The curious case of Benjamin Button

The whole world knows this movie.

If you don't know what is it,go update yourself please.
I prefer this poster over Brand Pitt version. Or old baby version.

It is a meaningful movie. Amazing movie. But probably not a good choice for those who like plain action and adventurous movie that needless to use any conscious thoughts, in another word, their brain.

2 hours and 45 minutes, it's a bit slow, but it's worth the time and definitely the price, to watch it in a cinema. Although you might need to move your ass a little bit here and there to make sure you still can feel them after the movie ends.

What can you learn from this movie? A lot. Imagine you were born old and growing younger each days while people around you getting older.

And you have to ignore your science or biology or medical knowledge when watching this movie. No answers of 'how come' and 'why is he born to be like this' within this movie. I googled and found out that this story was inspired by a short story written in 1921 by F. Scott Fitzgerald. So better enjoy it as a fictional story that teaches you about life.

Here are some quotes from the movie that I can't stop myself from playing in my head:

Mrs. Maple: Benjamin, we're meant to lose the people we love. How else would we know how important they are to us?

Captain Mike: You can be as mad as a mad dog at the way things went. You could swear, curse the fates, but when it comes to the end, you have to let go.

And Mr.Daws that got struck by lightning seven times said that: Blinded in one eye; can't hardly hear. I get twitches and shakes out of nowhere; always losing my line of thought. But you know what? God keeps reminding me I'm lucky to be alive.
(Copy and paste from http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0421715/quotes)

And yea, that's life.

milk tea

Human creates problem for themselves, agree?
Actually everything is just in your head. You play that little imaginative drama inside your mind while the Earth is still rotating, the sun is still shining, you are still breathing, and everything is actually,still the same.
Take that imaginative part away. Human is not human, there won't be electric,lamp,handphone,whatever electronic gadget. There will also no anorexia,depression,schizophrenia,whatever mental disorder.
I'm a little bit headache.
Two cups of milk tea enough to make me palpitation and stay awake throughout the night.
I'm a little bit afraid when you said 'you will try'....hmm....if you know why.
See, I'm creating problem for myself.
A hole to jump. Or not.

很长也很杂

话说新年期间我把Milky寄养在一家宠物酒店，总共花了我三百块。=.='' 真是要命，一只菜狗居然花得比一只迷你宾犬多，真是一只富贵菜狗。
话说我初六就跑回来了，为了Milky，阿不然可以初八才回来的。那天一个人背着背包和laptop，带着一条狗，从那个宠物酒店走到Kelana Jaya LRT，很有流浪的感觉。一人一狗又饿又渴，找不到人tumpang,真的有点可怜兮兮的感觉。最后还是要谢谢小猪特地看完戏后赶来，救命之恩哟~不然就不懂怎么才能回到家了。
本来有拍了一些流浪之照，结果还没upload上来电话就不见了。不用紧，用新电话补回新照片。
这个是可怜兮兮之一。

再话说上上个星期六很开心，因为很热闹的聚在一起做讨论，然后很忙很开心的一起吃晚餐，跟不同的朋友。结果隔天去买鸡饭，鸡饭antie看到我很开心，结果发现电话不见了。这是可怜兮兮二。
结果很忙的在外头一整天，然后买了这个很可爱的moo moo牛奶水瓶。

然后隔天买了一个新电话，同样的号码，一天搞定。

话说电话不见那天，某人就买了这个白色的Tuzki手机吊饰想要替我的电话装饰一下，真是刚巧得很吓人。
有失有得，哭笑不得~

我的行为举止总是出卖了我。
在我还懵懵懂懂当中时，潜意识里我的举动已经把信息传达了出去。
结果我自己都还不懂发生什么事，别人早就准备好了功夫应付我。
其实我并没有在计划什么，也没有想过要怎样，只是不知不觉地这样罢了。

今天又在新扬外荨的部落格晃，那里总是充满着阳光，文字句子间充满了温暖。在那里会看到爱与希望，平凡与满足。人生所求不过如此，一个爱我及我爱的人，有着知己，有着家人的包容与体谅。简简单单却幸福快乐。我所向往的生活。
爱情需要经过时间的考验，才能印证是爱情。
看着如此如此的爱情，我似乎不懂什么是爱情，是因为没有经历过？还是忘记爱是什么样子？还是已经不敢再狂妄的去爱了？

其实真的不知道要什么。只是随着感觉走，因为想这样而这样。似乎有些小孩子般的任性，不过不是没有理智的不知道在做什么。知道自己在做什么，可能只是不想再去顾虑些什么，因为并没有在期待如扬扬般的结果。在享受过程？在顺其自然？潜意识里的期待？
有点太过坦白了，如果看得懂的话。看得懂的话，也请假装不懂~

我喜欢小外~
‘爱里有什么？爱里有孩子般的任性’ （小外，2009）。

这个标题叫做我挺你

有个我很疼爱的朋友被人家摆上台，我很不爽。
事情的来龙去脉我听了也很气，真的是冤枉得很冤枉。
就觉得那个女生不简单，你看，果然被利用了。
自家两个人的事，何必搞得那么大件事？
有些圈内人的生活就是乱；
有些想低调过生活的人却总是很无辜的被牵涉。
清者自清，愚者自扰，
你是怎样的人大家都很清楚，
我挺你。
是是非非快点远离你~

Lost and gain

I lost my k550i today. Don't ask me why. I'll never ever wear short pants when riding motor out. Never ever! First time lost such valuable possession.

Ok look at the bright side, I'm getting a new phone. Not sure which model yet,probably k770i,got a lot positive comment bout this phone. But I'll miss my k550i for sure, especially it's camera,that is only when it was functioning well.

Believe it or not,the first thing that came into my mind when I finally realize that my hand phone was gone was,'shit,all the messages inside...'
Last night I was still 'revising' those messages. I don't know why I kept all of it. I never kept any messages since I broke up with my ex. It was always 'delete all', but it became 'select some' and 'delete' since the sms that said 'don't know why suddenly read your blog hope you are fine and gampate'. And all those mms pictures,I saved it in my phone memory. I never plan to tell or show anyone about this,I would just kept it to myself. Since it's all gone now,so.... It's a darn thing that can't transfer sms messages to computer. Those sms messages mean a lot to me.

Funny thing,I lost a hand phone,but someone got me a handphone accessory today. I never expected that :) Talking about lost and gain. And I bought myself a cute moo moo water bottle from "BRO'S". I know someone will craving for it too XD~ will take picture and upload ONCE I got my new phone.

And yes,I lost phone,meaing I lost everyone's contact number. I'll be using the same number though. Hope can settle everything tomorrow. Feel like missing something without a hand phone. Leave your hp.no to me~or sms and tell me your name the day after tomorrow~~

I'm a garbage bin

我说我是垃圾桶，
竟然有人觉得我很可怜？ ==''
我相信幽默风趣，我还是有的，
只是比较另类一些，
冷了一些。

很多时候，我们发脾气胡闹得像个小孩，
只因为想要得到关注。
这个与生俱来的本能在婴儿时期已经展现无疑。
小baby呱呱哭，妈妈就会喂奶换尿布。
小baby舒服了，自然就乖乖静静了。
当然，这个与生俱来的本能，会随着年龄的增长，与社会的教育，而慢慢隐藏起来。
是隐藏，而不是消磨不见。
所以当我们不高兴或生气时，这与生俱来的本能就会再次发挥作用。
不过，会不会得到像小baby时的那种效果，又另当别论了。
很多时候，人家只会当你是傻瓜，徒劳无功。
还会被人家说你幼稚，发什么小孩子脾气，的反效果。

Emotions of the night

How hard it is to break a heart that has already broken?
(arrow downward)
Girls can be really cruel sometimes
(arrow downward)
Maybe it's because someone has been crueler to her before
(arrow downward)
I shall be free again
(arrow downward)
Wary and teary,but burden is gone
(arrow downward)
Continue waiting for The One
(the end)

Is this a happy ending? Sad ending? No ending. Stories continue anyway. It will be a memory that I'll never forget. And she will be a friend that I hold deary no matter what. And nothing more can be said.

laugh for the day

I found an amusing blog by lesbian about lesbian-friendly stuffs.
Here's one of it:

Why Twilight is a lesbian film?

Hahaha~of course Twilight is not a real lesbian film. In fact,there was non lesbian scene in the movie.
Click the link,and see why is the film sounds gay to our blogger here. And mind you,a lot of drama at the 'comment' corner of the page.
I would like to add one more reason why Twilight is a lesbian film:
No guy or male can say something like "You're like a drug to me. Like my own personal brand of heroine." or "you are my life now". No normal straight guys are creative or romantic enough to say those words. Or,they don't appreciate their girls enough to say those words willingly. XD~

骂自己

明明很脆弱却还要假装承受得了。
摔破了就是活该，记得不要怪别人。
就是要把自己搞得xxxx才清醒。
不懂这次又搞什么，犯傻了又。
固执是不是好事？也不知道在执著什么，跟自己拗身处幻境也不是坏事。
头疼，念经去。

写字的情感来源好像都是来自于悲伤。

虚实

感觉看不到摸不着，如果知道是真是假？感觉可以是假，比如你自做多情，以为人家对你也有感觉。其实只是幻觉来的jeh。感觉当然也有真，比如你被烧水烫到，感觉会痛因为神经受到刺激所以痛。前者好像也会痛？不过好像不关神经的事，所以不知道是physical真的痛，还是你自己要去感觉那个emotional的痛。
有时犹如身处梦境，时实时虚。就像现在，感觉好像舌头麻掉，也不知道是真的麻还是假的麻。

你会不敢相信我会念经。《般若菠罗密多心经》......的前半段。你会不敢相信念经能让我心平静不少。
不相信？叫我念给你听。

觀自在菩薩
行深般若波羅密多時
照見五蘊皆空
度一切苦厄舍利子
色不異空 空不異色
色即是空 空即是色
受想行識
亦復如是舍利子
是諸法空相
不生不滅 不垢不淨
不增不減 是故空中無色
無受想行識 無眼耳鼻舌身意 無色聲香味觸法
無眼界 乃至無意識界
無無明 亦無無明盡 乃至無 老死
亦無老死盡
無苦集滅道
無智亦無得
以無所得故
菩提薩埵
依般若波羅密多故
心無罣礙 無罣礙故 無有恐怖
遠離顛倒夢想
究竟涅槃 三世諸佛
依般若波羅密多故
得阿耨多羅三藐三菩提
故知般若波羅密多
是大神咒 是大明咒
是無上咒 是無等等咒
能除一切苦 真實不虛
故說般若波羅密多咒
即說咒曰
揭諦揭諦 波羅揭諦
波羅僧揭諦 菩提薩婆訶

当然不是我自己打的，因为很多字，拷贝来的。不过可以念给你晕，现在我自己先晕去，因为头晕。

Enough.Enough now

She's married to his best friend. He pretended to be unfriendly to her all the time,but secretly falls in love with her.
(Scene from 'Love Actually')

妈妈的房间

我是在妈妈的房间长大的。爸妈的主人房，就是我的房间，直到小学五年级。

爸妈的床很大。
我的木板床在妈妈的隔壁，小时候都是让妈妈拍着我的背睡着的。

爸妈的床很好跳。
结果弹簧给我跳坏了，凹了一个洞。爸妈睡了多少年的坏床。

爸妈的房间很好玩。
无聊的时候我就把衣橱、书桌里面所有的抽屉打开，把所有东西拿出来把玩，然后又小心翼翼地把所有东西放回原位。好像都没被发现也~

房间里的桌子很古董。
以前桌子上有个旧电话，用转号码的，很好玩。小时候用这个电话第一次留信息给爸爸的叫呼机，很紧张，叫爸爸早点回家。

桌子的抽屉里还堆满了我早已忘记的卡片。
我自做给妈妈的卡片。母亲节卡片，和偶尔无聊画画的卡片。
不过是自己在图画纸上涂涂写写，然后折成小小张。
有一次妈妈说：‘你以前母亲节都有做卡给妈妈，现在没有啦~’。
很久没有写‘妈妈，我爱你’了。

好像不懂从哪里听说，
女儿都是比较心疼妈妈的，
嗯。
爸爸很欠打。
哦好，不能打。
欠骂。
都几岁人了，还不会乖乖早点回家陪老婆。
不会疼老婆的男人，
还好这个没有被遗传到~

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不懂是你影响了我还是我影响了你，
竟然爱上了那些主题曲。

1st tag in 2009

Tagged by P.S~
wahahah and let me actually found out that she changed d tag list,wahahaha~
but I'll still do it~

1. Do you think you are hot?
= I'm COOL

2. Update a favourite picture of yourself



3. Do you like the picture?
= yes~I look lengzai~and we look formal~wakakak~

4. When was the last time you ate pizza?
= erm..i cant rmb~

5. What was the last song you listened to?
= you found me

6. What are you doing besides this?
= chatting

7. What name do you prefer besides your name?
= kv/xiao lang

8. 5 ppl I tagged

--i.) awei

--ii.) anne

--iii) pei man

--iv) ah phi

--v) mich

9. Who is number 1?
= my hengdai

10. Who is number 3 having relationship with?
= her baby,wakakaka

11. Say something about number 5.
= uncle michie~always bring me makan makan~

12. How about number 4?
= my aylp and roommate

13. Who is number 2?
= cheah yue anne~my ah jie~

p/s: xiao ming mei mei~u'r pic very lengzai~my fav also~~hohohoho~

first post for 2009-emo post XD

What's my new year resolutions?
Basically I don't have one. I don't need one. But actually oh no, I just remember something. I DO have new year resolutions.
I hope I can be more mature.
-in handling stuff, to be more independent. I shall remember I'm not a kid anymore. Grow up!
-emotionally, I hope I can hide it when it is unnecessary to show what I was feeling.

Why can't I just lied or pretended it was nothing? I failed miserably when I was suppose to keep it to myself. Why do I have to be honest with my own feeling when it is unnecessary to deal with anyway,maybe. OK maybe I do have to deal with my own feeling,just there is no need to crap everything out to others.

I'm tired of all these crap sometimes, but I always gotten myself into it.
Maybe I just need someone.
Just forget about it.

And I have to remember this:
自作多情=自作自受

'Jual mahal' is the way? Maybe.

Yea I'm being sarcastic to myself.
But I do hope, 2009 will be a better year. For me, for everyone.
And I do really hope, world peace~

shampoo

我把洗发露当沐浴露用了一个星期。别太惊讶，欲知详情，请看下文。

话说我家浴室有超过10种不同的洗发露跟沐浴露。加起来应该有20多罐装着各种液体的挤压式或倾倒式的罐子。你说，一时糊涂错把洗发露当沐浴露有那么希奇吗？
最搞笑的是，我还跟小明and P.S炫耀说我'沐浴露'的木瓜香味。

I've been using a hair shampoo as body shampoo for almost a week without knowing it.

If you walked into the bathroom of my house,you'll find DOZEN of shampoos. Almost each of my family uses different brand of shampoos. Imagine that there are five person in my house,and each of us use different body shampoo and hair shampoo,so how many bottle of shampoos will there be in the bathroom?
5x2=10

And mind you,actually there are more than 10 bottles of shampoo in my bathroom.

So here's the story.

First day when I came home,I found out that inside my body shampoo bottle was not my body shampoo. It means that the body shampoo had run out and someone refill it with another brand of shampoo which smells like eeak. So what to do? I still have to use body shampoo right? So I tried out few bottles,and decided that the shampoo with papaya smells are the most OK.

Few days ago,when I went out with Xiao Ming and P.S, P.S said something like 'Eh what's that scent? Smell so nice~' once she get into the car. Then I went ss and said 'oh it's my shampoo smells la~nah you smell and see~'. So when my mom bought me my shampoo few days ago,I was still using the papaya smell shampoo.

Then just now my mom asked me: 'Eh you didn't use body shampoo when bathing ah?'
I said:'got ah~'
Mom:'You use which one?Why didn't use the new shampoo I bought for you?'
I said:'I used the papaya one mar~'
Mom:'what papaya one? where got papaya smell one shampoo?'
I ran into the bathroom and show her the bottle.
Mom:'that's hair shampoo lah weh~'
I O.O and checked the shampoo,'for neutral and smoother hair'. =_='''

Gurney day

话说今天有一个人驾着我的老婆跑去了槟城Gurney，逛了8个小时~
见了三个朋友，都很久不见了。大家都还好好的，真好~
8个小时在Gurney，我都干了什么？我走来走去，走遍新开的new wing,又躲在书店偷看‘奸的好人’系列。写那些书的都是厉害的人，叫你怎样看清人事物，却不教你怎样成功的‘骗来’交易，最终的目的当然是要你去听他的讲座，给钱他把他当神捧咯~在看他的书学着要如何看清圈套的当时就已经不知不觉中跌入了一个深不见底的圈套了。这个就是NLP(Neuro-Linguistic Programming)的利害~
今天有看到相机跟眼镜的promotion。相机，还是太贵了。眼镜，我很挑。
结果就是，什么都没有买。
我要去Queensbay阿下次。我要Topshop隔壁那间的衣服。

朋友看我瘦了，叫我快点找个女朋友来照顾我。
能说这种话的朋友真是好朋友~我也想啊，可是没门~
嗯，我比较想要有一个可以亲密无间，了解我而我也了解她，的一个人。
I think what I really need is someone that I can intimate with. Someone that truly understands me as much as I understand her. Someone that loves me as much as I love her.
I want an intimate relationship. Yea, that's what I want.

写下些回忆，在圣诞夜

忽然间一年前的回忆涌上心头。
一些不开心的回忆，可以说是悲伤的。
二零零七年的圣诞节，我赶回kl。
二零零七年的三十号，彻夜未眠的我一大早晃去马六甲，买了一大堆的东西拜托给她的室友，见了她三分钟，然后一个人躲在mmu楼下的网咖消磨时间，刚巧兄弟在线，兄弟觉得我很可怜。我也觉得我很可怜。我所谓的努力挽回。
二零零七年的最后一天，bbq吧，在pj现在的家（那时还没搬入），很想醉酒，凌晨四点才收到的信息，幻想着她与男人搂搂抱抱。
二零零八年一月三日，三个月后的同一天，和平分手。兄弟买了McNugget赶来看我。
那些日子期间我也不懂怎么过的，浑浑噩噩，好像都没吃东西。
二零零八年的平安夜，在家，很平静，感觉很宁静。却因为去年的回忆而失眠。
感情路似乎一直很悲伤，一直在犯傻，也许现在也是？
提醒自己，我是单身。单身有的是自由。
一年了又。

Magazine

I can't believe I buy a magazine (I haven't pay the money back to birdleg). A teenage magazine. A magazine that full of Taiwanese and Korean idols. Male idols like 阮经天 and 飞轮海. You don't believe it? Me too. It's all because of JING YE! And who's 京爷? Refer back to this. Yea, she managed to squeezed into 3rd placing in that magazine's sort of most popular idols in Taiwan and became the cover of the magazine. The magazine's targeted readers I assumed to be young teenage girls. And young teenage girls are crazy over those pretty boys like 郑元畅 and 贺军翔. So you can assume that Taiwan girls are crazy over Jing Ye as they crazy over those pretty boys. Ok this is not the point. The point is, this is the first time I buy a magazine. And I just feel.......weird when I open the magazine that fulled of guys-acting-cute photos and a big flipped poster of those pretty boys fall out from it. It's just so w.e.i.r.d. Probably 京爷 is the most normal figure in that magazine for me~

I ate two days' meal in one day. So now I'm having stomach cramp.
Serves me right.

家

打开抽屉，你会找到意想不到的东西。我的抽屉，我宝贵的记忆。里面所收藏的东西，连我自己现在看到了都会吓一跳，竟然还会留着，可是每一份物品都带着某些回忆，提醒着自己的过去。重要或不重要的，每份物品都有特别的意义。或许三、四十年后再看回这些物品，仍然还能够记得它们的历史，勾起小时候的回忆。

家，太舒服了，会让我太过于慵懒，太过于放纵自己。在这里我会没有奋斗的决心，吃好穿好睡好，没有烦恼得不懂要做什么好。比起两个哥哥，我应该是比较有野心，也能够说我比较幸运，因为我是最小的，所以也能够任性。我有梦想，我有理想，而任性让我踏上了理想之道。 我只能说，我是幸福幸运的，感恩~

家里的一切也都还是没有变，家外的那颗棉花树又要结果了。农历新年期间棉花季节如同下雪，红色的鞭炮碎与雪白的棉花，会是一幅美丽的情景。

well,you know

You know,
you can make a girl went to bed earlier by telling her that her eyes bags are really obvious,
and makes her looked so 'chan' and not pretty.

And you know,
I can really get aggressive when I'm hungry,
especially dinner time.
I'll lost my patience and temper,
and throw tantrum like a three year old kid that demands to be fed.

And you know,
sometimes you and I are just like kids,
need a lot of attention and caring,
to be loved and pampered,
by people that are significant to us.

词句重组

一时的兴奋换来阵阵的郁闷，
亏大了。

拍拖 纳闷 跟 你 我 她

喜欢的 戏 歌 沐浴露 同样的 听看用
已足矣 你 会让我 是否 更了解 ？

我已变得不敢在这里坦白
顺其自然

titleless

Suddenly I just realize,
I was expecting too much from this,
without myself knowing.

Another dark secrets revealed within.

Maybe things will change after this week.

有一点

有一点介意，
有一点难受，
有一点胡思乱想，
有一点不开心，
却有一点满足，
还有一点迟钝。

I know how I feel, only through my reactions.

I have dark secrets now.
That's one of the reaction.

NO kv NO

每当Milky咬人的时候，要大声喊‘NO’，然后打它屁股。
这个是Skinner's Operant Condition的'Punishment'-decreasing a behavior by administering an aversive stimulus following a behavior。

Whenever Milky is biting people,I have to shout 'NO' and spank her little ass.
This is Punishment of Skinner's Operant Conditioning=decreasing a behavior by administering an aversive stimulus following a behavior.


我跟我自己说‘不可以’,好像没有什么效，怎么办？
声明：我不要被打屁股。
我知道不可以的...
When I tell myself 'No', it doesn't seems to be working. How har?
And I don't want to be spanked.
I know I must not...

Invisibility

看得见我的，爱不得；
想爱的，看不见我。
Those who see me, I can't love;
Those I wanted to love, can't see me.

继续隐形吧~

dreams and camera

When I was a kid,I always dreamed of going to many places around the world. The Seven Wonders, the desert, the Antics, any part of the world that are peaceful and harmony.
Well, so far, I'm still a frog under the well, I haven't been oversea, I don't even have a passport! See, I'm still so far far far away from my dream.

There is this guy named John Goddard. He listed down his 100++ goals like traveling to here and there, learning this culture understand that culture, and he eventually achieved most of them. How come har? If I list down my dreams list, will they come true someday? XD

I want a Camera! A real, cool, sophisticate camera can? Like Canon or Nikon DSLR cameras that make the holder look so darn pro! Ok, I know nothing bout digital camera,I never own one, and I don't even know how to operate one. Another dream that is still far away from my reality.

But I do have camera. My Sony Ericsson k550i Cyber-shot camera phone that allowed me to:

curi took picture of someone who falls asleep in class

curi took picture of my sleeping Milky without waking her up

curi took picture of someone too busy writing 'love letters'

and sometimes,snapped beautiful scene with not-so-beautiful quality

But now,the camera function goes haywire AGAIN! When I slide open the cover lens it says 'Another application is running. Close it, and then start the camera.' This happened before few months ago,and somehow it 'cured' itself mysteriously after few days and it was functioning well until YESTERDAY.
This phone really have a lot of problems. I just bought it last year and already masuk kilang for don't know how many times dah. I swear to myself I'll never buy phone from Sungai Wang again,even if it's not AP,you won't know how original is the original phone set from there. Next time when I want to buy a new phone,I would rather spend a little bit more money by buying in the phone company retail or service center to avoid all these CRAPS.

Now tell me,what should I do with this phone -.=....

numb-less

Sometimes I wonder,
would it be better if the heart just stop feeling anything?
So I won't fall and get broken again.
I'm outsider, watching you from your back,
catching you if you fall? You won't tell me,anyway.
Craving for your body warmth,
I feel secure when you're close,
it won't happen anyway.
I don't know how should I behave,
so I won't go beyond the boundaries.
Yes, I'm in blue mood recently,
but I'm still able to function, don't worry.

Get me outta here.

乱

最近思绪又混乱了，
话说钻牛角尖是双鱼座的特性，
在死胡同里打结。

我需要时间，
来重新适应。

我光明正大地成了‘奸夫’，
因为清清白白，所以光明正大。

告诉自己这没什么大不了，
再难的都经历过，
这是我对自己的安慰。

情绪不受控制，
形象破灭了，
这证明我还不是专业的。

杂乱无章的一篇，
没有依序，没有关联。

moral of the story

最近很多人需要鼓励、加油。
B.Psych还在赶着assignments的seniors and juniors们要加油~
STPM快到了，我的同仁们，我大声地在这里替你们加油！
HELP University College的volleyball team也要加油！
我也要加油！

最近一直在进行volleyball训练。上课礼拜的TARC DIGI MATCH虽然无功而返，甚至是每场都是输得很离谱，可是我看到大家的努力。每粒球都努力去救，女生队差不多每人都为了救球而跌过。第一次出队，第一次整team一起打，也只能说是去吸取经验而已。
这个拜六的是MAPCU，话说很重要，教练对女生队志在必得，还派男女各两队=.=''....
今天最后一次训练，女生全员到期，第一次-.=''
话说Team A很强，一个SUKMA player,一个Zimbabwe national player,一个我的前队长兼前Kedah state player。我在Team B。
刚开始的有些失落是真的，因为我期盼跟我前队长并肩作战，话说她之前是我的偶像。^^''
话说Team B很乱来、很吵、很疯狂。我从来不知道打球可以那么疯癫 -.=''
结果Team A vs Team B,guess what? Team B won.
在看似比较有默契和没有压力的疯狂状况下，虽然没有好的setter(本人）和spiker,却赢了实力比较强的Team A。
So what's the moral of the story my friends?
NO stress,then you can do it!

I want to be a better player
I want to be a better player
I want to be a better player!!!!!
=自我催眠

Fall for you-Secondhand Serenade

Am                                        F
The best thing about tonight’s that we’re not fighting
     C                               G
It couldn’t be that we have been this way before
Am                             F
I know you don’t think that I am trying
C                                    G
I know you’re wearing thin down to the cor
F         G
But hold your breath


   C                                   Am
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
F
Over again
                G
Don’t make me change my mind
 C
I won’t live to see another day
Am
I swear its true
   F                              G
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
               Am F C G
You’re impossible to find


Am                    F
This is not what I intended
   C                                      G
I always swore to you that I would never fall apart
Am                            F
You always thought that I was stronger
     C
I may have failed
                          G
But I have loved you from the start
 F         G
Oh, But hold your breath


   C                                   Am
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
F
Over again
                G
Don’t make me change my mind
 C
I won’t live to see another day
Am
I swear its true
   F                              G
Because a girl like you is impossible to find

It's impossible


Am      F      C
So breathe in so deep
G        Am
Breathe me in
F         C
I’m yours to keep
G               Am
And hold onto your words
F         C
‘Cause talk is cheap
G           F
And remember me tonight
When you’re asleep


   C                                   Am
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
F
Over again
                G
Don’t make me change my mind
    C
Or I won’t live to see another day
Am
I swear its true
   F                              G
Because a girl like you is impossible to find


C                                   Am
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
F
Over again
                G
Don’t make me change my mind
 C
I won’t live to see another day
Am
I swear it’s true
   F                              G
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
              (C)
You’re impossible to find

Credit:
http://guitartabkills.blogspot.com/2008/10/fall-for-you-guitar-chord-by-seconhand.html

once in a year

No matter how you say it,it still hurts.
I can do nothing but to accept it.
Yet,I can't help myself from falling.

A or B?

曾经明目张胆的在部落格写情书示爱，自以为的浪漫，肉麻得很。没有开始没有结局的明恋。
当.....
Missing you makes me happy,so why not I just continue missing you.
这是很单纯的喜欢，很简单的恋着，没有希望回报，不会有心痛的感觉。
可是当......
I'm missing you like crazy,but will you even think about me?
这很不简单，每想到那个人心里就会愁，没信心没尊严，悲伤哀伤。
单纯的喜欢，不就好了吗？可是人总是自私，总是会有所期望。结果，还是算了。A,继续恋着，B,失望换绝望的死心。
光明正大恋着你？我可以吗？是不应该的，就算大家都叫我老大。
你看，都叫你远离我了，还说我懦夫，现在我还真想逃到没有你的地方。

我们是矛盾体，不喜欢当女生，更不喜欢当贱男人。
‘如果你是男的......’
拜托，如果我是男的，你就不会考虑我了。因为我的性格我的一切都会不一样了。
对，我是对男生有偏见，因为我不是男的。少了一条东西多了一些脂肪，所以我不会用下半身思考。
我一直处于劣势。他们说我的公主还没有出现。我觉得就算公主出现了我还是会处于劣势。
我恨我自己不是男的吗？我最多恨我自己的身高。
我选择A，目前。

R.I.P.

Remember that a cute kitty that I mentioned in my blog last few months ago? The Siamese kitten. He was not a kitten anymore,a big grown cat now,but still cute. The Indian family that lives opposite called him Spotky or Spotty,something like that. But now he's gone. I found him laid death outside just now,when I walked Milky. He's dead,for unknown reason,he was not breathing anymore. I suspect he might be knocked down by vehicle,as he was born imperfect in terms of physical. Whoever his murderer is, I curse that he or she to be a stray cat next life. I know there are many of us that love this cat. I feel sorrow that he was not buried with dignity,as there are no tools for us to dig the ground. I didn't dare to look at him. I mourn. R.I.P.,Spotky or Spotty.

Volleyball competition tomorrow at 8am until 8pm,have to wake up at 6am. I'm the captain and setter again. I don't feel good,a bit stress. Looking forward to have a nice match tomorrow.

-How I wish that I'm a guy at that moment -

yea rite

I was google-ing on net for my group project topic,and I found this!
Islamic Clerics In Malaysia Rule To Ban Tomboys
Yea rite,come and try us.

shit happens

Shit happens all the time and how you deal with it?
Use toilet paper or newspaper?
WRONG ANSWER!
The right answer is, not to emphasize on the shit. Life still goes on and it would be better if you just concentrate on what makes you happy today rather than what shits happen on you.
Meaningful right? I learned that from Peer Support Group's Search-in Camp. It was fun and educational camp, I did some very embarrassing stuffs that you don't want to know =.-''

Sometimes feel so tired of covering up stories and hiding myself, although I don't lie when people actually come and ask me the question,but I choose not to be high-profile or show-off of myself.
Okay la okay la,I'm gay. So what? XD
Been having some thoughts about the issue again lately, which related to what I wanna become in future. I want to help people like us,because we are helpless at most time.
So next time when I put 'great, I'm teaching someone that I like how to reject me' on my msn personal message,don't ask me which guy. It won't be a guy. I don't like people linking me up with a guy. It sounds gay to me although I'm not a hard butch.

To ignore,or not to be ignored? That's the question.
Better if I just ignore you than you ignore me? Herm... I wish I could.
You're my current shitty shit and internal conflict. I know the circumstances,yet I couldn't hold myself. I'm no coward,you have no idea how much courage it took for me to make that request. I thought it's better off that way but I'd neglected your feeling. It was selfish for me to make that request, but it's not cowardice.
Now,I think I shall just go with the flow.

sleepy day and boring night

I'm too lazy and sleepy to do anything,so instead of writing the career guidance's journal,I'm doing this tag by Uncle Michie. See how bored I am now.

1. What’s your ambition?

To earn money while doing the things i like~

2. Who is more important to you? Friends or boy/girlfriend?
both

3. How often do you think of committing suicide?
once before but never again

4. Do you think you have enough confidence?
nope,i'm low profiler

5. How many babies you want?
i wan puppies

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
not after every rain.but yeah,that's a fact what.

7. What is your goal for this year?
i don't have 1,too late to have one now~

8. Do you believe in eternity love?
yeah,i love my dogs

9. Do you enjoy traveling? *yes i know this quest is nothing got to do with Love*
yeah,but i dun like being in transportation,especial public transport.

10.What feeling do you love most?
able to lay down on my bed after a long tiring day

11. What is your bad habit?
lazy-ness,XD

12. Is there anything you wanna tell the ppl who hates you?
emmm,nope,i dun mind

13. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
yeah,if they really take me as their friend.

14. What does flying means to you?
means up up high in the sky~

15. What do you crave for the most currently?
my bed

16. Who do you think is hotter, Chace Crawford or Kevin Peaker?
me hotter,XD

17. Describe the person who tagged you in 7 words.
kacau-able,tease-able,uncle-ish,truly penengese!

18.What have you done to yourself make yourself happy?
play with milky

9. What will u become in another 10 years to come?
A MIGHTY CRAZY PSYCHOLOGIST,WAKAKAKA. Kidding~counselor maybe?or working in company,herm...

20. What is ur lucky number?
3?

I'm not tagging anyone~

random pics

Jeng jeng jeng jeng~Here comes the Milky~

Look at her cute innocent puppy eyes~so adorable and so 'guai'~

This photo was taken on the day I brought her home.Was in Y.Hui's car on the way back to my place. She fallen asleep with her head rested on my palm~

This is a suger glider,not mine,but it's so cute!but Y.Hui called it 'monster' =.-''

What can you do with a jacket during lectures?

Use it to keep warmth+cover your face and you can sleep whenever you can as long as you don't snores XD

Hoodies are cooler because it covers your whole face and you can try to scare people~

Writing board of chair spoiled and I decided to do some good by alerting people about it:

(The signed n smiley was not from me!)

Anizo 11th series

Yes yes it's Anizo again,the latest 11th series,but I missed the 10th series...>,< Anyone have 10th series and wanna give me?XD~ 11th series is Olympic series. Again,I spent RM8 on two Anizos,and here's what I got.

Front view:The Silver Medalist,see the word '银'?

Back view:Second placing

Front view:The 'on-the-hoping-list'.There's Japanese word that I'm lazy to translate and there's '期待' means 'hoping'

Back view:Whole bunch of Japanese word that I don't understand

This Anizo was given by my housemate after I showoff my Anizo series in their room last night. It was the Anizo that makes me crazy about them. The earlier series which I forgotten first or second series.

'胃弱',means weak stomach or gastric,which reminds me of Y.Hui when I first saw it.

Back view:shape of stomach at the back

p/s:Yee Tong!I want your 10th series!!

Milky

Those who know me well will know that I love dogs. I'm a dog person. And now,I have TWO pet dogs!! My good old Mimi of course is still in my hometown,with my mom,and now I have MILKY here with me in PJ~

Few weeks ago,Y.Hui called me and asked me what will SPCA do to unwanted puppies. There were four puppies at the back door of her place. So she asked me what to do with the puppies. Chances for puppies to survive by their own in KL is very low,and of course I would wanted to keep all of them,only if i could. So,last friday,The Gang came and fetched me and bought everything for the pup before we went to Y.Hui's place to see which puppy that I wanted to take in. Conditions of the pups were not so well.Ticks,skin problems and smelly. But overall they're all healthy pups. OK so four pups,it's hard for me to choose,one black with brown marks,one black with white marks,one brownish brown,one yellowish light brown. Then two Indian teenagers showed up,they said the pups were belongs to them,their grandpa thrown the pups here because he hates dogs,now they're coming to take the pups back and swear that they'll kill their grandpa if he ever touches their dogs again -.='' Since we've bought everything needed for my pup,so I still decided to take the yellowish light brown pup,because she's the skinniest,smallest and worst condition among all. And her cute pupppy eyes just caught my attention.

And so,she's my Milky now~Why milky?because her ligtht brown whith a little bit white area makes her look like 'milk tea',also remind me of brilliant HL.

She's my responsibility and I'm all she got. She will be a good companion. It seemed not to be a bright choice to keep her because when holiday I'll back my hometown. But nevermind,there's always a way.

Thanks to Y.Hui and WanChun for their sponsers of dog shampoo and dog chain. Photos of Milky will be up soon~Just too lazy to transfer pictures from my hp now~Whisky whisky~Ah~I'll name my next dog Whisky.

It would be your fault if I fall for you,again.

B.Psych shirt!

With all due respect, I love B.Psych(Bachelor of Psychology Department,pronounce as B-Site), I really do. B.Psych makes me feel liked I'm home,it's so comfortable you see. I even feel sad when I knowed that our department was moving from Block E to Wisma Help. Once Block E belongs to psychology people,now it's not anymore and we have to scatter all over the place,lectures in Block E and tutorials in Wisma Help, how inconvenient! And I still love my B.Psych, we have the best lecturers and the cutest Dean ever. We have friendliest office administers and open style office. Yes we can just open the office door and kacau our lecturers whenever we want. But, I JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY WE DON'T HAVE ENOUGH S SIZE DEPARTMENT SHIRT!!!!

Department shirt was supposingly to be given to us FREE so that we can help to promote our department whenever we wear it out. I don't mind being a advertising tool, I'll proud to be one actually,for our B.Psych,BUT HOW AM I GOING TO WEAR AN OVERSIZED DEPARTMENT SHIRT OUT AND STILL FEEL PROUD OF MY OWN DEPARTMENT AT THE SAME TIME?IT'S EMBARRASSING! SIA-SUI!

Ok I'm shouting I know. Why am I so pissed? It's because tomorrow will be HELP's annual sports carnival,and we must wear our department shirts. I have the shirt, it's L-SIZE! And you know lah,I badan kecik mar,L-size is super large for me. So, even I already had the department shirt long ago but I never wear them. The shirt was supposed to make us feel proud when we wear them mar,not make us feel like an idiot that wearing oversized t-shirt. And it's obvious that we have more girls in our department,why la ordered so few S size? I just don't understand. My friend actually went and pressed them to give her a S size shirt,and they did =.='''.....Apala ni,bully us yang diam diam mia lah,then tunduk kepada yang assertive mia lah,so unfair~ You see la last year I played for HMC and they gave me another free department shirt again,I was so shocked and I asked the admin guy do I have to give it back and he said don't need it's for you. You see how generous?

Please la B.Psych big people,don't be so kiam siap(kedekut) lah,give us the size that we want,we happy,the department also happy mar~

I hate it when I have to wear overly large sized shirt to play volleyball,especially competition >,<''
So not yeng!

Promoting

The topic started from I said I cut hair,and few people from my class said I looked '帅' with new haircut. Then somehow HAIR related HL to CHRIS LEE!


Ok doesn't look much alike in those pics,but actually is much more alike when you see the MILK in person.
If you notice the similar characteristic:
-big head,lion hair,height,long thin hands and legs,small eyes lah~~~
HL=CHRIS LEE~wakakaka~
When I first met this HL,I can't help myself from smiling and shouting out 'LEE YU CHUN~'

OK,this entry is purely for entertainment.
And yes,few people said I 'lengzai' today,because of my new short hair.
I LIKE MY NEW SHORT HAIR~~~

p/s:
Chris Lee's new style:

I don't know what's her personal fashion stylist thinking. They're trying to make her look like a 'pondan' and '人妖' while they think she looks pretty in those dresses.
Poor Chris Lee~
HL quote this from somewhere:
女人是水做的，男人是泥做的，而李宇春，是水泥做的~
Perfect description and combination~

彩虹

放学后下着细雨，看着背景离去。
我喜欢太阳雨，
可是在驾着坐骑时下的太阳雨却不是很美很享受的一件事。
毛毛雨时的两个大彩虹，
令我想起了周杰伦的愿望。
我很乖，
隔着距离，
还能嗅到芒果香，
危险的象征。
今天有人叫我老大，
因为我比他帅，WAHAHAHA~

I got free Starbucks drink,Chocolate Cream Chips which priced RM14.20~
As PAYMENT for my countless-sleepless-counseling session-night la har~wakakaka~

fresh voice

From time to time,I will 'tanam' myself in YouTube and search for new voice. And today,these are what I found:

Virginie from France. She looks a bit like Max from TLW don't ya think so? BUT here's Virginie with long hair, and her own song 'Angel':

Beautiful and amazing voice she had.

And here's a cute punk girl from Singapore--talktothewalls. Cool name eh?haha~


And this is Alex Parks. Not a YouTube singer,but I still want to introduce her here XD

I just love her emo voice~

bullet and pistol

Haven't pull out the pistol but already executed. The worst part is, I didn't even plan to pull out the pistol =.-''
I'm still standing because I'm bullet-proofed now.
How smart-ass I am,knew the ending before it starts.

Listening to the same old sad song,and laugh on the same sampat person that caused us so much pain. How small is this world? Seems like there's linkage between everyone.
时过境迁，人事已非。
However,glad that someone's 'dream finally came true'. XD I'm happy for them~

extreme

I guess I'm such one extreme person.When I'm sleepy,either I'll become hyper,or I'll be emo.
So,the equations are:
sleepy kv=hyper kv @ emo kv

It gives my heart a funny feeling,whenever I see those pictures.
I'm happy for her,I guess.Yet,I feel sorry for myself,I'm not good enough.
It battered my self-esteem.It really did.It's not the first time thou.

I'm just craving for someone to be with me,that's all,I guess.
And I feel nothing I can do to get it.

To night

最近很容易说错话，阿姐说我很容易烦躁，ok现在我发现到了，还真的是......
我不想的啊~~~怎么就这样呢？也好像最近才会这样.......
词不达意，容易让人产生误会，得罪人，不是好事咧~
好，我会注意用词，少说话以免说错话。

Something is bothering me lately, I don't know what is that. Ah jie said I'm easy to get irritated recently,i guess she's right,I don't know what's the heck wrong with me -.='''

Being too free makes people lazy~
I need motivation and inspiration,again.

I'm easily attract to someone.

Sorry that I was not being able to help you clear up your mind,today.

Raining day

Imagine this,people:
Scene 1:
You're driving a car,waiting for traffic light to turn green,it was a raining day. Not to say jam, but the queue was long. Suddenly,there's a sound at the left,and you find you left side mirror was damaged,and the motorcyclist that scratched your mirror fall down at the roadside,not serious injured,but was soaked wet in the rain without raincoat,what would you do?

Scene 2:
You're riding a motor half way to home when(I know many of you don't even 'tumpang' a motor before,just imagine you're cycling lah) it started to rain heavily and you without your raincoat. Like usual,you drive at the roadside,try to bypass the cars,and suddenly you scratch a car's side mirror,you lost balance and fell down at the roadside. The car owner scrolls down the window and ask you to pay him for the damage on the car,without asking are you ok or not. What would you do?

It just happened to me 30 minutes ago. Sadly,I'm the motorcyclist,and I lost RM30 to that Chinese taxi driver.

No worries,just a little scratches on my left knee when I fall down,but overwhelmed by emotions.

The Chinese taxi uncle said to me his car side mirror was broken and I have to pay him because the car belongs to company. I asked him how much,he said RM30. The rain was heavy and didn't want to argue,and much because I was at guilt,so I gave him the money exactly although I did think of lying him that I only have rm20 in my wallet. The side mirror was not fully broken actually,and afterward only I realized it doesn't cost so much to repair that side mirror right?
The first thought that I had when I was on my motor again was,'damn ''sui'' lah today'. Then I got so angry thinking back what just happened.

Why was I so angry?
First,the Chinese taxi driver didn't even ask am I ok,and he took so much of my MONEY!I was damn disappointed. When I tried to get up my legs was abit stucked by my motor and nobody helped me. How naive was I,hoping someone to get off from their car and help me.

Second,the taxi driver doesn't even ask me am I ok!I was like what kind of people is this!What's wrong with this people!Malaysian lah!Chinese lah!Uncle lah!Taxi driver lah! People lost their ability to sympathize when they get older?

And Third,I was angry at myself. Always allow people people to take advantage of me when I was vulnerable,unable to be assertive,easily lost my head to think when something happens on me. Also of my own carelessness lah,I was not focused enough. I was thinking what to eat,when to fill in petrol and busy avoiding the roadside lubang until I didn't paid attention to the space between me and the cars on my right.

Then I remembered my previous post,about my motor broke down on the highway. Every event that occurred must meant something. And so,I cool down and analyzed my feelings.If I'm the car driver,I don't know how will I react also.
For this incident,I was lucky that it was not a serious accident.
I'm lucky that I just had a little scratch on my knee without other injuries.
I'm lucky I'm still alive.
I'm lucky that I'm feeling hungry now. XD


p/s:Today will be a great day without the incident.Anway,the PSG(Peer Support Group)'s PET(Peer Empowerment Training) was great today.We had fun and we learned stuff.
pp/s:KL road sucks!!I can't understand why are there so many drain cover's hole ON the roads!!Car drivers might not realize,but it's very irritating and dangerous for motorcyclists.

evil me

世人皆为情事烦，唯我最逍遥~
（后狂笑iconx1000)

对这个世界如果你有太多的抱怨
跌倒了就不敢继续往前走
为什麽人要这麽的脆弱 堕落
请你打开电视看看
多少人为生命在努力勇敢的走下去
我们是不是该知足
珍惜一切 就算没有拥有

看看周杰轮新歌<稻香>的歌词，多有醒世意境啊~
That's part of the lyric of Jay Chou's new song. How meaningful is that~That is only if you can understand Chinese words lah,HAHAHAHA~

I realized that I like to bully those people that I sayang.
打是疼，骂是爱，欺负是疼爱，
当你觉得被我气得上气不接下气，很委屈的时候，请不要生气，
因为，
只有够熟嘛，才有机会让我欺负~嘿嘿嘿~
So,don't be angry when you think that I'm evil,
it just one of my own way of showing you that you're close with me ^^

些些的心疼，for those I cared.

unhappy feeling

It doesn't feels good,when feeling starting to grow,and someone or reality took 'it' away from you. You know exactly when the feeling grows. You'll imagine living with 'it',having future with 'it',how happy it will be for both of you to be together... Sigh...

I'm tend to be a person that develop feelings toward 'something' easily.
I'm gonna miss you.



p/s:'It' and 'something' from this articles doesn't specifically refers to a thing,a feeling,a human or an animal. 'It' can be anything!

Recommendation

今天，我要推荐两样东西。第一样：
Today,I want to recommend two things.First:
《恋上我的情敌》
It's a Chinese online novel,those who can't understand Chinese,don't bother to click XD But I'll do something good--TRANSLATE THE MORAL OF THE STORY~WAHAHAHHAH~It's an unfinished story,due to some circumstances,the author didn't have the chance to finish it. The moral of the story is:'live everyday like there's no other day,cherish whatever you have in hand,tell out whatever you have in mind.'
作者幽默直接豪爽的风格，会让人忍不住哈哈大笑。故事没有很长，也是由其他地方转载的，我懒得找出原帖，所以直接连接这个吧。故事怎样的就不透露了哈，总之就是感慨感叹感恩~

第二样：
Second:

《花吃了那个女孩》
花怎样吃了女孩呢？我不知道，表问我，问编剧或者导演去~
帅女生跟漂亮女生接吻，多么的美妙的美景~
吴恩琪变吴立琪liao，可是还是一样帅气~
'Candy Rain',very much different from the Chinese title,but one thing still the same--weird title.
Nice kissing scene,don't you agree so?XD~
Niki Wu Niki Wu~~
Must watch~~

p/s:I want a nice body shape like Shane >,<

affinity?

Girls are weird,they want you to be honest with them,then they get all mad up at you for being honest. =_=''

Feeling a little bit despair and ... after watching 'Affinity' the movie.
Sarah Waters is a brilliant author that wrote amazing and breathtaking fictions. She's famous for her Victorian writing style,most of her stories happened during Victorian Era. I first watched 'Fingersmith' the movie,confuse and complicated it might seem,adventurous and exciting at the end. Wish to get the book from Kinokuniya someday~

Sometimes,things are not as bad as you think. You just have to look at it from a different perspective.

When the question 'why it always happen on me?' comes in,I will try to remember that. Now get back to work~

US at UM

Yesterday and today,I went to UM hospital to visit my old schoolmate,Hooi. She had ear infection and done a small operation. Nothing big,still able to jump,talk LOUD and laugh like SIAO ZHA BO. This was the first time of our gathering here in KL,after they came over UM to study 2 months ago. In UM hospital,how weird is that?haha~She's leaving the hospital tomorrow anyway.

Loo Sze,Hooi,me. We'd been friends since primary.

She forbidden me to post this photo on web,but who cares right~?kakakaz~The wad that she's staying is very comfortable,almost made me dozed off in the chair beside the bed. And guess what,she's staying for free!No charge on the operation,not even a sen she have to pay for staying in a second class wad! There's even a heater in the bathroom! And the food is good,according to her. It's all because she's a UM student.

Obviously,there's a lot different between a public U and a private U. The culture is different,the environment is different,the students are different,the FEES are DIFFERENT. Went to the UM medic faculty's canteen to eat my 'zap fan' that I da bao. People here isn't just smart,they are GOOD LOOKING as well! Don't have the chance of studying in UM,but pretended to be an UM student and 'curi makan' in UM canteen is quite....er...syok?!HAHAHAHA~

UM hospital is huge,might get lose inside without Loo Sze shows me the way. Even she got lost while trying to bring me way out to the hospital -.-''... And I found the lift button is funny,why? See the photo below:

Four buttons to press?!

Actually there were two lifs there. The left 1 is for the lift at the left,while the right 1 is for the right. But normally all the lift button would be at the same side of the lift and same design right? Cute betul~

Cute kitty

Here it is~Photos of the cute kitten that I'd promised to show in previous entry. Yes I did mentioned about this kitten,in Chinese,hehe~

He looks like a mixed Siamese Cat.Small black ears,white paws,and white lines on his back.Adorable isn't it?

I massaging the kitty~He was so comfortable under my 'skillful' hands until he tried to play with my fingers

Sleepy kitty taking his nap under my housemate's car.

That's his sibling!Dosn't look alike at all.His sibling is more shy and the colour is much different but similar to their father. But their mother is a plain black cat.

I saw this food fighting scene when I came home from dinner one day. The cute kitty was fighter over a big piece of fried chicken part with his sibling. Cuteness disappeared and replaced by predator instinct. Deep tone growl can be heard until I moved my hand toward them and the fight over when his sibling back off. Cute kitty won~

Like I said,I won't keep him as my pet when he is able to grow and live in freedom without worries of food. Every night there will be a kind and generous lady giving out food to stray dogs and cats beside my house. But it won't hurt to give him a name right? What name is suitable for him? Any suggestion?

random as in random

Life has been too peaceful since I got back kl,that's why I haven't been blogging until now.
日子太平淡，没东西好写，所以blog空空。人家忙到没时间blog，我太闲到不懂blog什么~

Let's see,classes started,five subjects this semester,not much classes,but will have tons of assignments. Thinking of getting a part time job. THINKING as in THINKING. XD
I'm considering of taking minor in Mass Comm,specialize in Marketing Communication.
One of the subject this semester,Career Guidance (don't ask me what is that,it's a subject specially held by my department for psychology students), the lecturer wants us to write journal/blog about the lesson we learn from class weekly as part of the assignment. How cool is that? Blogging as assignment.
And I have communication problem. I don't know how to talk to people,especially strangers. Right,and I'm taking Business and Communication and Introduction to Mass Comm this semester -.-''

最近家里（as in here in PJ)出现了两只小猫，其中一只让我一见钟情，二见欢喜，三见爱不释手。小巧可爱傻乎乎的，眼睛圆溜溜，反应有些迟钝。它的兄弟看到人走靠近就溜走了，它还傻傻的缩在当地，结果就被我灵活的一双手征服了~娃哈哈哈~~ 注：征服as in 被偶按摩得服服帖帖，还有把偶的手当逗猫棒/鸡腿。没有打算强行收养它，还是让它自由成长好。Took few pictures of it,will post it up next time.

Final day

Tomorrow I'll be in the big city again,how soon is that? One month had passed,without me to realize.
Look back into the past,something had changed within me. More mature?More down to earth I would say. I'm wise enough to differentiate desire and reality. I'd transformed.

明天就回大城市了，你说多快啊？才一眨眼的功夫而已，一个月就这样晃过了，又要回去独立的生活自己洗衣找吃了T.T
看回去年写的blog，感觉又有些改变了。去年五月至九月的，看了心里还是会隐隐作痛，无奈的一场戏，意想不到的结果。喜欢现在的心境，平静而稳重了，也是近来才有的。回去后的生活，我想会是热闹的。

教学记（八）--完结篇

是的，我终于摆脱了一群小鬼的折磨，从今天开始我终于自由了~~~~
今天乃教学最后一天，班上也只来了小猫两三只，因为这两天有些乖的、学习好的都被选去游玩了。
上课最后一天的事，我没大事宣扬，也没告诉那几个小鬼，正如徐志摩的‘悄悄的我走了，正如我悄悄的来，我挥一挥衣袖，不带走一片云彩~’，看人家多么的潇洒，我乃好同志，应当学习学习~所以没有那种依依不舍，也没有眼眶带泪的情节发生。

今天还真的有几样事让我发晕的：
第一，班上今天只有两个女生，而那两个女生不懂吃错了什么药，还是发什么神经，竟然在班上掀起衣服！！你说我晕不晕，虽说还没发育，可也三年级了应该知道男女授受不亲，班上还有四、五个男生，竟然在大庭广众下暴露，虽然只是短短几秒，可也．．．可也．．．．我无言．．．

第二，一群由二、三、四、五年级组成的小美眉，冲好凉后不懂做么，结伴来ｋａｃａｕ我：
‘老师老师，你说他们两个哪一个比较美？’一个四年级的可爱小妹问我。
‘呃．．．’，我认真的看了看那小妹指的那两个小可爱，然后说：‘呃．．．两个都一样美啦～’
‘那老师这两个咧？哪一个比较美？’，小妹又问，大家看着我。
‘呃．．．’，搞什么啊？选美啊？不怕我是喜欢女生的诱拐掉你们？问到我都害羞不好意思看谁美谁不美了，‘呃．．．都美都美，你们都美啦～’。
‘老师老师，其实她最美ｈｏｒ？’，另外一个小妹指着那个四年级可爱小妹。
我看了看，好像也是，差点点头说是了。‘嗯嗯，你们都美啦都美～’。
说真的，那群小美眉还真的都是小美人，长大后一定不得了～如果她们是我学生，其实我会暗爽，嘿嘿～我最爱kacau小美女~

接下来，就是要勇敢的催老板娘给我发薪水了。每次打工等薪水都等得不是很顺利，总是一波三折。

我还真的不适合教书，没有那个威严，也不懂教书。有些学问学起来自己明白容易，教人家明白难啊~还有，我最讨厌小孩子发脾气，发什么小姐/少爷脾气，我也是有脾气的，哼！

补充昨天的一小段：
前晚因为追看中国对巴西的那场比赛，搞到我迟睡。昨天以上课我就先说明我睡不够，脾气会不好，最好不要惹我。结果就是有人不怕死，小狼不发威当我病狗，跟我顶嘴。第一次当真发怒，训了整班一顿，小鬼们见我真怒了，乖了一阵，然后还是照老样了=.=''

=完=

教学记（七）

这个星期是黄色假期，也就是中小学的假期，一个字，累！他们学校假期不代表安亲班假期，而且还全日制，从早上到下午，老师人手不足，下午时一个顶两班，还好我教的是早上~
三年级的11个小鬼在假期里变成15个，因为四个是励华的。其他小学的三年级还是下午班，就是我母校励华比较特别，三年级就开始早班制，所以通常星期一到星期五我是不用看到那四个励华的小鬼的。

由于是假期，跟平时上课不一样，整个星期都在听写、ejaan跟spelling,因为要选出几个优秀的学生，uncle要带他们去槟城一日游。看似简单，还真不容易，因为要一直大声念给他们听，搞到我差点失声。也因为下午时老师不足，我也延迟放工时间帮忙顾班几天，没有OT算的咧~

今天下午，我坐在四、五、六年级济在一起的课室，坐在我前面的是两个四年级男生，一个在做订正，一个在背书。我刚坐下来不久，就觉得那个在背书的男生一直盯着我看。我就说：‘做么一直看着我？’，那男生就乖乖低下头看书了。又不到一下子，那背书的当着我面跟那做订正的小小声说：
‘老师看起来很像男生’，当然被我听到了，就算没有听到我也猜得到他要说什么-.-''。
‘我是女生啦~’，然后寂静。
过了一下，那背书又盯着我看。
背书那个问他：‘你做么一直看着老师？’
‘老师看起来像男生咯。’
那个订正的也来说：‘老师看起来像男生，不过声音还是像女生。’ 什么东西，说我不难不女了这？！
‘我本来就是女生嘛~’ 我努力澄清。
接下来就普通的师生对话，问问什么学校，原来是励华我母校，就聊聊学校老师，讲讲某某老师的坏话，然后又各自作各自的东西。
过了一下，那背书的还是盯着我看。
‘做么一直看着我的？’
‘老师他看你奇怪~’这个是订正的那个讲的。
‘我有什么奇怪？你们才奇怪，做么一直说我像男生？’ 我故意发问，想知道我到底哪里像男生了我-.-''
‘因为老师你看起来像tomboy’。 这是那个背书的回答。我的天，还真吓我一跳，四年级男生竟然懂这个词。
‘哈哈哈~你去哪里听来这个字的哈？哈哈哈~’ 我那个心虚阿我~
‘什么什么老师？他讲什么？’ 那个订正的听不懂，问我。
‘哈哈哈，你问他啦~’ 我继续心虚装不知道~
故事就到此一段落，不了了之~
谢谢~

主角

空窗期，总是看别人写的故事来填饱自己的空虚。所幸这假期让小孩子们折腾得够累人，也没闲暇功夫胡思乱想，乐得清闲。今晚不知怎的，与友人聊起过去，又小孩子气来了。人长得够小孩子样了，还小孩子气，也难怪总是不被选择的那个。我想抱怨了，可以吗？我的每段情史，不长，有些还没开到花就先被人采夺走了。我自卑自闭自疑自欺。

故事总是好的，让人幻想自己是那个帅气的主角。小时候看得武侠小说多了，我也常幻想着自己身怀绝技，是个武林高手，要行侠仗义闯荡江湖。现实里做不到的事情太多了，把自己的寄托附属在自己创造出来的假想人物身上，功夫要多了得就多了得，要多潇洒就多潇洒，多乐？

我喜欢狼。而狼总是跟雪有些关联。所以，我是狼，她是雪。之前我喜欢过的女生，5个里面就有3个的名字中有‘雪’。所以我经常在想，下一个她的名字里是否也同样有‘雪’？？

张芸京与笔酱乐团的1030：

再也沒能夠替你　做些什麼動容的事蹟
聽起過　別人對待你的憂懼

觸摸憐憫綻放笑靨　你最想逃開的慰問
原來藍天　總飄散灰白色霧氣

吐出了一段段鍊條　你死鎖的跳躍大腦
原來氧氣不再供應　呼氣吸吮

悲傷　絕望　遲鈍　愚昧
羞赧　悲劣　苦衷　忽略

你跪坐著哭泣　我無能為力
你張大著怒吼　我無能為力
你默禱著低沉　我無能為力
你放逐著奔逃　我無能為力

歌词意境很好，就是无能为力的感觉。可为啥叫1030？京爷说这首歌在10月30号完成的。如果歌名叫‘无能为力’，反而没有那么特别了。

我困了，释放了忧郁后。

教学记（六）

继续我的教学记经验之谈。我还是教回了三年级，原因是那个新老师来了一天后隔天就落跑了。
Let's continue about my experience about teaching shall we? I'm still teaching the standard 3,because the new teacher never came after the first day,so it's me with those little devils again.

来说说我班上的那11个小鬼吧，今天，我教了第三个星期（应该是如果我没记错的话），终于能够记得那11个名字了。不要惊讶，我记名字的能力很差，你跟我说你叫什么名，5分钟过后我又会问你叫什么名。Let's talk about those kids in my class. After 3 weeks of teaching,today I finally able to remember their names,11 of them.
小鬼一号：
Lim Eu Nee，号称小大小姐，偶尔胆大无理，最爱就是跟坐在旁边的那个男生打架，还有就是发小姐脾气。Macam anak emas la ni,sometimes will throw tantrum,and likes to fight with the little guy that sit beside her,but then the next day they'll be alright again.
小鬼二号:
Kok Keen，我总把他叫做Kok Kean。坐在小大小姐旁边，被我封为班上最吵的小鬼，一直说不停，功课也用抄的，没有救咯~ I always called him as Kok Keen.Sit beside Eu Nee,and he's the noisiest devil in class,talk nonstop with Lim Eu Nee.
小鬼三号：
Yek Zhao ，被我封为最烦的小鬼，也最三八鸡婆，可有一次这小鬼冲好凉后回家前问我‘老师要买东西给你吃吗？’，真让我有点小小感动。Most annoying devil!but once,this devil transformed into angel,and asked me 'Teacher do you need me to buy you some food?',quite touching eh~
小鬼四号：
Swee Hang,小霸王，最喜欢欺负别人，也敢跟我打架，就是可以动人家人家不可以动他，不然就闹脾气给你看。可是如果乖起来，还真的是很乖。Big bully lah this one,bullies anyone,when others tried to bully him,he'll show his temper. But sometimes,he'll turn into an angel,and does his homework quietly.
小鬼五号：
Yan Wei，黑珍珠小美女，眼睛大大皮肤黑黑牙齿白白，长大后一定是个可爱的美女~说话慢慢呆呆的，坐在Swee Hang旁边，一直被欺负，可怜也~觉得班上最可爱就是她~ Sweet cute little girl~big eyes,dark skin,sweet voice~Going to be a beauty when she grows up~Cutest among all~
小鬼六号:
Qian Hui,小小个子的女生，讲话细声细语，小声到你要靠在她前面才听到她说什么~看起来斯文，其实满顽皮的~Small little girl,looks gentle,but naughty at times~Speak very softly,have to move closer to her to hear what she said.
小鬼七号：
Yu Xiang，近视600多度，带着眼睛还是看不到黑板，属于差生，很可爱 ，可是也很皮！也是敢跟我打架的小鬼~ A true cute devil la this one,very cute~but also very naughty~Dare to pick fight with me.
小鬼八号：
建豪，有叛逆的骨子在，会欺负人，可是也会尝试做功课。Jian Hao,rebellion little boy,bully others sometimes,but does his work~
小鬼九号：
Min Yi，成绩不错，偶尔也会不做功课，跟旁边的‘发明家’说话。 A clever girl,but talkative at times.
小鬼十号：
子维，样子斯斯文文，小鬼们所谓的‘发明家’，一直‘发明’东西不做功课，可是如果向他施展压力他还是会乖乖就范。所谓的‘发明’也当然，只不过是把这支笔拆散，跟另一支笔的一半装起来。Yeoh Ze Wei,look like a nerd,but actually,a lazy nerd. Tried to 'invent' things whenever he can. His invention such as mixing those pencil parts up.
小鬼十一号：
振辉，就是喜欢问我私人问题的小鬼，却也蛮乖的，会听话的其中一个~ A kid that likes to ask a lot questions,regarding my personal information.

还有一些其他年级的小鬼，因为经常给我检查功课，也跟我比较熟了~And other kids from other classes, I befriended them when I check their school homework.
Goh Wei Sheng，一年纪的小男生，很羞涩，静静的，很可爱。A cute little standard 1 boy,very shy and quiet.

杨彩琪，一年纪的小女生，很可爱，戴着大眼睛，很喜欢粘着老师。Yeoh Cai Ci,a cute standard 1 girl with big spec,likes to talk to teachers.

Leng Khai,二年级的小男生，其他小鬼叫他‘娘娘腔’，确实有一点哈~哈哈哈~冲凉后喜欢不穿衣服拿着毛巾包头摇屁股，而且声音还会‘嗲’，我看他长大满大的机率会是帅gay~ A standard 2 boy,other boys called him 'sissy',which I think he does have the potential of becoming gay in the future~Why?because his voice is quite girlish,and he talks in a soft girlish way,and he refused to wear his cloths after he bathed,which I think grown up gays like to be naked also,and he jumped and 'yeerrr' and 'ngeeeh' when something upset him.


P/s: translation specially for mich and ah jie,over~

2008奥运在北京

2008年8月8日晚上8点，华人就是喜欢8，讨个吉利，顺顺利利。开幕典礼，把中国华人的传统与文化展现给了世界，也展现了华人子弟惊人的毅力和耐力。虽然错过了刚开始的45分钟，在看重播时仍然深深的感到感动，两千零八个人打的鼓，一致的动作，可看出是经过多日的苦练。短暂灿烂的烟花，当最后一棒的火炬手绕着鸟巢飞檐走壁跑了一圈，把圣火点上大火炬时，又是一阵感动。北京奥运，不单单是中国人的骄傲，也世界各地黑头发黑眼睛黄皮肤任何一个华人子弟的光荣。

奥运的选手，个个都是世界之最，健硕的身材，各怀绝技。奥运就有一个官方广告，健儿们穿上古代希腊战士的服装，代表着人类各方面，还有那句‘Make Us Proud’。 得称赞一下Astro这次，10个频道多数现场直播Live比赛，随时转到任何一个频道也有精彩的比赛可观，真是兴奋啊兴奋~

犹记得四年前的Athens奥运，刚好在PMR预试前几个星期，中国与古巴女排决赛那一战，精彩绝伦，一边拿着书，一边拿着电话跟郑家仪sms，‘eh u watching vlb?','yea very geng','yalo very exciting leh','china won!!!china won!!!yeah!!!'。郑家仪，好久没联络的朋友。同班第二年才熟悉起来的原因也令人很汗。

昨天看了中国男篮对美国的梦幻队，刚开场姚明的那粒第一粒进篮的三分球，振奋人心，不禁让人对中国男篮有些期望。可第三场下来，原本还相差10分之内的分数一下子拉开到30分的距离，中国队进攻不得手反被反攻，三分球也没效了，手中的球倒是给人家偷去了不少，期望变失望了。

今日看了巴西对苏联的女排，身高略占便宜的世界冠军苏联，惨败给实力很强的巴西。听说美国女排在郎平执导下进步神速，不禁为中国女排担心，老将们不在了，新手们能否挡得住美国与巴西的强势，保住四年前的金牌咧？中国队加油！

还有，马来西亚在开幕典礼穿进场的服装，还真的令人呕死！！！！怎么服装设计就不能进步一些呢？！？？又不见得印尼的马来装那么难看？？同样是马来装，颜色设计就差那么多，真的是......

sweet couple,my idol-Ellen DeGeneres

A short entry regarding my idol, Ellen DeGeneres and her partner Portia de Rossi.
我的偶像，Ellen Degeneres，一个以幽默闻名的主持人，有空去youtube找看看她所主持的节目，曾获奖无数的talk show--The Ellen Degeneres Show,看她在里面妙语如珠，偶尔还跳跳舞，翻翻竞斗，不说你都不知道，今年她已经年迈五十！
事业有成、家财万贯，又有个美丽大方的模特儿/演员女朋友，叫谁不羡慕咧？！
早在90年代初，Ellen在她的节目中出柜，成为那时候第一个大胆在荧幕出柜的艺人，结果一出而红，把本来已有名气的节目推上巅峰，从此大红大紫~ 叫谁能不佩服她的勇气咧？！要知道90年代初同性恋还没普遍被接受，homosexuality也才刚从psychological disorder教科书里面删除，而且在美国公开承认同性恋身份，很有可能走在街上被打死。
看看照片~

家居生活：手牵手带狗狗散步~
某年的某个颁奖典礼，帅气西装打扮
获奖后的喜悦~好奇那位仁兄是啥感觉哈哈！
喜欢这张~到底什么事让两人那么开心咧？还让Ellen帮Portia掩着嘴巴~
意外车祸，坚持躺在病床上主持节目
This picture makes you smile,right~?Look how sweet they are~

以上种种原因让我决定把她封为我的偶像！我的目标啊目标~

教学记（五）

摆脱了三年级，结果开始了‘单纯恶魔’的噩梦。一年纪虽然单纯，可好像就是太单纯了，什么都报告老师，这个叫老师，那个也叫老师，而且不管你有没有在听他们也照样跟你噼里啪啦一大堆；二年级就没那么单纯了，夹带着单纯的大胆顶嘴，两个字，欠打！

今天第一天教一、二年级，有三班，二年级两班，一年级一班，就好像学校上课有分节，一节50分钟。今天，就是喊到没有声音，也不见得有效，有人说：‘哇，很大声咯~’，然后静了几分钟，然后又开始乱糟糟。算了，明天开始执鞭，管教这些小鬼不得不严。

有一班的二年级，令我很无言......我的性别始终还是可以引发他们的好奇心，虽然我已经故意忍住不剪头发了。
‘老师你很像男生咯~’。混乱中似乎还有人讨论我的衣着。
‘老师有人说你不男不女~’。 我除了=.=''' 我还能怎样啊我？
‘老师你到底几岁？做么你降矮的？’
‘老师有人说你三年级罢了～＇ =.='''''''

教书记（四）

话说星期六时，老板娘突然要求我延长工作时间，教到六点，可还真不是假的累，我想如果我每天都做整天，我会累死+疯掉。
跟那班三年级的小鬼关系已经破裂，我就是看似不会教书没有经验的临教。刚好有新老师进来，下星期开始我教一、二年级，三年级还给经验丰富的Teacher Loh。哎呀保佑保佑，年纪小，是不是会比较单纯好教咧？有几个给我检查功课的一、二年级生就满可爱听话的，但愿其他的上课时也一样啦。

根据本人的仔细观察分析，老板娘绝对是个厉害角色。说话句句锋利带刺，用的不是体罚，而是psychological abuse。老板则相反，绝对是个体罚主义者，小朋友们一看到他的身影会自动的安静下来，乖乖假装做功课。那天看到老板鞭打小朋友，当然只是打掌心，却还是触目惊心。你看你看，我本不想让他们被打，可他们就是犯贱，乖乖做好功课不吵不就不会被打咯。p/s:不是我向老板打小报告让他们被打的，是老板突然出现检查他们的功课发现功课乱乱做，所以被打。

那天的‘童言童语’：
那天有人又发挥了八卦本性。
问：‘老师你没有男朋友咩？’
答：‘没有’
然后那小鬼蹦出一句令我哭笑不得的话：‘老师去追啦！’
结果其他的小鬼更加语出惊人：‘傻的你，哪里有女生追男生的啦！’
偶卖糕，我为有人为我‘辩解’而感到高兴，也更为没有人说出更加惊人的话而大感安慰~

后来，我站在白板前边休息，那小鬼继续他的惊人言论：
‘老师你看起来像小孩子咯~’
小孩子说我像小孩子，我是该去撞豆腐咧还是去跳水沟？

教学记（三）

开始觉得那群小鬼很可恶，根本没把我放在眼里嘛！真是~ 今天小大小姐惹毛我，态度不好没礼貌自以为是，当真让我发火大骂，结果惹得全班不甘不愿乱乱读。
这是上气不接下气的第三天。

怎样跟他们打成一片又可以让他们乖乖听我话咧？看来得好好想想，使用一些催眠/心理学手法了。有啥建议呢各位？能够让他们听课，又不用体罚的。

我工作的地方不是学校，是补习中心也是托儿所。就是那种父母把孩子丢在那里补习、冲凉、吃饭，然后直接在那里上校车去学校，年龄层有小小幼稚园到小学六年级。 我负责教的是小学三年级，不大不小的年纪，半天吊。星期一到星期六小朋友都要来，比学校上课还累，听说学费不便宜，RM300以上。学生上课累，老师教书也教得累，还好我只教半天，中午回家还有大把自己的时间，不至于把自己搞得像个上班族每天规律一致从早忙到晚的生活。