威风的。
可不可以来个君子之争？

几时可以来个像美国大选那样的双方公开辩论？
领袖就要像个就个君子，
不要老鼠一样躲躲闪闪的。

不要问别人会投给谁，
大家都知道的。

当老板

当老板真辛苦，
要监督每一个project每一个员工，
要胡扯夸大成就标新project，
以确保员工有事情做，
要尽个孝心也不行，
公司不能不管尽信员工。

当个老板当得那么辛苦，
我才不要当老板～