Furry friends of mine

After few emo posts,here are something that never fail to cheer me up.
These furry friends of mine~

Nap time in FFF:

Introducing, SuperBoy~ Superman style Ah Boy~

Sweeting imagining she can stop a car

Nap time after lunch!5 pups that finished up 4 big bowls of rice!

See the balloon stomach!

This three legged little fella very assertive and high-spirit!

This is Pussy,a Golden Retriever. Rose's previous house owner's dog

This is Milky still under influenced of drug.Notice the waterish eyes~

This is known as My Doggie that happily rest on top of my head =)

hatred

I hate this damn social structure called 'family', that breaks apart many good couple of us.
I damn hate this so called 'social', that look at us differently.
I damn hate this 'society', that took our happiness away.
I damn hate this so called 'reality', that tell us what's good for majority is good for us. Or what makes our parents happy is what we should do.
I damn hate this so called 'male', that have every rights to marry someone we love, and we can't do anything about it.
I damn hate everything. Yeah, almost everything, right now.

average

I never get really good in anything.
Sports, my study, my relationship, even my own look? Just average.
Never really success.
I may be able to pick things up fast,
but never excel in it.
Yes I didn't work really hard for it, i just have to accept that.
And yes, there are always someone who are better than me, I have to accept it too.
Such is life.

Just a whining release.

Me,motorcyclist in KL

What I hate most on KL roads:

1. Line cutters, especially without signal. I just hate them. LINE CUTTERS ARE SUCKERS!
2. Speedy. Showing off their car power and coming out of nowhere.
3. Uncles/ aunties drivers. When they drive too slow. Yet one stupid uncle almost knock me down when he speed off when the traffic light turned green.
4. Big vehicles. They just ignore smaller vehicles like motorcyclist.
5. Malay/Indian motorcyclist. I'm not trying to be racist or bias, but it is common to see them cut here and there dangerously in between cars. Not only young Malay or Indian, even Malay uncles and Indian uncles does that.
7. Turning without signal. It's dangerous to motorcyclist you know?!
8. Cars that get too near me from the back. I'll get panic and I'll give way anyway. Yet feeling panic is not a good feeling.

Why can't people just drive properly and carefully?
Don't they know everyone is actually rushing like them when they cut lines?
Don't they know they're threatening thousands of life that they encountered on the road when they drive like this and that?

I believe if I'm not a careful motorcyclist, I would be dead by now.

Judgement

Sometimes, we judged too fast. Without knowing the inner stories and the true meaning of the words.

A team is at best when nobody is judging anybody. Misunderstanding and miscommunication happen all the time, especially in a group that you don't know each other much.

Somehow, you'll still have to judge a person whether he or she is trustworthy or not. Failing in these judgment might lead to unimaginable consequences such as life and death.

I do not agree on putting words into another person's action. Human behavior is much more complicated than what can be seen on the surface. What's hidden beneath? We do not know. We might mistook a bad guy as a good one and a good guy as a bad one. Listening to both sides of stories may lead to even more confusion. Who is telling the truth? Who have hidden agenda?

So, I don't take side. I just don't like conflict.

To judge, or not to judge. That's the question.

welcome to the world

Recently been able to come in contact with people who are out of my age range, I mean big people(adult) who are really BIG.

What I mean by BIG is, the position or the title that a person holds, or in another word, the role of that person in certain circumstances, such as DATO, DATIN, Y.B. bla bla bla, or roles such as The Founder, The President, The Whoever. The HIGHER your position or BIGGER your role is, the easier public will remember your name. Well, maybe not your name,but your position for sure, or perhaps your face. We might go: "owwW, so you're the president/founder of xxxx", but we won't go: "owwW, so you're a worker/volunteer of xxxx". Maybe the 'owwW' still there, but will be a 'ou' instead of 'owwW'.

Anyway, I learned a lot about the world that I'm going to step into to-- the adult world? or known as the real world? Lying, pretending, faking, socializing, cunning, boring, adverturous, dramatic, lifeless, attention grabbing, giving, and taking.



Someone is sick.

Get well soon please.
IMU.

One Bow-WOW, One Heart

[click on the poster to enlarge]

I'm currently spamming people's facebook with this event invitation =)
Those who haven't donate,come lah~
Those who had donated,also come lah~
Why?
Because kaven said so =X
XD nolah~ For the dogs la k? Please come? please please pleeaasee?
If cannot come, money come also can~ XD
nolah~ If cannot come, donate the ticket money for kids from orphanage to come.
Furry friends need your help!

For more information,click:
FFF website
On Star
Facebook

phone

My phone failed me again, if you still haven't see my personal message on msn. Don't ask me why, I wish I know why also, each phone that I owned got problem within 6 months I purchased them. My friends said my hand busuk or my birth is not align （八字不合）with this technology gadget. So far, this is the 3rd phone, hope 4th phone is not coming so soon, I don't know what modal to buy.

I'm doing internship in my department as assistant to UNICEF project coordinator. Our job is to organize workshop, prepare anything for the research, and do report.

I can't remember what I did yesterday. Current mode: too busy to remember what I did yesterday.

Me being interviewed by 8tv in FFF. Courtesy to the fehmez BOY Joyce for taking this memorable picture? XD~ The interview got out 2 weeks ago,anyone saw the clip? XD~ Yeah~once in a life time~~

Happy birthday to my beloved junior Xiao Ming mei mei~ 来不及回去给你惊喜liao今年，不过还是很爱你哈~哈哈~Happy 19th~

aggressiveness

Sometimes I really feel that it's easier to be a dog than a human being.

When you feel so furious and dislike another human being so much, you're prohibit to act out aggression toward the person if you don't want to be labeled as low EQ person or you or unless you to get sued and go to jail.

For dogs,they greet each other,sniff each other,and decide they like each other or not. If don't like,they growl as warning sign,then just snap it if the other dog decide to have a good fight or dumb enough to go nearer still.

Yea,I feel like snapping people with my sharp teeth in my strong muzzle after I growl fiercely as pre-aggressive sign.

惊吓的一夜

昨晚一直被吓，搞到我心情烦躁郁闷到死。

骑摩托突然发现路旁有两个身穿白袍（真的袍的袍）、身形高挑、长发遮脸、拿着旗杆、不懂搞什么鬼的人/鬼！ 真的是，天色已黑，要不要穿到这样出来吓人阿？人吓人，可能吓不死人，可是车祸会死人的咧！还要在ss2红绿灯那边最多车的地方，妈的，我都忍不住骂粗了！因为我在专心驾摩多，发现这两个没良心的家伙时我摩多已经在他们站的栏杆旁边了，所以看了一眼，吓到了一大下，就走了。应该没有看错，是人没错吧~

然后被一辆载着情侣的摩多吓到。那摩多转进右边穿过一辆车后又穿回出来。我说先生，那个两辆车之间的缝其实还蛮大的，你不肥，你女朋友身材也不肥，应该是可以直接过的，干吗绕过去又绕出来吓人啊？

再后来，被某女子弄到我很郁闷。好嘛以后我不乱发脾气了，可是人家刚刚被吓，你又不在，我没有人诉苦嘛~

我是被吓长大的~
无惊无险，又过五点~
我摩多技术不错~~

dog lover

If you say yourself as a dog lover, but only love certain pedigree, you're just a pedigree lover.

If you say yourself as a dog lover, but never touch or feel love for any stray dogs, you are a pretended dog lover.

If you buy a pup from a pet shop just because he/she looks cute,but stop loving him/her once she grown up, you're a dumb ass. Human babies are cute,but do you think human adults look cute?

If you have a dog but never really love him/her,you're an ordinary human being by making your dog as a guarding tool without having any emotional attachment to your dog.

If you buy a pup just to please your girlfriend/kids,you're an irresponsible selfish ass hole. High chance that your pup will end up being abandon in future when you break up with your gf/your kids don't know how to take care the dog/you're moving to an apartment or a new place that doesn't allow you to have dog. Plain excuse. Dog lovers wouldn't move to a new place that wouldn't allow to have dogs.

If you adopted a dog from shelter but send him/her back to the place again,you don't really want a dog.

If you adopted dogs from street,take care and love them like they're your own children,you have every right to say you're a dog lover and I shall respect you.

True dog lover have restricted freedom as they need to prioritize their dogs before they decided to do anything such as go for vacation,move to a new place,have new family member etc etc...They dedicated almost 24 hours a day 365 days a year to their dogs.

How to train your dog? Top dog approach: http://www.dogbreedinfo.com/topdogrules.htm
I shall start walking Milky everyday~

爱情初学者

有些人谈过很多次恋爱可是还是不会处理两人之间的沟通问题；
有些人可以当别人的爱情专家，可是自己却能医不能自医；
有些人平时很通情达理，可是在爱人面前却不知所措。



我喜欢这戏

Long gone King of Pop

Micheal Jackson不在了，也不是现在才知道。 是在那个隔天早上有人七早八早sms我说Micheal died了去看CNN。现在才写，因为很多人都在赶着追悼。

我小时候都很喜欢听他的歌的。很久没有听了，现在电台好像都在争先恐后的在播，不懂会维持多久。

都是这样，生前猛烈批评丑闻，死后争相追悼。有时候真的很讨厌记者媒体。没有人情可言，价值都在新闻。

他的mv我都有印象。那个僵尸人狼造型的Thriller，还有后期一首关于动物绝种global warming的Earth Song,那个没有象牙的大象活过来让我印象很深刻。

你看你看，现在他的前妻跳出来说他的两个儿子不是他的。Funny story。就不能给他安息吗？

他那个moodwalk总会让人不自禁的兴奋，可是他那个捉下部的招牌舞步，我还是觉得很丑。

记不记得这个广告？Micheal Jackson来马环球演唱的宣传片，还有后段他招牌Dangerous的舞曲表演，ntv7的哦~看看当时他风磨全球的黄金片段。

Human and dogs

I just came back from FFF and I can't wait to write about this.

Do you know Grace? One of the Pulau Ketam dogs that swam over from hell island and rescued by the rescue team? She's back in the farm now. Indeed she's more happy than she was. I cleaned up Pulau Ketam dogs area today and squeezed/water shoot/wood-sticked/swept a lot of dog poos.Somehow after we'd done everything and went to help up feeding the dogs, Grace got out from the cage. She didn't ran far from her cage. Instead, she was running and rolling on the glass happily while other Pulau Ketam dogs barked at her jealously. She was enjoying herself and asking me to play with her. How cute was that? Another volunteer told me that she wasn't dare to come out from cage and they have to carry her when she first came. Her soul has healed, but I wonder do she remember the trauma event that she went through before she's safely with us in FFF? If she has memory capacity like a human, will she be as forgiving as she is now? Unless he or she had amnesia disorder, a human would never forgive such traumatic event that other human being put him or her through.

Just now before I came back came, I went to a pet shop to buy some stuff for Milky. When I passed by some human on my way to cashier, I overhead a girl saying something like she's going to sell her golden retriever. I got a bit mad and uttered 'you bought it and you want to sell it?' before I walked away. Maybe I heard her wrongly or I misunderstood what she meant, but yeah, YOU THOUGHT DOGS ARE TOY OR PROPERTY AH? BUY AND SELL? HE/SHE IS A LIVING CREATURE! HE/SHE MAY BE JUST A DOG FOR YOU, BUT YOU ARE EVERYTHING FOR HIM/HER!

And I just got Milky spayed yesterday for the sake to avoid pregnancy. She's still moody moody and no appetite. She's so quiet and stable now that I'm worrying her personality will change after this. I do not really plan to spay her before this. Blame that blardy useless male dog that my housemate called him 'little tiger'.

Days at Furry Friends Farm

最近比较忙比较忙比较忙~忙什么呢？看下图~
Was rather busy recently,I mean really busy. Here's one of the stuff that I was busying on:
毛毛园=Furry Friends Farm

I'm not sure how to call this area,dogs that were saved from Pulau Selat Kering can be seen at the back.

This is one of the pen/pan. Count how many dogs were there in the pic~

Another pen/pan/compound. Happy strays ran freely here~

Few of the 'dai koh' 'dai jeh' that were allowed to 90% freedom

Can't remember his name,resting inside cabin~

This is lovable Cash,yes his name is Cash. Favourite of all time. See a line of scar on his jaw? According to Michelle (one of S.A.D. member), his ex-owner tied his jaw with rubberband for a long period of time until he was saved. Although he's a happy dog now,the scar remains.

Another handsome dog that I don't know his name.A manja one as well.

Cash and Dodo. Dodo is very very manja girl.

And this,is my Milky~not in FFF of course.我家有女初成长，she's a big grown up girl now~

What we did there? We moved tons of dog foods and rice, cleaned the place, bathed/walked/played/fed the dogs. Sounds easy right? When there were more than hundreds dogs waiting to be fed, you think it's easy? One day is enough tiring, imagine you have to do that everyday? Absolutely salute to Sabrina.

Each dogs on the Farm has their own story behind. Some of them had gone through life that we couldn't even imagine. These are the dogs that were abused, abandoned and saved. They deserve second chance to live.

Can't wait to visit FFF again next week.

There's only 1 thing~2 do~3 words~for youuU~~

I know I too late for loving this song, but you still can't stop me from lovin' it now!

give me more lovin then i've ever had.

make it all better when i'm feelin sad.
tell me that i'm special even when i know i'm not.
make me feel good when i hurt so bad.
barely gettin mad,
im so glad i found you.
i love bein around you.
you make it easy,
as easy as 1 2,(1 2 3 4.)
theres only one thing two do three words four you.
i love you.
(i love you)
theres only one way two say those three words
and that's what i'll do.
i love you.
(i love you)
give me more lovin from the very start.
piece me back together when i fall apart.
tell me things you never even tell your closest friends.
make me feel good when i hurt so bad.
best that i've had.
im so glad that i found you.
i love bein around you.
you make it easy as easy as 1 2,(1 2 3 4.)
theres only one thing two do three words four you.
i love you.
(i love you)
theres only one way two say those three words
and that's what i'll do.
i love you.i love you
(i love you)
you make it easy, its easy as 1234
theres only one thing two do three words four you i love you
(i love you)
theres only one way two say those three words
thats what ill do i love you
(i love you)
i love you i love you.
one two three four i love you.
(iloveyou)
i love you
(i love you)

You know if I say those words to you, I'll mean it with all my heart. And you know I can't say it now. Not yet.

Too much tea today. Caffeine sensitive.

我不喜欢

我很不喜欢
懦弱
无理取闹
小孩子气
自以为是
不理智
自私
一厢情愿
的自己
因为我知道你不会喜欢这样的我
一只想要有个家的流浪小狗
和一只想要离家出走的小狗
遇上了
会怎样？

我要停止问为什么

我也是个矛盾个体
闹僵后会很不想看电话，
因为怕没有信息，
所以不理电话走出去摸狗。
回来看到missed calls，
我想撞豆腐。

两对情侣与一个人的故事

两对情侣，一个人

一个人停住了脚步，看见远方有一对亲密的情侣。亲密情侣没有看到一个人。

一个人又看像右边，也有一对情侣牵着手站着。那女孩看到了一个人，仿佛相识。女孩从一个人的眼里看到了悲伤无奈和渴望，一个人从女孩的眼中看出了心疼与不舍。

一个人看着那情侣几分钟后，低下头，转身离开。当女孩想叫住一个人时，想起手里已经有人牵着，始终没叫住一个人。

一个人，还是一个人。

my character strength

Was compulsory to take this survey that measure your character strengths and I was suppose to copy it down. So I paste it here and here's my top five characters :

Your Top Character Strength

Fairness, equity, and justice
Treating all people fairly is one of your abiding principles. You do not let your personal feelings bias your decisions about other people. You give everyone a chance.

Your Second Character Strength

Honesty, authenticity, and genuineness
You are an honest person, not only by speaking the truth but by living your life in a genuine and authentic way. You are down to earth and without pretense; you are a "real" person.

Your Third Character Strength

Perspective (wisdom)
Although you may not think of yourself as wise, your friends hold this view of you. They value your perspective on matters and turn to you for advice. You have a way of looking at the world that makes sense to others and to yourself.

Your Fourth Character Strength

Capacity to love and be loved
You value close relations with others, in particular those in which sharing and caring are reciprocated. The people to whom you feel most close are the same people who feel most close to you.

Your Fifth Character Strength

Appreciation of beauty and excellence
You notice and appreciate beauty, excellence, and/or skilled performance in all domains of life, from nature to art to mathematics to science to everyday experience.

From: http://www.viasurvey.org

update 2

Today supposedly should be the last day. Somehow we get a big project waiting for us next month. I need volunteers! Who's free on 12th-14th June?

Here's some picture of our materials. Don't have picture of me going around asking people for money because I didn't do that and no photographer for me. What I did was, went into classes, announced and explained, walked around in class and collected funds. What I found out was, the best time to collect fund was before a class start. People are free and got nothing to do, so they'll really pay attention to you. Plus social conformity and peer pressure, especially when the lecturer is supportive to the event, 3/4 of the class will donate.
Note: B.Psych lecturers are really nice! B.Psych students are kind also lah,haha~

Save a Dog, Save a Life!

Appreciation souvenir: Printed bookmark

Volunteer badge with our logo (I made one!)

Donation box and US 1 dollar that a foreign student donated
(I took it out and put in RM10 as exchange. US 1 dollar=RM10? XD)

And 小白卖血救狗~ 伟大到~~

Update

I'm feeling happy now~Don't ask me why,personal stuff~

Anyway,'Save a dog,save a life' project was not going so well after the first day. Didn't get much donation after the first day on Club and Society Day. Never mind,this week going to be full drive, collect as much money as we could. I'll hand over the money to Sabrina in FFF personally next Sunday as I'm going FFF together with Adrian and the team. Our objective had change and we are under Sabrina now. Instead of going over to Pulau Ketam, we'll go over to FFF once in every two weekend to help out in the farm.

Maybe boundary will help to solve our problem?
I've got the answer I want. No more headache.
Expect the least or the worst,do not expect the best,so you won't get too disappointed.

词

好人 坏人
第三者
自私
爱情
等待
忍
对 错
过街老鼠般的一段关系
疑惑
答案
欲望
压力
心疼
你 我 她
龙卷风
下雨天
没有关系
对的人
时间
那三个字
倔强
不愿承认
会不会
不知道
痛苦
如果你知道
理性
内疚

没有人能明白的一篇自白
朋友说，爱情是自私的，不需要内疚。
我明了。
能人所不能，能忍所不能忍。

Save a dog,save a life

Sometimes when I look back,I can't understand how heaven on earth would I been together with someone like that. Imagine if she's still with me now? hmm...

Life comes with stages. Transition stage perhaps? When you're in this stage, you won't be the same like previous stage.

Anyway,the fund raising/donation drive/whatever-you-wanna-called-it is starting tomorrow. It will be just a short while start-up during Club and Society Day due to lack of volunteers availability on that day. We all have our own stuff to busy on. However,we are still able to come out with poster and bookmarks. Our theme will be 'Save a dog,save a life'. What it means is when you're saving a dog, you're saving a life. A dog's life is a life, and it matters. I was trying to upload the poster,but it's in PDF file =.='' I'll take a picture and show it here, if I'm free, XD~

Don't breed or buy while shelter animals die

Content of this post was copied and pasted with permission of Shoba from Remembering Sheena's blog.

A Letter from a Shelter Manager (forwarded to us by Yen):

I think our society needs a huge " Wake-up" call. As a shelter manager, I am going to share a little insight with you all. ..a view from the inside if you will.

First off, all of you breeders/sellers should be made to work in the "back" of an animal shelter for just one day.

Maybe if you saw the life drain from a few sad, lost, confused eyes, you would change your mind about breeding and selling to people you don't even know. That puppy you just sold will most likely end up in my shelter when it's not a cute little puppy anymore.

So how would you feel if you knew that there's about a > 90% chance that dog will never walk out of the shelter it is going to be dumped at? Purebred or not!

About 50% of all of the dogs that are "owner surrenders" or "strays" that come into my shelter are purebred dogs.

The most common excuses I hear are;

"We are moving and we can't take our dog (or cat).

" Really? Where are you moving to that doesn't allow pets and why did you choose that place instead of a pet friendly home?

Or they say "The dog got bigger than we thought it would".

How big did you think a German Shepherd would get?

"We don't have time for her". Really? I work a 10- 12 hour day and still have time for my 6 dogs!

"She's tearing up our yard". How about making her a part of your family?

They always tell me: "We just don't want to have to stress about finding a place for her we know she'll get adopted, she's a good dog."

Odds are your pet won't get adopted & how stressful do you think being in a shelter is? Well, let me tell you, your pet has 72 hours to find a new family from the moment
you drop it off. Sometimes a little longer if the shelter isn't full and your dog manages to stay completely healthy. If it sniffles, it dies.

Your pet will be confined to a small run/kennel in a room with about 25 other barking or crying animals. It will have to relieve itself where it eats and sleeps.

It will be depressed and it will cry constantly for the family that abandoned it.

If your pet is lucky, I will have enough volunteers in that day to take him/her for a walk. If I don't, your pet won't get any attention besides having a bowl of food slid under the kennel door and the waste sprayed out of its pen with a high-powered hose.

If your dog is big, black or any of the "Bully" breeds (pit bull, rottie, mastiff, etc) it was pretty much dead when you walked it through the front door. Those dogs just don't get adopted.

It doesn't matter how 'sweet' or 'well behaved' they are. If your dog doesn't get adopted within its 72 hours and the shelter is full, it will be destroyed.

If the shelter isn't full and your dog is good enough, and of a desirable enough breed it may get a stay of execution, but not for long.

Most dogs get very kennel protective after about a week and are destroyed for showing aggression. Even the sweetest dogs will turn in this environment.

If your pet makes it over all of those hurdles chances are it will get kennel cough or an upper respiratory infection and will be destroyed because shelters just don't have the funds to pay for even a $100 treatment.

Here's a little euthanasia 101 for those of you that have never witnessed a perfectly healthy, scared animal being "put-down"....

First, your pet will be taken from its kennel on a leash. They always look like they think they are going for a walk - happy, wagging their tails.

Until, they get to "The Room", every one of them freak out and put the brakes on when we get to the door. It must smell like death or they can feel the sad souls that are left in there, it's strange, but it happens with every one of them.

Your dog or cat will be restrained, held down by 1 or 2 vet techs depending on the size and how freaked out they are.

Then a euthanasia tech or a vet will start the process. They will find a vein in the front leg and inject a lethal dose of the "pink stuff".

Hopefully your pet doesn't panic from being restrained and jerk. I've seen the needles tear out of a leg and been covered with the resulting blood and been deafened by the yelps and screams.

They all don't just "go to sleep", sometimes they spasm for a while, gasp for air and defecate on themselves.

When it all ends, your pet's corpse will be stacked like firewood in a large freezer in the back with all of the other animals that were killed waiting to be picked up like garbage.

What happens next? Cremated? Taken to the dump? Rendered into pet food? You'll never know and it probably won't even cross your mind. It was just an animal and you can always buy another one, right?

I hope that those of you that have read this are bawling your eyes out and can't get the pictures out of your head I deal with everyday on the way home from work.

I hate my job, I hate that it exists & I hate that it will always be there unless you people make some changes and realize that the lives you are affecting go much further than the pets you dump at a shelter.

Between 9 and 11 MILLION animals die every year in shelters and only you can stop it. I do my best to save every life I can but rescues are always full, and there are more animals coming in everyday than there are homes.

My point to all of this: DON'T BREED OR BUY WHILE SHELTER PETS DIE!

Hate me if you want to. The truth hurts and reality is what it is.

I just hope I maybe changed one person's mind about breeding their dog, taking their loving pet to a shelter, or buying a dog.

I hope that someone will walk into my shelter and say "I saw this and it made me want to adopt." THAT WOULD MAKE IT WORTH IT!

DON'T BUY FROM PET SHOPS. ADOPT FROM AN ANIMAL SHELTER. CALL YEN IF YOU CAN PROVIDE A HOME FOR A RESCUED DOG OR CAT. CALL HER ALSO IF YOU WANT TO BOARD YOUR PETS. SHE HAS A GREAT PLACE AND THEY WON'T BE CAGED. THE INCOME SHE EARNS FROM BOARDING GOES INTO RESCUING AND REHOMING STRAYS. SO YOUR PETS HAVE A GREAT TIME WHILE YOU ARE AWAY AND IN THE PROCESS YOU ARE ALSO HELPING ABANDONED AND HOMELESS ANIMALS.YEN: 012 415 1524

Malay tag

Because this is a tag from ah jie,so I must DO IT.(goddam I duno Malay la)

1. Kekasih saya adalah:
tada

2. Saya sedang mendengar :
bunyi kipas

3. Mungkin saya patut:
tido

4. Saya baru sudah :
blogged

5.Beza rakan, sahabat, kawan :
no beza,friend=frn=fren

6.Saya tidak faham :
fikiran manusia

7.Saya perlu mencari:
zhou gong

8.Ayat terakhir yang dikatakan kepada saya :
gud nite

9.Makna kehidupan :
cari makna

10.Cinta itu adalah:
l.o.v.e

11.saya paling suka :
anjing

12.Saya akan cuba :
menyelamat anjing??

13.Mengapa rakyat Malaysia suka menggunakan LAH di akhir ayat mereka :
kami anak rojak

14.Telefon bimbit saya :
faced down

15.Katil saya :
masih bersih

16.Soalan yang bagi saya tidak perlu ditanya :
u online today?

17.Teknologi adalah :
cemar bumi


18.Bagaimana saya boleh memasak masakan yang saya paling pandai masak :
dengan memasak guna brain dan tangan dan mata

19.Semalam :
saya happy

20.Hari ini :
saya tak happy

21.Malam ini saya akan :
sudah malam

22.Esok pula saya akan :
haiz

23.Saya betul2 inginkan :
bersama dengan u

24.badminton atau futsal :
badminton

25.karaoke :
a b c

26.kereta :
tak suka pandu

27.Bilik yang terang atau gelap :
terang

28.Makanan jepun adalah :
sushi

29.Ayat terakhir yang nak anda katakan pada seseorang?
whatever

30. Siapa yang akan anda tag?
tada

Dogs Matter to Us

I'm happy. My initial plan for just a small donation drive in my college is going to be a big one with a strong force behind me.

When I asked Little V that if I'm going to organize a donation event would she help me, she brought in my gang. These are people with strong leadership and they have plenty of experience in organizing events. Steph and Wei Choon, I appreciate that~ I need more volunteers~ B.Psychers here,what says you? XD

Yes this will be a donation drive for the Dog Rescue Mission about Pulau Ketam dogs. The funds will go to Sabrina Yeap's FFF (Furry Friends Farm) as her farm use no euthesize on dogs and she's keeping most of the rescue dogs in her farms temporarily. SPCA had have enough fund for the operation as they are internationally recognized organization. Public will mostly donate to SPCA, but not FFF.

Anyone wants to donate? Here's the detail (copy and paste from TV Smith's page) :

To contribute or help, e-mail TV Smith at tvsmith@mycen.com.my or Sabrina Yeap at yeapwen@yahoo.com

Update:

Furry Friends Farm
CIMB 1457-000-1182-05-6 (Current Account)
*For online interbank transfer, if it prompts for Recipient ID/Business Reg: Just type in 5766

Contributors from abroad (and Malaysia) can also:

Send by PayPal to tvsmith@gmail.com

Please retain transaction record / slip for verification and audit purposes.

Update:

For info or enquiries:
The Rescue Mission Secretariat at +6012 378 3730 (Janet) or +6012 320 8090 (Zalina)
The Sec's E-mail is dogrescue.pk@gmail.com (see updates page for info)

Fellow bloggers, you can also help by embedding the appeal poster above to your blog and linking to http://www.mycen.com.my/rescue

We are aware it is a monumental task and appreciate all forms of support, assistance, suggestions, encouragement and your prayers.

TV Smith

3rd May 2009

Hope that I'll get approval for everything soon and start the donation as soon as possible (like next week?)

Pulau Ketam Day 1

Yes I went to Pulau Ketam today. For what? To survey the island and to prepare next trip to save dogs from the island.

Photos from today's trip, shoot by a freelance photojournalist with a 8k professional DSLR Canon don't know which version camera.
http://joyce-tedoen.com/recon-trip-1-several-down-several-more-to-go/

'To say one own as dog lover, must have some action to prove it,and now is the time to start'

Instead of kacau the work of those professional animals right activists doing their work on saving dogs from the inhabitable islands, I'm joining a volunteering work of getting the stray dogs out of Pulau Ketam before the head of village have no choice but call the Manipal folks to get rid of the dogs. Mind you, some of the press might projected the villagers as crual or inhuman, but for me, they are just traditional chinese village folks. They're friendly and united among themselves. They put their bikes everywhere without having to worry they won't see their bikes after they come out from a shop. It's a peaceful village. No they don't hate dogs, they were worry what will we do to the dogs after we get the dogs. They don't want the dogs to die, but they just don't know that the islands that they put the dogs are so lifeless, or they forgot that the dogs have lost the ability to survive by their own.

The task we're going to do is not easy,I don't know how we're going to do it, or how will it works out. But I'm serious in this.

Rescue mission ON

Sorry folks,I'll delay pics and writing on Redang trip. I'm currently into this:

In case you didn't get any news about this matter, click HERE and HERE.
For full coverage of news on this, click HERE.

To summarize, Pulau Ketam folks trapped more than 300 stray dogs of the pulau and shipped them to another inhabitable and isolated islands, Pulau Tengah and Pulau Selat Kering. Now these dogs are starving to death on the islands. Rescue mission is carrying out by SPCA and Furry Friends Farm to get the dogs back to mainland. Some critiqued the Pulau Ketam villagers inhuman act,while some critiqued the rescue mission for wasting money to save dogs.

In my opinion, Pulau Ketam recidents complained to Majlis Perbandaran that stray dogs problem was getting serious but they don't want Majlis Perbandaran people shot down the strays, so someone came out with the idea that transport all the stray dogs in the town to another island. Stray dogs problem solved, and they think the dogs are survivor,can live without food and fresh water on the inhabitable island. People don't want the dogs to be shot dead, so they spent money and energy to trapped and transfered hundreds of stray dogs to another island. This is act of goodness. But I think they forgot that dogs, that had became domestic animal since few thousand years ago, had lost their wildness because they were too close to human and were dependent on human on survival. None of the dogs were born without having contact with human in their whole life. They won't be able to survive without human around.

As another saying that why waste the effort and money to save the dog, a life is a life, let it be animal or human. More over, dogs are creatures that are emotional, just like human. And yes, I'm a dog lover. And it's time to have make some contribution if I'm to say I'm a dog lover. I'm planning to organize a fund raising for the rescue mission in my collage, with few friends helping out. Just a small event, to collect as much money as we could, and help to save as many dogs as we could from the island. I just sent out an email to get approval from the Head of Department. Hope to get a reply soon. Also, I contacted someone from a forum that is trying to form a group to collaborate and help out the rescue mission. It's time for devotion.

I want to be there with you!!

Some words,I just can't say it out. It's weird.
I'm feeling that way,but just can't say out how I feel.
I'm shy,maybe~XD

Hmm,
I want to be there with you!!
Yet I'm afraid.
So I'm still here.
But half of my thoughts are with you all the time.

I'm going here and there.
I'm worry about my Milky.
People complaining about this naughty pup~
Getting bigger and out of control.

"kaven how many times I have to tell you, you can't make me pregnant" (Wong,2009)

I love Sin Chan!
Perverted in a pure innocent way~

好人坏人

‘小kv乖乖，把心情打开，不要闹了。’

好人坏人如何分辨？ 广东话有一句叫做‘好人不怕做’，结果当了好人，被人骗了，要怨谁呢？
我不怨，我被骗，我相信善有善报，恶有恶报。我本着善意帮人家，被骗了，骗我者会有报应，我问心无愧。
人生苦短，到后来两脚一伸，什么都带不走。所以最重要在世上时做自己喜欢的事，帮助有需要的人/动物，不害人不害己，对得起天地良心。

或许当时我想验证世上到底还有没有真诚的人。
结果是令人失望的，没有。
现在或许我还是愿意相信世界上是有好人的。

人与人之间的戒心，存在在这个见钱眼开的社会上。
谁是好人，谁是坏人？谁是真正需要帮助的人？谁是企图利用同情心来行骗？
陌生的人，看不见心。
我读心理学，看不透人家的心思，也了解不了人类这个复杂的生物。

我很喜欢《The curious case of Benjamin Button》里面Captain Mike临死前说的:‘You can be as mad as a mad dog at the way things went. You could swear, curse the fates, but when it comes to the end, you have to let go’。
你也可以怨恨所有对你不公的事，也可以诅咒伤害过你的人，不过当你走到人生的尾端时，所有东西都会化为乌有。

乱写一番

被小明妹妹影响了，忽然也很有劲的想要写部落格~

好，乱写一番~

想要有强健的臂弯，所以‘差不多’每天睡前做一些伏地挺身强化手臂肌肉的动作。
十一月开始做到今年农历新年停顿了一阵子，后来三月开始不停顿到目前，终于小老鼠出现了，三头肌也越来越明显，手臂线条比较美了，真开心哈~
锻炼肌肉这事不能断，一停顿就会懒散了，就会半途而废了。
哈，有谁要见证见证一下我强健的臂弯吗？我人小力气可不小的咧~
好下个目标就是把‘后备轮胎’变腹肌？团结不是力量，六块才是力量~嚷嚷要六块很久了，是很不实际，不过能打散团结的力量也是不错~

应该翻译翻译一下:
Suddenly feel like writing something in here,affected by my Beloved Xiao Ming~
I'm lazy to translate.
Basically, my biceps and triceps are getting obvious and I'm happy about that~Work out and work out,must not stop. Ok lousy translation. I'm sleepy. HAHA~
Shall blog in English next time~

上照

我很无聊。纳闷/郁闷了好多天。现在是study week。我很空闲。
为了防止我的部落格看起来很压抑，决定放照片！所谓的‘近照’。

14.3.09于Pavilion Sakae Sushi
Friends that love me and friends that I love
貌似都是从网上认识的

Earth hour那天
独守空屋，所以所有电源都关了，包括modem,除了冰箱

Earth Hour溜狗一个小时
话说这个有反光的RM15 collar戴不到几个星期就被咬烂了（我的RM15)

健壮的Milky继续的健壮着

某人充满女人味的香肩~

今天是雨天。
我想如果今天我饿死了，会不会是历史上第一个因为下雨天儿饿死的人？
干粮吃完了，雨天断我的粮食。
快熟面也是借来的。很久没煮快熟面了。

代替

我的爱应该是很沉重的，越来越沉重，沉入海底了都。
爱不能轻口说，因为要负责任的。
可是我爱Ｍｉｌｋｙ哈。

忽然很想冷漠，因为快要麻木了都。还能怎样？

我需要啃书，没天没夜的啃，啃得昏天暗地。
如果啃书也能麻醉的话。　

这里开始有那么一个角落，隐秘的角落，不想被人发现的角落。
Ｓｏｍｅｔｈｉｎｇｓ　ａｒｅ　ｂｅｔｔｅｒ　ｌｅｆｔ　ｕｎｓａｉｄ．　

荷尔蒙失调

当click完所有的link后，还能做些什么？ 你看我几无聊~ 水生火热的两个星期assignments due peak period后的空窗期，哈哈~

突然间又很想写故事。塑造几个人物，然后写出我想过的生活。讲罢了。

我很讨厌period!#!@$%$@#$&*x%#$%$ 为什么男的不用每个月都来一些内出血！体验一下手脚无力脸色发白走几步路都会喘的几天？男的该死！grrrrrrrr
切掉切掉！

我讨厌烟味！人烟油烟车烟香烟！抽烟污染空气污染健康，有时候真的想打死那些不顾他人感想随地抽烟的人！枪毙枪毙！

我现在很偏激！不要惹我！咬死你！
荷尔蒙失调的象征 -_-

voiceless voice

If you do not know, kaven have a soft spot for animals. Especially dogs.

I'd always wanted to do something, to help the stray or homeless animals, but being financially dependent still, there's very limit I can do. At least I saved one life from being homeless,my Milky. Although sometimes I wonder would she be happier if I didn't took her away from her family? Hmm....that's a little story behind.

She was found a the backdoor of my friend's house,together with another three puppies. She called me to ask me what to do with the puppies and would it be ok to send them to SPCA as she knows SPCA will 'put them into sleep' if nobody adopt them in certain days. Well I just said I can take one of the pup in, as I was too 'dog-sick'. So they sponsered me some dog stuffs，then we went to see the pups. The pups looked healthy except serious ticks and skin problems. While we standing there waiting for my decision on which pup to take, a couple of India siblings came over and said they were their pups and they're taking them back. Their grandfather thrown the pups there b'cause he hates dogs. The Indian girl was wearing that she'll kill her grandpa if he thrown the pups again. Yea obviously she's a dog lover too,who would swear to kill their grandpa for dogs right? Haha~ Anyway,we told her I was about to take the dog b'cause we thought the pups were abandoned. She said I could take them if I want. So the pups homeless issue was solved, it just about whether I still wanna take a pup with me or not. Since we already bought dog food and shampoo and all that,so yeah,so here's Milky,the skinniest among the pups at that time.

Milky(top left) with her siblings

Left:How I brought Milky back--in my cloths washing 'baldi' i forgot the English word.
Right:First few days at home. Simple adorable and cute~

Ok I'm really of the topic. What I really want to say is this:

Sigh...Malaysia Government would do nothing on this until someone like Obama take the PM post.
So, what we can do now is....curse those animal abusers! Also those reckless drivers that ranover animals and did nothing about it!!

Ok the more practical one is, volunteer or donate to NGO animal protection group.
Or just being nice to stray dogs or cats =） Like xiao ming mei mei let stray puppies slept on her foot in restaurant without complain~~
and report any abuse on animals to those groups like SPCA. Abused animal can't speak, but you can! So speak for the voiceless!

男的跟男生的差别

有些男的很贱，嘴巴臭过milky的大便；
有些男的很绅士，老夫老妻了的时候还会疼老婆；
有些男的很没品，不懂得什么叫做ladies first;
有些男的很痴情，痴情到变态的程度；
也有些痴情男，默默的守候的那种；
有些男的很不知所谓，不懂什么是homosexual就乱乱吠；
有些男的很贱，一天到晚kacau女生，我咒一辈子没交过女朋友很活该；
有些男的很爱美，皮肤比女生白；
有些男生就是爱男生；
有些男的死硬不肯分手，不明白什么叫做留得住人留不到心，阻着地球转；
有些男的很不知廉耻，不懂死缠烂打很白痴；
有些男的很样衰，不需要其他缺点，样衰一点就足够欠扁；
有些男的很臭，样衰口臭加体臭；
有些男生很帅，帅到连我也觉得帅；
有些男的很花，可是不懂为什么女人就是爱被骗。

有些女生很美，美若天仙的美，不过好像只有小说里才有；
有些女生很可爱，有点笨笨傻傻好欺负；
有些女生很坏，玩弄感情让人神魂颠倒；
有些女生像男生，连我都认不出其实不是男生；
有些女生很帅，帅到如果不是tb会很可惜；
有些女生很胖，话说天下没有庞女只有懒女和贪吃女；
有些女生很鸡婆，搬弄是非唯恐天下不乱；
有些女生很恐怖，声音说话高八倍，还要跟你装可爱吓吓你；
有些女生很爱粉红，整身粉红令人眼花头晕；
有些女生很自私，只可以你对她好，她不需要对你好；
有些女生很天真，以为爱情就是唯一。
有些女生很邋遢，你会不敢相信房间是她的，然后接受事实后不断翻白眼；
有些女生很凶，你会敬而远之；
有些女生很能干，你只能敬佩她；
有些女生很小姐，连绑个鞋带都要kakak绑。

男男女女，各有所好；
很明显，‘男的’都是贬，‘男生’才是褒，
‘男的’令我反感，‘男生’才能让我正眼看又不会想吐。
女人，也有麻烦的，也有可爱的，
总结来说，我是爱女生的。

assigments-due peak period

天气太热，令我昏昏欲睡；
天气凉凉，令我想要冬眠。

嘿嘿
在大家赶assignment赶到无日无夜的时候，
我很有时间睡觉。
都差不多完成了，所以偷懒~
这个星期，是难熬的一个星期，for bpsych-ers~
Why everything has to due altogether?
I'm sick of literature review odi la~

我要睡觉~

Watch this:


I'm going to support this event. I'm setting the reminder in my phone calender.
Let's make the city dark on:
Date: 28 March 2009
Time: 8.30p.m. - 9:30p.m.

(Copy and paste from Sharonia)

阿米驼佛

其实，说我desperate也没有错。回头过去，都会觉得每一段开始又结束的感情都是错的。然后我会对自己说，其实单身很不错。一阵子后如果发现有人对我有好感，就算是错觉或者自作多情，又会一头栽下去。可笑。
我很好奇被人家暗恋/明恋是什么感觉。所以你看，每次都是我莫名其妙的跑去喜欢人家，自己拿头去撞墙，就没有人把头撞向我。我也不明白为什么，或许我很奇怪，或许我真的很不起眼，或许我真的不好。
为了想要知道答案，都不愉快了很多次。所以我已经没有也不想再问了，因为我不想不开心。

现在，
纯粹的不开心。
了又

Friends that love me and friends that I love

These are the cakes that I got 2 hours before my birthday

This is the not-so-surprise 'surprise' from Little V

And today,a big gathering (for me lah) or belated birthday celebration at Sakae Sushi in Pavilion

Present from Ah Jie ^^ Handmade card and cute hand-drawn portraits by Ah Jie

Big lips Awei and Jwen

That's meeee~with a dog that looks like a cat? hahah~I looked shy~~

Eating-ice cream Ah Jie and Clara~

HL that looked like Nightmare Before Christmas

Present from Michie and Aileen~Very nice PDI shirts with proper size for me~

And a cheesecake from Ah Phi which I haven't try,because my stomach was too stuff with cakes in these few days~

Can I named today as 'Friends that love me and friends that I love' day? XD
Today's outting is very happy and fun~ Although whole big bunch of people don't know what to do after lunch~ But by just sitting and chit chatting is fun enough~ Never run out of topics~
Never had a big group outting like this before,so thanks everyone leh,hehehhehe,ok I'm paiseh-ing still.
And some that didn't or couldn't came such as Ah Kor and HL,I know you love me also geh~wakakakakz~

Just today

如果我妈过来跟我住，她会很惊讶她那个在家从来什么都不做的女儿竟然会每个周末都在家打扫完整间家和房间还有抓那只狗来冲凉。
记得以前我跟妈抗战，她说我那么大了还不会洗碗洗衣，所以罢工不帮我洗。当然，抗战维持了几个星期，成绩是我输了。这个要说明一下，我不是不会洗，只是我懒惰而已。

我很饿。等着吃晚餐。

我快要二十岁了。
在孩子气的 同时学习着成长。
其实我很怕年老人衰，孤独终老的未来。

If my mom come over and stay with me,she'll be surprise at her daughter that never did any house chores before will sweep and mop the floor of whole house at every Sunday. Mind you, it's my own will because I can't stand dirty floor. I'm very particular about floor cleanness.

I don't mind to be the one that clean the house. As long as someone willing to cook for me. In the future.

I'm going to be 20 soon.
Learning how to be mature,although some said my mind is older than my actual age.
I'm afraid to be old too actually. What will I become in next 30 or 40 years? How will I look like? When I'm too old to walk, will there be someone with me? Maybe it's not a good thing to live a long life.

I'm starving. Waiting for dinner time.

The curious case of Benjamin Button

The whole world knows this movie.

If you don't know what is it,go update yourself please.
I prefer this poster over Brand Pitt version. Or old baby version.

It is a meaningful movie. Amazing movie. But probably not a good choice for those who like plain action and adventurous movie that needless to use any conscious thoughts, in another word, their brain.

2 hours and 45 minutes, it's a bit slow, but it's worth the time and definitely the price, to watch it in a cinema. Although you might need to move your ass a little bit here and there to make sure you still can feel them after the movie ends.

What can you learn from this movie? A lot. Imagine you were born old and growing younger each days while people around you getting older.

And you have to ignore your science or biology or medical knowledge when watching this movie. No answers of 'how come' and 'why is he born to be like this' within this movie. I googled and found out that this story was inspired by a short story written in 1921 by F. Scott Fitzgerald. So better enjoy it as a fictional story that teaches you about life.

Here are some quotes from the movie that I can't stop myself from playing in my head:

Mrs. Maple: Benjamin, we're meant to lose the people we love. How else would we know how important they are to us?

Captain Mike: You can be as mad as a mad dog at the way things went. You could swear, curse the fates, but when it comes to the end, you have to let go.

And Mr.Daws that got struck by lightning seven times said that: Blinded in one eye; can't hardly hear. I get twitches and shakes out of nowhere; always losing my line of thought. But you know what? God keeps reminding me I'm lucky to be alive.
(Copy and paste from http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0421715/quotes)

And yea, that's life.

milk tea

Human creates problem for themselves, agree?
Actually everything is just in your head. You play that little imaginative drama inside your mind while the Earth is still rotating, the sun is still shining, you are still breathing, and everything is actually,still the same.
Take that imaginative part away. Human is not human, there won't be electric,lamp,handphone,whatever electronic gadget. There will also no anorexia,depression,schizophrenia,whatever mental disorder.
I'm a little bit headache.
Two cups of milk tea enough to make me palpitation and stay awake throughout the night.
I'm a little bit afraid when you said 'you will try'....hmm....if you know why.
See, I'm creating problem for myself.
A hole to jump. Or not.

很长也很杂

话说新年期间我把Milky寄养在一家宠物酒店，总共花了我三百块。=.='' 真是要命，一只菜狗居然花得比一只迷你宾犬多，真是一只富贵菜狗。
话说我初六就跑回来了，为了Milky，阿不然可以初八才回来的。那天一个人背着背包和laptop，带着一条狗，从那个宠物酒店走到Kelana Jaya LRT，很有流浪的感觉。一人一狗又饿又渴，找不到人tumpang,真的有点可怜兮兮的感觉。最后还是要谢谢小猪特地看完戏后赶来，救命之恩哟~不然就不懂怎么才能回到家了。
本来有拍了一些流浪之照，结果还没upload上来电话就不见了。不用紧，用新电话补回新照片。
这个是可怜兮兮之一。

再话说上上个星期六很开心，因为很热闹的聚在一起做讨论，然后很忙很开心的一起吃晚餐，跟不同的朋友。结果隔天去买鸡饭，鸡饭antie看到我很开心，结果发现电话不见了。这是可怜兮兮二。
结果很忙的在外头一整天，然后买了这个很可爱的moo moo牛奶水瓶。

然后隔天买了一个新电话，同样的号码，一天搞定。

话说电话不见那天，某人就买了这个白色的Tuzki手机吊饰想要替我的电话装饰一下，真是刚巧得很吓人。
有失有得，哭笑不得~

我的行为举止总是出卖了我。
在我还懵懵懂懂当中时，潜意识里我的举动已经把信息传达了出去。
结果我自己都还不懂发生什么事，别人早就准备好了功夫应付我。
其实我并没有在计划什么，也没有想过要怎样，只是不知不觉地这样罢了。

今天又在新扬外荨的部落格晃，那里总是充满着阳光，文字句子间充满了温暖。在那里会看到爱与希望，平凡与满足。人生所求不过如此，一个爱我及我爱的人，有着知己，有着家人的包容与体谅。简简单单却幸福快乐。我所向往的生活。
爱情需要经过时间的考验，才能印证是爱情。
看着如此如此的爱情，我似乎不懂什么是爱情，是因为没有经历过？还是忘记爱是什么样子？还是已经不敢再狂妄的去爱了？

其实真的不知道要什么。只是随着感觉走，因为想这样而这样。似乎有些小孩子般的任性，不过不是没有理智的不知道在做什么。知道自己在做什么，可能只是不想再去顾虑些什么，因为并没有在期待如扬扬般的结果。在享受过程？在顺其自然？潜意识里的期待？
有点太过坦白了，如果看得懂的话。看得懂的话，也请假装不懂~

我喜欢小外~
‘爱里有什么？爱里有孩子般的任性’ （小外，2009）。

这个标题叫做我挺你

有个我很疼爱的朋友被人家摆上台，我很不爽。
事情的来龙去脉我听了也很气，真的是冤枉得很冤枉。
就觉得那个女生不简单，你看，果然被利用了。
自家两个人的事，何必搞得那么大件事？
有些圈内人的生活就是乱；
有些想低调过生活的人却总是很无辜的被牵涉。
清者自清，愚者自扰，
你是怎样的人大家都很清楚，
我挺你。
是是非非快点远离你~

Lost and gain

I lost my k550i today. Don't ask me why. I'll never ever wear short pants when riding motor out. Never ever! First time lost such valuable possession.

Ok look at the bright side, I'm getting a new phone. Not sure which model yet,probably k770i,got a lot positive comment bout this phone. But I'll miss my k550i for sure, especially it's camera,that is only when it was functioning well.

Believe it or not,the first thing that came into my mind when I finally realize that my hand phone was gone was,'shit,all the messages inside...'
Last night I was still 'revising' those messages. I don't know why I kept all of it. I never kept any messages since I broke up with my ex. It was always 'delete all', but it became 'select some' and 'delete' since the sms that said 'don't know why suddenly read your blog hope you are fine and gampate'. And all those mms pictures,I saved it in my phone memory. I never plan to tell or show anyone about this,I would just kept it to myself. Since it's all gone now,so.... It's a darn thing that can't transfer sms messages to computer. Those sms messages mean a lot to me.

Funny thing,I lost a hand phone,but someone got me a handphone accessory today. I never expected that :) Talking about lost and gain. And I bought myself a cute moo moo water bottle from "BRO'S". I know someone will craving for it too XD~ will take picture and upload ONCE I got my new phone.

And yes,I lost phone,meaing I lost everyone's contact number. I'll be using the same number though. Hope can settle everything tomorrow. Feel like missing something without a hand phone. Leave your hp.no to me~or sms and tell me your name the day after tomorrow~~

I'm a garbage bin

我说我是垃圾桶，
竟然有人觉得我很可怜？ ==''
我相信幽默风趣，我还是有的，
只是比较另类一些，
冷了一些。

很多时候，我们发脾气胡闹得像个小孩，
只因为想要得到关注。
这个与生俱来的本能在婴儿时期已经展现无疑。
小baby呱呱哭，妈妈就会喂奶换尿布。
小baby舒服了，自然就乖乖静静了。
当然，这个与生俱来的本能，会随着年龄的增长，与社会的教育，而慢慢隐藏起来。
是隐藏，而不是消磨不见。
所以当我们不高兴或生气时，这与生俱来的本能就会再次发挥作用。
不过，会不会得到像小baby时的那种效果，又另当别论了。
很多时候，人家只会当你是傻瓜，徒劳无功。
还会被人家说你幼稚，发什么小孩子脾气，的反效果。

Emotions of the night

How hard it is to break a heart that has already broken?
(arrow downward)
Girls can be really cruel sometimes
(arrow downward)
Maybe it's because someone has been crueler to her before
(arrow downward)
I shall be free again
(arrow downward)
Wary and teary,but burden is gone
(arrow downward)
Continue waiting for The One
(the end)

Is this a happy ending? Sad ending? No ending. Stories continue anyway. It will be a memory that I'll never forget. And she will be a friend that I hold deary no matter what. And nothing more can be said.

laugh for the day

I found an amusing blog by lesbian about lesbian-friendly stuffs.
Here's one of it:

Why Twilight is a lesbian film?

Hahaha~of course Twilight is not a real lesbian film. In fact,there was non lesbian scene in the movie.
Click the link,and see why is the film sounds gay to our blogger here. And mind you,a lot of drama at the 'comment' corner of the page.
I would like to add one more reason why Twilight is a lesbian film:
No guy or male can say something like "You're like a drug to me. Like my own personal brand of heroine." or "you are my life now". No normal straight guys are creative or romantic enough to say those words. Or,they don't appreciate their girls enough to say those words willingly. XD~

骂自己

明明很脆弱却还要假装承受得了。
摔破了就是活该，记得不要怪别人。
就是要把自己搞得xxxx才清醒。
不懂这次又搞什么，犯傻了又。
固执是不是好事？也不知道在执著什么，跟自己拗身处幻境也不是坏事。
头疼，念经去。

写字的情感来源好像都是来自于悲伤。

虚实

感觉看不到摸不着，如果知道是真是假？感觉可以是假，比如你自做多情，以为人家对你也有感觉。其实只是幻觉来的jeh。感觉当然也有真，比如你被烧水烫到，感觉会痛因为神经受到刺激所以痛。前者好像也会痛？不过好像不关神经的事，所以不知道是physical真的痛，还是你自己要去感觉那个emotional的痛。
有时犹如身处梦境，时实时虚。就像现在，感觉好像舌头麻掉，也不知道是真的麻还是假的麻。

你会不敢相信我会念经。《般若菠罗密多心经》......的前半段。你会不敢相信念经能让我心平静不少。
不相信？叫我念给你听。

觀自在菩薩
行深般若波羅密多時
照見五蘊皆空
度一切苦厄舍利子
色不異空 空不異色
色即是空 空即是色
受想行識
亦復如是舍利子
是諸法空相
不生不滅 不垢不淨
不增不減 是故空中無色
無受想行識 無眼耳鼻舌身意 無色聲香味觸法
無眼界 乃至無意識界
無無明 亦無無明盡 乃至無 老死
亦無老死盡
無苦集滅道
無智亦無得
以無所得故
菩提薩埵
依般若波羅密多故
心無罣礙 無罣礙故 無有恐怖
遠離顛倒夢想
究竟涅槃 三世諸佛
依般若波羅密多故
得阿耨多羅三藐三菩提
故知般若波羅密多
是大神咒 是大明咒
是無上咒 是無等等咒
能除一切苦 真實不虛
故說般若波羅密多咒
即說咒曰
揭諦揭諦 波羅揭諦
波羅僧揭諦 菩提薩婆訶

当然不是我自己打的，因为很多字，拷贝来的。不过可以念给你晕，现在我自己先晕去，因为头晕。

Enough.Enough now

She's married to his best friend. He pretended to be unfriendly to her all the time,but secretly falls in love with her.
(Scene from 'Love Actually')

妈妈的房间

我是在妈妈的房间长大的。爸妈的主人房，就是我的房间，直到小学五年级。

爸妈的床很大。
我的木板床在妈妈的隔壁，小时候都是让妈妈拍着我的背睡着的。

爸妈的床很好跳。
结果弹簧给我跳坏了，凹了一个洞。爸妈睡了多少年的坏床。

爸妈的房间很好玩。
无聊的时候我就把衣橱、书桌里面所有的抽屉打开，把所有东西拿出来把玩，然后又小心翼翼地把所有东西放回原位。好像都没被发现也~

房间里的桌子很古董。
以前桌子上有个旧电话，用转号码的，很好玩。小时候用这个电话第一次留信息给爸爸的叫呼机，很紧张，叫爸爸早点回家。

桌子的抽屉里还堆满了我早已忘记的卡片。
我自做给妈妈的卡片。母亲节卡片，和偶尔无聊画画的卡片。
不过是自己在图画纸上涂涂写写，然后折成小小张。
有一次妈妈说：‘你以前母亲节都有做卡给妈妈，现在没有啦~’。
很久没有写‘妈妈，我爱你’了。

好像不懂从哪里听说，
女儿都是比较心疼妈妈的，
嗯。
爸爸很欠打。
哦好，不能打。
欠骂。
都几岁人了，还不会乖乖早点回家陪老婆。
不会疼老婆的男人，
还好这个没有被遗传到~

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不懂是你影响了我还是我影响了你，
竟然爱上了那些主题曲。

1st tag in 2009

Tagged by P.S~
wahahah and let me actually found out that she changed d tag list,wahahaha~
but I'll still do it~

1. Do you think you are hot?
= I'm COOL

2. Update a favourite picture of yourself



3. Do you like the picture?
= yes~I look lengzai~and we look formal~wakakak~

4. When was the last time you ate pizza?
= erm..i cant rmb~

5. What was the last song you listened to?
= you found me

6. What are you doing besides this?
= chatting

7. What name do you prefer besides your name?
= kv/xiao lang

8. 5 ppl I tagged

--i.) awei

--ii.) anne

--iii) pei man

--iv) ah phi

--v) mich

9. Who is number 1?
= my hengdai

10. Who is number 3 having relationship with?
= her baby,wakakaka

11. Say something about number 5.
= uncle michie~always bring me makan makan~

12. How about number 4?
= my aylp and roommate

13. Who is number 2?
= cheah yue anne~my ah jie~

p/s: xiao ming mei mei~u'r pic very lengzai~my fav also~~hohohoho~

first post for 2009-emo post XD

What's my new year resolutions?
Basically I don't have one. I don't need one. But actually oh no, I just remember something. I DO have new year resolutions.
I hope I can be more mature.
-in handling stuff, to be more independent. I shall remember I'm not a kid anymore. Grow up!
-emotionally, I hope I can hide it when it is unnecessary to show what I was feeling.

Why can't I just lied or pretended it was nothing? I failed miserably when I was suppose to keep it to myself. Why do I have to be honest with my own feeling when it is unnecessary to deal with anyway,maybe. OK maybe I do have to deal with my own feeling,just there is no need to crap everything out to others.

I'm tired of all these crap sometimes, but I always gotten myself into it.
Maybe I just need someone.
Just forget about it.

And I have to remember this:
自作多情=自作自受

'Jual mahal' is the way? Maybe.

Yea I'm being sarcastic to myself.
But I do hope, 2009 will be a better year. For me, for everyone.
And I do really hope, world peace~

shampoo

我把洗发露当沐浴露用了一个星期。别太惊讶，欲知详情，请看下文。

话说我家浴室有超过10种不同的洗发露跟沐浴露。加起来应该有20多罐装着各种液体的挤压式或倾倒式的罐子。你说，一时糊涂错把洗发露当沐浴露有那么希奇吗？
最搞笑的是，我还跟小明and P.S炫耀说我'沐浴露'的木瓜香味。

I've been using a hair shampoo as body shampoo for almost a week without knowing it.

If you walked into the bathroom of my house,you'll find DOZEN of shampoos. Almost each of my family uses different brand of shampoos. Imagine that there are five person in my house,and each of us use different body shampoo and hair shampoo,so how many bottle of shampoos will there be in the bathroom?
5x2=10

And mind you,actually there are more than 10 bottles of shampoo in my bathroom.

So here's the story.

First day when I came home,I found out that inside my body shampoo bottle was not my body shampoo. It means that the body shampoo had run out and someone refill it with another brand of shampoo which smells like eeak. So what to do? I still have to use body shampoo right? So I tried out few bottles,and decided that the shampoo with papaya smells are the most OK.

Few days ago,when I went out with Xiao Ming and P.S, P.S said something like 'Eh what's that scent? Smell so nice~' once she get into the car. Then I went ss and said 'oh it's my shampoo smells la~nah you smell and see~'. So when my mom bought me my shampoo few days ago,I was still using the papaya smell shampoo.

Then just now my mom asked me: 'Eh you didn't use body shampoo when bathing ah?'
I said:'got ah~'
Mom:'You use which one?Why didn't use the new shampoo I bought for you?'
I said:'I used the papaya one mar~'
Mom:'what papaya one? where got papaya smell one shampoo?'
I ran into the bathroom and show her the bottle.
Mom:'that's hair shampoo lah weh~'
I O.O and checked the shampoo,'for neutral and smoother hair'. =_='''

Gurney day

话说今天有一个人驾着我的老婆跑去了槟城Gurney，逛了8个小时~
见了三个朋友，都很久不见了。大家都还好好的，真好~
8个小时在Gurney，我都干了什么？我走来走去，走遍新开的new wing,又躲在书店偷看‘奸的好人’系列。写那些书的都是厉害的人，叫你怎样看清人事物，却不教你怎样成功的‘骗来’交易，最终的目的当然是要你去听他的讲座，给钱他把他当神捧咯~在看他的书学着要如何看清圈套的当时就已经不知不觉中跌入了一个深不见底的圈套了。这个就是NLP(Neuro-Linguistic Programming)的利害~
今天有看到相机跟眼镜的promotion。相机，还是太贵了。眼镜，我很挑。
结果就是，什么都没有买。
我要去Queensbay阿下次。我要Topshop隔壁那间的衣服。

朋友看我瘦了，叫我快点找个女朋友来照顾我。
能说这种话的朋友真是好朋友~我也想啊，可是没门~
嗯，我比较想要有一个可以亲密无间，了解我而我也了解她，的一个人。
I think what I really need is someone that I can intimate with. Someone that truly understands me as much as I understand her. Someone that loves me as much as I love her.
I want an intimate relationship. Yea, that's what I want.

写下些回忆，在圣诞夜

忽然间一年前的回忆涌上心头。
一些不开心的回忆，可以说是悲伤的。
二零零七年的圣诞节，我赶回kl。
二零零七年的三十号，彻夜未眠的我一大早晃去马六甲，买了一大堆的东西拜托给她的室友，见了她三分钟，然后一个人躲在mmu楼下的网咖消磨时间，刚巧兄弟在线，兄弟觉得我很可怜。我也觉得我很可怜。我所谓的努力挽回。
二零零七年的最后一天，bbq吧，在pj现在的家（那时还没搬入），很想醉酒，凌晨四点才收到的信息，幻想着她与男人搂搂抱抱。
二零零八年一月三日，三个月后的同一天，和平分手。兄弟买了McNugget赶来看我。
那些日子期间我也不懂怎么过的，浑浑噩噩，好像都没吃东西。
二零零八年的平安夜，在家，很平静，感觉很宁静。却因为去年的回忆而失眠。
感情路似乎一直很悲伤，一直在犯傻，也许现在也是？
提醒自己，我是单身。单身有的是自由。
一年了又。

Magazine

I can't believe I buy a magazine (I haven't pay the money back to birdleg). A teenage magazine. A magazine that full of Taiwanese and Korean idols. Male idols like 阮经天 and 飞轮海. You don't believe it? Me too. It's all because of JING YE! And who's 京爷? Refer back to this. Yea, she managed to squeezed into 3rd placing in that magazine's sort of most popular idols in Taiwan and became the cover of the magazine. The magazine's targeted readers I assumed to be young teenage girls. And young teenage girls are crazy over those pretty boys like 郑元畅 and 贺军翔. So you can assume that Taiwan girls are crazy over Jing Ye as they crazy over those pretty boys. Ok this is not the point. The point is, this is the first time I buy a magazine. And I just feel.......weird when I open the magazine that fulled of guys-acting-cute photos and a big flipped poster of those pretty boys fall out from it. It's just so w.e.i.r.d. Probably 京爷 is the most normal figure in that magazine for me~

I ate two days' meal in one day. So now I'm having stomach cramp.
Serves me right.

家

打开抽屉，你会找到意想不到的东西。我的抽屉，我宝贵的记忆。里面所收藏的东西，连我自己现在看到了都会吓一跳，竟然还会留着，可是每一份物品都带着某些回忆，提醒着自己的过去。重要或不重要的，每份物品都有特别的意义。或许三、四十年后再看回这些物品，仍然还能够记得它们的历史，勾起小时候的回忆。

家，太舒服了，会让我太过于慵懒，太过于放纵自己。在这里我会没有奋斗的决心，吃好穿好睡好，没有烦恼得不懂要做什么好。比起两个哥哥，我应该是比较有野心，也能够说我比较幸运，因为我是最小的，所以也能够任性。我有梦想，我有理想，而任性让我踏上了理想之道。 我只能说，我是幸福幸运的，感恩~

家里的一切也都还是没有变，家外的那颗棉花树又要结果了。农历新年期间棉花季节如同下雪，红色的鞭炮碎与雪白的棉花，会是一幅美丽的情景。

well,you know

You know,
you can make a girl went to bed earlier by telling her that her eyes bags are really obvious,
and makes her looked so 'chan' and not pretty.

And you know,
I can really get aggressive when I'm hungry,
especially dinner time.
I'll lost my patience and temper,
and throw tantrum like a three year old kid that demands to be fed.

And you know,
sometimes you and I are just like kids,
need a lot of attention and caring,
to be loved and pampered,
by people that are significant to us.

词句重组

一时的兴奋换来阵阵的郁闷，
亏大了。

拍拖 纳闷 跟 你 我 她

喜欢的 戏 歌 沐浴露 同样的 听看用
已足矣 你 会让我 是否 更了解 ？

我已变得不敢在这里坦白
顺其自然

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Suddenly I just realize,
I was expecting too much from this,
without myself knowing.

Another dark secrets revealed within.

Maybe things will change after this week.

有一点

有一点介意，
有一点难受，
有一点胡思乱想，
有一点不开心，
却有一点满足，
还有一点迟钝。

I know how I feel, only through my reactions.

I have dark secrets now.
That's one of the reaction.

NO kv NO

每当Milky咬人的时候，要大声喊‘NO’，然后打它屁股。
这个是Skinner's Operant Condition的'Punishment'-decreasing a behavior by administering an aversive stimulus following a behavior。

Whenever Milky is biting people,I have to shout 'NO' and spank her little ass.
This is Punishment of Skinner's Operant Conditioning=decreasing a behavior by administering an aversive stimulus following a behavior.


我跟我自己说‘不可以’,好像没有什么效，怎么办？
声明：我不要被打屁股。
我知道不可以的...
When I tell myself 'No', it doesn't seems to be working. How har?
And I don't want to be spanked.
I know I must not...