Thursday, October 30, 2008

shit happens

Shit happens all the time and how you deal with it?
Use toilet paper or newspaper?
WRONG ANSWER!
The right answer is, not to emphasize on the
shit. Life still goes on and it would be better if you just concentrate on what makes you happy today rather than what shits happen on you.
Meaningful right? I learned that from Peer Support Group's Search-in Camp. It was fun and educational camp, I did some very embarrassing stuffs that you don't want to know =.-''

Sometimes feel so tired of covering up stories and hiding myself, although I don't lie when people actually come and ask me the question,but I choose not to be high-profile or show-off of myself.
Okay la okay la,I'm gay. So what? XD
Been having some thoughts about the issue again lately, which related to what I wanna become in future. I want to help people like us,because we are helpless at most time.
So next time when I put 'great, I'm teaching someone that I like how to reject me' on my msn personal message,don't ask me which guy. It won't be a guy. I don't like people linking me up with a guy. It sounds gay to me although I'm not a hard butch.

To ignore,or not to be ignored? That's the question.
Better if I just ignore you than you ignore me? Herm... I wish I could.
You're my current shitty shit and internal conflict. I know the circumstances,yet I couldn't hold myself. I'm no coward,you have no idea how much courage it took for me to make that request. I thought it's better off that way but I'd neglected your feeling. It was selfish for me to make that request, but it's not cowardice.
Now,I think I shall just go with the flow.

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

sleepy day and boring night

I'm too lazy and sleepy to do anything,so instead of writing the career guidance's journal,I'm doing this tag by Uncle Michie. See how bored I am now.

1. What’s your ambition?
To earn money while doing the things i like~

2. Who is more important to you? Friends or boy/girlfriend?
both

3. How often do you think of committing suicide?
once before but never again

4. Do you think you have enough confidence?
nope,i'm low profiler

5. How many babies you want?
i wan puppies

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
not after every rain.but yeah,that's a fact what.

7. What is your goal for this year?
i don't have 1,too late to have one now~

8. Do you believe in eternity love?
yeah,i love my dogs

9. Do you enjoy traveling? *yes i know this quest is nothing got to do with Love*
yeah,but i dun like being in transportation,especial public transport.

10.What feeling do you love most?
able to lay down on my bed after a long tiring day

11. What is your bad habit?
lazy-ness,XD

12. Is there anything you wanna tell the ppl who hates you?
emmm,nope,i dun mind

13. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
yeah,if they really take me as their friend.

14. What does flying means to you?
means up up high in the sky~

15. What do you crave for the most currently?
my bed

16. Who do you think is hotter, Chace Crawford or Kevin Peaker?
me hotter,XD

17. Describe the person who tagged you in 7 words.
kacau-able,tease-able,uncle-ish,truly penengese!

18.What have you done to yourself make yourself happy?
play with milky

9. What will u become in another 10 years to come?
A MIGHTY CRAZY PSYCHOLOGIST,WAKAKAKA. Kidding~counselor maybe?or working in company,herm...

20. What is ur lucky number?
3?


I'm not tagging anyone~

Thursday, October 23, 2008

random pics

Jeng jeng jeng jeng~Here comes the Milky~

Look at her cute innocent puppy eyes~so adorable and so 'guai'~

This photo was taken on the day I brought her home.Was in Y.Hui's car on the way back to my place. She fallen asleep with her head rested on my palm~

This is a suger glider,not mine,but it's so cute!but Y.Hui called it 'monster' =.-''

What can you do with a jacket during lectures?

Use it to keep warmth+cover your face and you can sleep whenever you can as long as you don't snores XD

Hoodies are cooler because it covers your whole face and you can try to scare people~

Writing board of chair spoiled and I decided to do some good by alerting people about it:

(The signed n smiley was not from me!)

Anizo 11th series

Yes yes it's Anizo again,the latest 11th series,but I missed the 10th series...>,< Anyone have 10th series and wanna give me?XD~ 11th series is Olympic series. Again,I spent RM8 on two Anizos,and here's what I got.

Front view:The Silver Medalist,see the word '银'?

Back view:Second placing

Front view:The 'on-the-hoping-list'.There's Japanese word that I'm lazy to translate and there's '期待' means 'hoping'

Back view:Whole bunch of Japanese word that I don't understand

This Anizo was given by my housemate after I showoff my Anizo series in their room last night. It was the Anizo that makes me crazy about them. The earlier series which I forgotten first or second series.

'胃弱',means weak stomach or gastric,which reminds me of Y.Hui when I first saw it.

Back view:shape of stomach at the back

p/s:Yee Tong!I want your 10th series!!

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Milky

Those who know me well will know that I love dogs. I'm a dog person. And now,I have TWO pet dogs!! My good old Mimi of course is still in my hometown,with my mom,and now I have MILKY here with me in PJ~

Few weeks ago,Y.Hui called me and asked me what will SPCA do to unwanted puppies. There were four puppies at the back door of her place. So she asked me what to do with the puppies. Chances for puppies to survive by their own in KL is very low,and of course I would wanted to keep all of them,only if i could. So,last friday,The Gang came and fetched me and bought everything for the pup before we went to Y.Hui's place to see which puppy that I wanted to take in. Conditions of the pups were not so well.Ticks,skin problems and smelly. But overall they're all healthy pups. OK so four pups,it's hard for me to choose,one black with brown marks,one black with white marks,one brownish brown,one yellowish light brown. Then two Indian teenagers showed up,they said the pups were belongs to them,their grandpa thrown the pups here because he hates dogs,now they're coming to take the pups back and swear that they'll kill their grandpa if he ever touches their dogs again -.='' Since we've bought everything needed for my pup,so I still decided to take the yellowish light brown pup,because she's the skinniest,smallest and worst condition among all. And her cute pupppy eyes just caught my attention.

And so,she's my Milky now~Why milky?because her ligtht brown whith a little bit white area makes her look like 'milk tea',also remind me of brilliant HL.

She's my responsibility and I'm all she got. She will be a good companion. It seemed not to be a bright choice to keep her because when holiday I'll back my hometown. But nevermind,there's always a way.

Thanks to Y.Hui and WanChun for their sponsers of dog shampoo and dog chain. Photos of Milky will be up soon~Just too lazy to transfer pictures from my hp now~Whisky whisky~Ah~I'll name my next dog Whisky.

It would be your fault if I fall for you,again.

Saturday, October 18, 2008

B.Psych shirt!

With all due respect, I love B.Psych(Bachelor of Psychology Department,pronounce as B-Site), I really do. B.Psych makes me feel liked I'm home,it's so comfortable you see. I even feel sad when I knowed that our department was moving from Block E to Wisma Help. Once Block E belongs to psychology people,now it's not anymore and we have to scatter all over the place,lectures in Block E and tutorials in Wisma Help, how inconvenient! And I still love my B.Psych, we have the best lecturers and the cutest Dean ever. We have friendliest office administers and open style office. Yes we can just open the office door and kacau our lecturers whenever we want. But, I JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY WE DON'T HAVE ENOUGH S SIZE DEPARTMENT SHIRT!!!!

Department shirt was supposingly to be given to us FREE so that we can help to promote our department whenever we wear it out. I don't mind being a advertising tool, I'll proud to be one actually,for our B.Psych,BUT HOW AM I GOING TO WEAR AN OVERSIZED DEPARTMENT SHIRT OUT AND STILL FEEL PROUD OF MY OWN DEPARTMENT AT THE SAME TIME?IT'S EMBARRASSING! SIA-SUI!

Ok I'm shouting I know. Why am I so pissed? It's because tomorrow will be HELP's annual sports carnival,and we must wear our department shirts. I have the shirt, it's L-SIZE! And you know lah,I badan kecik mar,L-size is super large for me. So, even I already had the department shirt long ago but I never wear them. The shirt was supposed to make us feel proud when we wear them mar,not make us feel like an idiot that wearing oversized t-shirt. And it's obvious that we have more girls in our department,why la ordered so few S size? I just don't understand. My friend actually went and pressed them to give her a S size shirt,and they did =.='''.....Apala ni,bully us yang diam diam mia lah,then tunduk kepada yang assertive mia lah,so unfair~ You see la last year I played for HMC and they gave me another free department shirt again,I was so shocked and I asked the admin guy do I have to give it back and he said don't need it's for you. You see how generous?

Please la B.Psych big people,don't be so kiam siap(kedekut) lah,give us the size that we want,we happy,the department also happy mar~

I hate it when I have to wear overly large sized shirt to play volleyball,especially competition >,<''
So not yeng!

Monday, October 13, 2008

Promoting

The topic started from I said I cut hair,and few people from my class said I looked '帅' with new haircut. Then somehow HAIR related HL to CHRIS LEE!


Ok doesn't look much alike in those pics,but actually is much more alike when you see the MILK in person.
If you notice the similar characteristic:
-big head,lion hair,height,long thin hands and legs,small eyes lah~~~
HL=CHRIS LEE~wakakaka~
When I first met this HL,I can't help myself from smiling and shouting out 'LEE YU CHUN~'

OK,this entry is purely for entertainment.
And yes,few people said I 'lengzai' today,because of my new short hair.
I LIKE MY NEW SHORT HAIR~~~

p/s:
Chris Lee's new style:

I don't know what's her personal fashion stylist thinking. They're trying to make her look like a 'pondan' and '人妖' while they think she looks pretty in those dresses.
Poor Chris Lee~
HL quote this from somewhere:
女人是水做的,男人是泥做的,而李宇春,是水泥做的~
Perfect description and combination~

彩虹

放学后下着细雨,看着背景离去。
我喜欢太阳雨,
可是在驾着坐骑时下的太阳雨却不是很美很享受的一件事。
毛毛雨时的两个大彩虹,
令我想起了周杰伦的愿望。
我很乖,
隔着距离,
还能嗅到芒果香,
危险的象征。
今天有人叫我老大,
因为我比他帅,WAHAHAHA~

I got free Starbucks drink,Chocolate Cream Chips which priced RM14.20~
As PAYMENT for my countless-sleepless-counseling session-night la har~wakakaka~

Saturday, October 11, 2008

fresh voice

From time to time,I will 'tanam' myself in YouTube and search for new voice. And today,these are what I found:

Virginie from France. She looks a bit like Max from TLW don't ya think so? BUT here's Virginie with long hair, and her own song 'Angel':

Beautiful and amazing voice she had.

And here's a cute punk girl from Singapore--talktothewalls. Cool name eh?haha~


And this is Alex Parks. Not a YouTube singer,but I still want to introduce her here XD

I just love her emo voice~

Friday, October 10, 2008

bullet and pistol

Haven't pull out the pistol but already executed. The worst part is, I didn't even plan to pull out the pistol =.-''
I'm still standing because I'm bullet-proofed now.
How smart-ass I am,knew the ending before it starts.

Listening to the same old sad song,and laugh on the same sampat person that caused us so much pain. How small is this world? Seems like there's linkage between everyone.
时过境迁,人事已非。
However,glad that someone's 'dream finally came true'. XD I'm happy for them~

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

extreme

I guess I'm such one extreme person.When I'm sleepy,either I'll become hyper,or I'll be emo.
So,the equations are:
sleepy kv=hyper kv @ emo kv

It gives my heart a funny feeling,whenever I see those pictures.
I'm happy for her,I guess.Yet,I feel sorry for myself,I'm not good enough.
It battered my self-esteem.It really did.It's not the first time thou.

I'm just craving for someone to be with me,that's all,I guess.
And I feel nothing I can do to get it.

Sunday, October 5, 2008

To night

最近很容易说错话,阿姐说我很容易烦躁,ok现在我发现到了,还真的是......
我不想的啊~~~怎么就这样呢?也好像最近才会这样.......
词不达意,容易让人产生误会,得罪人,不是好事咧~
好,我会注意用词,少说话以免说错话。

Something is bothering me lately, I don't know what is that. Ah jie said I'm easy to get irritated recently,i guess she's right,I don't know what's the heck wrong with me -.='''

Being too free makes people lazy~
I need motivation and inspiration,again.

I'm easily attract to someone.

Sorry that I was not being able to help you clear up your mind,today.

Saturday, September 27, 2008

Raining day

Imagine this,people:
Scene 1:
You're driving a car,waiting for traffic light to turn green,it was a raining day. Not to say jam, but the queue was long. Suddenly,there's a sound at the left,and you find you left side mirror was damaged,and the motorcyclist that scratched your mirror fall down at the roadside,not serious injured,but was soaked wet in the rain without raincoat,what would you do?

Scene 2:
You're riding a motor half way to home when(I know many of you don't even 'tumpang' a motor before,just imagine you're cycling lah) it started to rain heavily and you without your raincoat. Like usual,you drive at the roadside,try to bypass the cars,and suddenly you scratch a car's side mirror,you lost balance and fell down at the roadside. The car owner scrolls down the window and ask you to pay him for the damage on the car,without asking are you ok or not. What would you do?

It just happened to me 30 minutes ago. Sadly,I'm the motorcyclist,and I lost RM30 to that Chinese taxi driver.

No worries,just a little scratches on my left knee when I fall down,but overwhelmed by emotions.

The Chinese taxi uncle said to me his car side mirror was broken and I have to pay him because the car belongs to company. I asked him how much,he said RM30. The rain was heavy and didn't want to argue,and much because I was at guilt,so I gave him the money exactly although I did think of lying him that I only have rm20 in my wallet. The side mirror was not fully broken actually,and afterward only I realized it doesn't cost so much to repair that side mirror right?
The first thought that I had when I was on my motor again was,'damn ''sui'' lah today'. Then I got so angry thinking back what just happened.

Why was I so angry?
First,the Chinese taxi driver didn't even ask am I ok,and he took so much of my MONEY!I was damn disappointed. When I tried to get up my legs was abit stucked by my motor and nobody helped me. How naive was I,hoping someone to get off from their car and help me.

Second,the taxi driver doesn't even ask me am I ok!I was like what kind of people is this!What's wrong with this people!Malaysian lah!Chinese lah!Uncle lah!Taxi driver lah! People lost their ability to sympathize when they get older?

And Third,I was angry at myself. Always allow people people to take advantage of me when I was vulnerable,unable to be assertive,easily lost my head to think when something happens on me. Also of my own carelessness lah,I was not focused enough. I was thinking what to eat,when to fill in petrol and busy avoiding the roadside lubang until I didn't paid attention to the space between me and the cars on my right.

Then I remembered my previous post,about my motor broke down on the highway. Every event that occurred must meant something. And so,I cool down and analyzed my feelings.If I'm the car driver,I don't know how will I react also.
For this incident,I was lucky that it was not a serious accident.
I'm lucky that I just had a little scratch on my knee without other injuries.
I'm lucky I'm still alive.
I'm lucky that I'm feeling hungry now. XD


p/s:Today will be a great day without the incident.Anway,the PSG(Peer Support Group)'s PET(Peer Empowerment Training) was great today.We had fun and we learned stuff.
pp/s:KL road sucks!!I can't understand why are there so many drain cover's hole ON the roads!!Car drivers might not realize,but it's very irritating and dangerous for motorcyclists.

Friday, September 26, 2008

evil me

世人皆为情事烦,唯我最逍遥~
(后狂笑iconx1000)

对这个世界如果你有太多的抱怨
跌倒了就不敢继续往前走
为什麽人要这麽的脆弱 堕落
请你打开电视看看
多少人为生命在努力勇敢的走下去
我们是不是该知足
珍惜一切 就算没有拥有

看看周杰轮新歌<稻香>的歌词,多有醒世意境啊~
That's part of the lyric of Jay Chou's new song. How meaningful is that~That is only if you can understand Chinese words lah,HAHAHAHA~

I realized that I like to bully those people that I sayang.
打是疼,骂是爱,欺负是疼爱,
当你觉得被我气得上气不接下气,很委屈的时候,请不要生气,
因为,
只有够熟嘛,才有机会让我欺负~嘿嘿嘿~
So,don't be angry when you think that I'm evil,
it just one of my own way of showing you that you're close with me ^^

些些的心疼,for those I cared.

Friday, September 19, 2008

unhappy feeling

It doesn't feels good,when feeling starting to grow,and someone or reality took 'it' away from you. You know exactly when the feeling grows. You'll imagine living with 'it',having future with 'it',how happy it will be for both of you to be together... Sigh...

I'm tend to be a person that develop feelings toward 'something' easily.
I'm gonna miss you.



p/s:'It' and 'something' from this articles doesn't specifically refers to a thing,a feeling,a human or an animal. 'It' can be anything!

Recommendation

今天,我要推荐两样东西。第一样:
Today,I want to recommend two things.First:
《恋上我的情敌
It's a Chinese online novel,those who can't understand Chinese,don't bother to click XD But I'll do something good--TRANSLATE THE MORAL OF THE STORY~WAHAHAHHAH~It's an unfinished story,due to some circumstances,the author didn't have the chance to finish it. The moral of the story is:'live everyday like there's no other day,cherish whatever you have in hand,tell out whatever you have in mind.'
作者幽默直接豪爽的风格,会让人忍不住哈哈大笑。故事没有很长,也是由其他地方转载的,我懒得找出原帖,所以直接连接这个吧。故事怎样的就不透露了哈,总之就是感慨感叹感恩~

第二样:
Second:

《花吃了那个女孩》
花怎样吃了女孩呢?我不知道,表问我,问编剧或者导演去~
帅女生跟漂亮女生接吻,多么的美妙的美景~
吴恩琪变吴立琪liao,可是还是一样帅气~
'Candy Rain',very much different from the Chinese title,but one thing still the same--weird title.
Nice kissing scene,don't you agree so?XD~
Niki Wu Niki Wu~~
Must watch~~

p/s:I want a nice body shape like Shane >,<

Thursday, September 18, 2008

affinity?

Girls are weird,they want you to be honest with them,then they get all mad up at you for being honest. =_=''


Feeling a little bit despair and ... after watching 'Affinity' the movie.
Sarah Waters is a brilliant author that wrote amazing and breathtaking fictions. She's famous for her Victorian writing style,most of her stories happened during Victorian Era. I first watched 'Fingersmith' the movie,confuse and complicated it might seem,adventurous and exciting at the end. Wish to get the book from Kinokuniya someday~

Sometimes,things are not as bad as you think. You just have to look at it from a different perspective.
When the question 'why it always happen on me?' comes in,I will try to remember that. Now get back to work~

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

US at UM

Yesterday and today,I went to UM hospital to visit my old schoolmate,Hooi. She had ear infection and done a small operation. Nothing big,still able to jump,talk LOUD and laugh like SIAO ZHA BO. This was the first time of our gathering here in KL,after they came over UM to study 2 months ago. In UM hospital,how weird is that?haha~She's leaving the hospital tomorrow anyway.
Loo Sze,Hooi,me. We'd been friends since primary.

She forbidden me to post this photo on web,but who cares right~?kakakaz~The wad that she's staying is very comfortable,almost made me dozed off in the chair beside the bed. And guess what,she's staying for free!No charge on the operation,not even a sen she have to pay for staying in a second class wad! There's even a heater in the bathroom! And the food is good,according to her. It's all because she's a UM student.

Obviously,there's a lot different between a public U and a private U. The culture is different,the environment is different,the students are different,the FEES are DIFFERENT. Went to the UM medic faculty's canteen to eat my 'zap fan' that I da bao. People here isn't just smart,they are GOOD LOOKING as well! Don't have the chance of studying in UM,but pretended to be an UM student and 'curi makan' in UM canteen is quite....er...syok?!HAHAHAHA~

UM hospital is huge,might get lose inside without Loo Sze shows me the way. Even she got lost while trying to bring me way out to the hospital -.-''... And I found the lift button is funny,why? See the photo below:

Four buttons to press?!

Actually there were two lifs there. The left 1 is for the lift at the left,while the right 1 is for the right. But normally all the lift button would be at the same side of the lift and same design right? Cute betul~

Cute kitty

Here it is~Photos of the cute kitten that I'd promised to show in previous entry. Yes I did mentioned about this kitten,in Chinese,hehe~

He looks like a mixed Siamese Cat.Small black ears,white paws,and white lines on his back.Adorable isn't it?

I massaging the kitty~He was so comfortable under my 'skillful' hands until he tried to play with my fingers

Sleepy kitty taking his nap under my housemate's car.

That's his sibling!Dosn't look alike at all.His sibling is more shy and the colour is much different but similar to their father. But their mother is a plain black cat.

I saw this food fighting scene when I came home from dinner one day. The cute kitty was fighter over a big piece of fried chicken part with his sibling. Cuteness disappeared and replaced by predator instinct. Deep tone growl can be heard until I moved my hand toward them and the fight over when his sibling back off. Cute kitty won~

Like I said,I won't keep him as my pet when he is able to grow and live in freedom without worries of food. Every night there will be a kind and generous lady giving out food to stray dogs and cats beside my house. But it won't hurt to give him a name right? What name is suitable for him? Any suggestion?

Saturday, September 6, 2008

random as in random

Life has been too peaceful since I got back kl,that's why I haven't been blogging until now.
日子太平淡,没东西好写,所以blog空空。人家忙到没时间blog,我太闲到不懂blog什么~

Let's see,classes started,five subjects this semester,not much classes,but will have tons of assignments. Thinking of getting a part time job. THINKING as in THINKING. XD
I'm considering of taking minor in Mass Comm,specialize in Marketing Communication.
One of the subject this semester,Career Guidance (don't ask me what is that,it's a subject specially held by my department for psychology students), the lecturer wants us to write journal/blog about the lesson we learn from class weekly as part of the assignment. How cool is that? Blogging as assignment.
And I have communication problem. I don't know how to talk to people,especially strangers. Right,and I'm taking Business and Communication and Introduction to Mass Comm this semester -.-''

最近家里(as in here in PJ)出现了两只小猫,其中一只让我一见钟情,二见欢喜,三见爱不释手。小巧可爱傻乎乎的,眼睛圆溜溜,反应有些迟钝。它的兄弟看到人走靠近就溜走了,它还傻傻的缩在当地,结果就被我灵活的一双手征服了~娃哈哈哈~~ 注:征服as in 被偶按摩得服服帖帖,还有把偶的手当逗猫棒/鸡腿。没有打算强行收养它,还是让它自由成长好。Took few pictures of it,will post it up next time.